Spilling our guts online…

So here is my disclaimer: Everything I place on here, I’m fine with biting my ass in the future. These are my words and I alone am responsible for them. I do not regret anything I have said, about me personally, or others. They are my opinions, feelings, and thoughts in those moments. Those opinions, feelings and thoughts might change over time, but in the moment they were written out, they stand.

Plus, if I live out in the open enough, there aren’t going to be any secrets someone can dig up, if I ever decide to run for office. Deflate the balloon before the hot air blows. 😀

This sucks. I can’t sleep. Keen sense won’t shut up. Fuck. I wish I could be better at letting go of things. I hate this stuff.

Alright, my Keen sense is acting up again….

And I don’t know what’s triggering it. Usually I can pin-point a few things, but this time I’m getting absolutely nothing and it’s weirding me out. So, I’ve sent out a few check-in requests, those of you who read this can respond here. Those of you who are sensing this too, please let me know. I hate feeling like I really am the weird one.

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If I was a lesbian, I’d date this woman.

I must have sand up my ass today, or something….

Baseball federation president Aldo Notari said: “The problem with baseball is that the best players are not going to the Olympics Games. (Whole story)

Ok, call me crazy, but the Olympics are pretty much about the amateur athletes. So why should there even be a comment about the best players not going to the Olympic games? Trying to come up with the same fiasco that Basketball and Hockey had when they decided to let professional athletes comprise the Olympic teams? Seriously, it’s one thing to have one or two pro athletes on a team, to head up the kids (like Czech and Russian hockey) but it’s another to put a bunch of American Queens on to a team so their egos can help them lose and throw temper tantrums that result in destroyed hotel rooms.

Sheesh.

Oh yeah, off to my meeting with the CB, looks like DQB won’t make it. Any bets that DQB didn’t give CB my check for my due invoice????? Yeah, I know it’s a losing bet.

Well, my great uncle is safe:

Thank you for your concern [Saille Mom]. I was lucky. I have a reader’s ticket to
the British Library which keeps a copy of every book published in the UK.
The Library is near King’s Cross. Fortunately my journey was delayed and the
Harrow Station was closed before I could travel. The 21 people killed at
King’s Cross were on the train travelliing from the South whereas I travel
from the North. I will ask Simon to email you. They are going on holiday to
Northern France on Saturday. I am going on a Coach tour to Switzerland and
Austria on Monday. People’s attitude in London is that we are not going to
let terrorists dictate what we should do. Much love Peter

Gotta love my family. Something happens, we acknowledge and move on.

Something amusing from the other day….

The one problem about dating multiple guys – getting tag-teamed by both of them (not in that way you perv), with one on the phone and one standing next to me both saying “Would you say what’s going on in your head?”

Dude! I only have one good ear! Can’t focus on both at the same time! *giggles* Anyway, all’s good, it was kinda of amusing, and I have two guys that love me lots and help me out in more ways than I can count on my fingers and toes.

*mwah*

I hate nights when I have nothing but visions. It makes for an awake, yet ver, very tired freak. Especially when the good ones didn’t last long enough.

A friend of mine commented that my July 4th stuff should also include the idealists and philosophers that give cause to the reasons we fight. Which, is true…back in the 1700’s. The people who gave the ideals that framed the foundation of this country had a great deal to say, and an understanding that many of the “idealists” today, lack. Of course, being a lover of Locke, Franklin, Madison, and various others, got me labeled naive by my father, as my ideals weren’t based in the reality of the present. However, I do think we’ve lost a great deal in taking advantage with what we’ve grown accustomed to, in regards to freedoms that we take for granted. My paternal gram always used to bitch about the Suffragists and how there were better things to worry about, than politics. I consider her the ultimate Feminist (and if she were alive today she’d knock me upside the head for calling her that – she never understood the 70s either). This is a woman that did what she wanted, regardless her gender, and regardless what society told her she could do. She grew up when a good bit of American history was happening. She saw the end of Reconstruction after the Civil war, she lived through the Great Crash, the Dust Bowl, Black and Women’s Suffrage, Prohibition and the Repeal, both World Wars, etc up till 2000. Now that woman had ideals, and unfortunate to my family, I took after her. The stories she told were amazing and I regret not recording any of them. I still hold out hope for the sudden finding of a journal she wrote.

Anyway…the reason I say I don’t give much credence to the idealists of today, is the fact that they’re almost in exact opposite of what we had at the start. Honestly, I’ll say the last great idealist died when Paul Wellstone passed through the veil, and no one has stepped up to replace him. I get called a Liberal, because those on the political spectrum forget what liberal means, not to mention that being a conservative has little to nothing to do with preserving the Constitution anymore (which is what I really am – in the preserving sense). It saddens me that we’ve lost all respect for protecting the minority, in the manner we were set up to do, and we’ve become more concerned with protecting the rights of they who can yell loudest.

If I manage to group my thoughts anymore, I’ll write them down. Till then, I’ll step off my soap box.

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