Month: August 2006

Nerves hit yesterday at 11.30AM. They progressed during the day, only made worse by a friend in town I’ve been wanting to hang out with, and finding that wasn’t possible. So compound that with my general insecurities about friend-making and possibly annoying the ever-living fuck out of the person and causing problems that shouldn’t have been there to begin with. GAH! So what do I do? I head to Chatt to the overlook of lots of sparkling lights, making the Earth like the Heavens. On the way up there, I hit my dark spot, ready to destroy all my opponents. Then my boy Z called. Broke the mood, but the events of the last couple of days I’ve held on to, so that I can return to that dark place tonight and be ready tomorrow.

This is the one thing that bugs me about the chosen path I’m taking. Very few understand the need to be in that place. And they don’t help me stay there, they break me out of it, but don’t understand when I separate out from them. Maybe I should have told my friend that this weekend was set aside for me, made things easier on the both of us. Who knows, that could be my own fears talking, and probably is. Time to go to the gym, I should just expect the solitude, instead of seeking against nature. One of the first triads I learned – Of the 3 people who are cursed, one is he who works against nature. Maybe I should stop being who I want to be, and just exist as the person I am. Unfortunately, she’s not a very pleasant person to be around.

Scorpio for this week:

The Colorado state legislature tried to pass a law requiring public schools to put wholesome food in their vending machines. But the governor vetoed the bill, declaring that schools need the revenue from nutrient-free chips, sodas, and candy bars to finance their sports programs. Besides, he said, kids would much rather snack on junk food than the healthful fare. If you’re faced with a similar choice this week–whether to do what’s good for you or else indulge your vices and seek out meaningless experiences that provide no fulfillment–please go for the former option. The astrological omens suggest that this is a turning point, for better or worse, in your relationship with your bad habits.

FreeWill Astrology

This is kinda funny given the circumstances at the moment. However, I don’t believe there is such a thing as a meaningless experience. Otherwise, yes, there is a turning point ahead of me, and the direction I’m looking is definitely in a more positive direction.

Scorpio for this week:

Many people regard Evangeline Lilly, star of TV’s Lost, as an exceptionally attractive woman. When she was younger, that was a problem for her. “I spent many nights crying myself to sleep,” she has said, “wishing I was ugly because of the way men leered at and disrespected me.” In my studies of human nature, I’ve found that most of us, like Lilly, have had a tormented relationship with our most extravagant assets. Fortunately for you, Scorpio, you now have an enhanced capacity to be at peace with and thoroughly enjoy the potent effