horoscopes

The New Year…

Scorpio (October 23 – November 21)

"I've been absolutely terrified every moment of my life," said Scorpio painter Georgia O'Keeffe, "and I've never let it keep me from doing a single thing I wanted to do." I think her declaration is excellent medicine for you. In 2013, you will have great potential for upgrading your relationship with your fears — not necessarily suppressing them or smashing them, but rather using them more consistently as a springboard, capitalizing on the emotions they unleash, and riding the power they motivate you to summon.

FreeWill Astrology

I have no interest in being terrified, but I will definitely admit that I need to get over my avoidance of forgiveness, and finding a way to do so. I've always been aware that it was a process, not something you can force, or give lip-service to, but a full long-term process. For me, it's full of anger, mostly at myself and that causes an inability to forgive others, because I blame myself for whatever the result is/was that got me into the mess. Over the last couple of weeks, it's become pretty obvious that I'm ready to forgive, a little. I need to let it go, a fear that I have no idea where it came from. I'm just tired of the anger, and I'm tired of the passion I used to have no making my heart sing every morning. It has taken a physical toll, I think, and is probably the reason why I have so much trouble waking up in the morning (doesn't help that I stay up too late, either). But the waking up part came before the going to bed late, so I can't really blame the late turn in.

Without further ado…

Horrorscopes

Scorpio (October 23-November 21)

You could preside over your very own Joy Luck Club in the coming days. According to my reading of the astrological omens, the levels of gratification possible could exceed your normal quota by a substantial margin. You may want to Google the Chinese character that means “double happiness” and use it as your ruling symbol. And it might be time to explore and experiment with the concepts of “super bliss,” “sublime delight,” and “brilliant ecstasy.” Halloween costume suggestions: a saintly hedonist from paradise; a superhero whose superpower is the ability to experience extreme amounts of pleasure; the luckiest person who ever lived.

FreeWill Astrology

Well, waking up laughing, compliments of my friends H&D from down under definitely helped. I’m honestly feeling a bit divided, because my life, on paper sucks ass right now. But emotionally, I’m in a really good place. I woke up laughing and smiling, Lexus is finally hanging out with me again, my shoulders aren’t killing me, and I feel hopeful. Maybe it’s the thought of the new year turning on Monday, and a new year for me on Thursday. Had a great conversation with my Mum this afternoon and gave her an explanation on why I spend birthday money on bills and whatnot. Security is more important to me than shiny gifties, and having that makes me feel happy, which is what she wants. So she is now happy because I will be more secure. I have a clean house, well, semi right now. And I’ve been helping some friends out as I can. Have also been getting lots of nuzzles from Lexus and spending some time being a bit extravagant on my dinners. I’m also confident that my over-spending yesterday will put me in a better place in the future, as it will hopefully bring better traffic to my office. My fingers are crossed.

I hope this happy wave is much longer than the depression I’ve been going through.

Distance is not just a number

Scorpio (October 23-November 21)

In August and September, millions of seabirds known as Sooty Shearwaters leave their homes in New Zealand and travel thousands of miles to the Gulf of the Farallones, just off the coast of San Francisco. Why do they do it? The feeding is first-class; the tasty fish and squid they like are available in abundance. I suggest you consider a Sooty Shearwater-type quest in the coming weeks, Scorpio. The very best samples of the goodies you crave are located at a distance, either in a literal or metaphorical sense.

FreeWill Astrology

Well, I will be traveling over 1k miles next week, and I hope to have things set up, so far, to where I will only need to do a minor monitoring of work-stuffs. I will be happy to get out of this country again, and this time, I’m leaving the news behind. I need to disconnect for a bit, really disconnect. I’m doing better at being mindful of my stress levels, and taking deep breaths as needed and telling my shoulders to drop. Even started water exercises on Tuesday mornings. Spent last weekend with good friends, need to do more of that, more frequently even if it means putting more money in the gas tank. Simplicity, need to get back to it, because I spend way too much time sitting on my ass (which is killing me) in front of a computer (which is killing me) and stressing (which is killing me). See the trend?

My eating habits are improving, slowly. I do remember to grab my granola bar as I head out the door and thanks to MARTA and its wonderful ability to be on time, I’m walking a lot more. The schedule is getting better, but I’m still missing a female therapist, the good thing is that I have dependable folks I can call upon from time to time to cover me. I’m happy to realize that I am finally surrounding myself with folks who not only reciprocate, but will allow me to be indebted to them for short periods of time, till I can repay them in some manner. I’m finally starting to feel secure in those relationships and not feel like I’m shelling out more than I’m getting back (and I hope that those involved feel the same, if not, let me know and I’ll put you in first place, I don’t intentionally forget that) – which, BTW psychosu, my mum reminded me to take you out to dinner when I get home, so start thinking what new and exciting place we can go.

Oh yeah, I need to stretch myself and stop worrying about getting everything perfect. As my dad said, I have 30 years to get my house perfect (but I can’t wait to have the bedroom tile and the door separations put in). I just need to remember, I have time.

And another interpretation, fill yourself to the gills when you can and spoil yourself on delectable items, but remember to be humble and live simply in the meantime. 😉

Horrorscope

Scorpio (October 23-November 21)

The roots of big old trees are your power objects. I advise you to visualize them in your mind’s eye for a few minutes each day, maybe even go look at actual trees whose roots are showing above ground. Doing this will strengthen your resolve and increase your patience and help you find the deeper sources of nurturing you need. Another exercise that’s likely to energize you in just the right way is to picture yourself at age 77. I suggest you create a detailed vision of who you’ll be at that time. See yourself drinking a cup of tea as you gaze out over a verdant valley on a sunny afternoon in June. What are you wearing? What kind of tea is it? What birds do you see? What are your favorite memories of the last 30 years?

FreeWill Astrology

Given the way the last couple of weeks have been going, and my mum’s diagnosis of me having the flu, would probably be a good idea to nurture myself. I think it would be a good idea to go back and look at my roots. Any time there is a change of chapters, returning to roots is a good means to integrate the new things learned with the old things, in order to move forward. So, I’ll work on this, this week. 🙂

That said, things are going nicely. I found some decking, in the event that I have to suffer the horrid colour of paint on my patio, that matches the condo siding. My pepper plants are looking nice, growing slowly, but good. I’ll be able to afford new planters soon, so they’ll be ready. 🙂 The strawberry plant is doing wonderfully, too. The roses….not so much. The praying mantii were late in hatching, and the white flies have already destroyed a good bit of them. They’ll be getting cut back a good bit come winter, hoping to rid the world of some white flies. In the process of figuring out which new herbs to buy for the new planter box, preferably some Italian ones, given my love of Italian food.

Office is coming together, slowly. LivingSocial is all resolved, and I’m definitely getting interest from folks who want to be members. In the process of hoping to interview at least one therapist, soon. My yoga certification starts in September, super psyched about that, given my need to get active again. In the meantime, I’m looking around for affordable rollerblades in hope that I can start waking up early enough to go for a skate without overheating. One step at a time, and I am getting there. Balance is delicate, but it’s working, as long as I keep the bigger picture in mind and keep my reacting in the moment to the moments. I’m highly worried that I’m over-stressing myself to a heart attack. Just need to get through this point and I’m good.

Horrorscope

Scorpio (October 23-November 21)

Provocative new influences are headed your way from a distance. Meanwhile, familiar influences that are close at hand are about to burst forth with fresh offerings. It’s likely that both the faraway and nearby phenomena will arrive on the scene at around the same time and with a similar intensity. Try not to get into a situation where they will compete with or oppose each other. Your best bet will be to put them both into play in ways that allow them to complement each other.

FreeWill Astrology

Hrm, not quite sure what all this means as I haven’t seen any evidence of any new influences, much less provocative ones. Though, I will say the new found popularity I seem to have is interesting. I still hate talking on the phone and my out-of-control schedule is a hassle. I’m on my way to a new therapist in the office, which will be nice (really nice). I might actually reconfigure the first part of my week, as I found my two days off – in a row – was much what the Dr ordered. I’ve always thought that a split week would be doable, but I found that I was fully recharged after 2 hectic weeks over the span of 1.5 days off. Food for thought.

Not much else going on these days, besides work. I’m not stressing about the bills today, due to that nice sizable check arriving yesterday. So tonight, bill paying will be on the docket and hopefully everyone will quit harassing me for being so late.

I have made a few changes in life, the goal is happiness and balance. Some things that I had hoped would occur do not seem to be, so I gave up on them and cut them out of my life. Main focus is growing the business and getting my house in order, which is happening, slowly.

My health goals are going to be slow, as I need to figure out a better means to exercise, now that the summer heat is here and my body is saying “fuck you” to the concept of going outdoors and doing any amount of exertion. Yay summer!!!! Means the indoor yoga practice is going to have to get off its ass (and I’m working on that).

Scorpio (October 23-November 21)

Hugo Chavez is the socialist president of Venezuela, not an astronomer or New Age philosopher. And yet he recently speculated that the planet Mars once had a thriving civilization that met its doom because its resources were drained off and poisoned by the excesses of capitalism. I love it when notable people go off-message and freestyle wacky fantasies, so I applaud Chavez’s improvisation. May I respectfully suggest you consider indulging in your own version of this art form? According to my reading of the astrological omens, it would be downright healthy for you to depart from your usual raps and unveil some unpredictable self-expressions to anyone and everyone who think they have you all figured out.

FreeWill Astrology

Well, at least it would definitely make things be more interesting than they currently are, I think. But I can say, I really don’t like the idea of being lumped in with Hugo Chavez. What a nutcase.

Scorpio (October 23-November 21)

In the Philippines, there is a geographic anomaly I want to call your attention to: a volcanic island in a lake that’s on a volcanic island in a lake that’s on an island. Can you picture that? Vulcan Point is an island in Crater Lake, and Crater Lake is on Volcano Island, and Volcano Island is in Lake Taal, and Lake Taal is on the island of Luzon. It’s confusing — just as your currently convoluted state is perplexing, both to you and those around you. You could be aptly described as fiery earth within cool water within fiery earth within cool water within fiery earth. Whether that’ll be a problem, I don’t know yet. Are you OK with containing so much paradox?

Yes. And I am finally comfortable with this and I am starting to enjoy it a good bit.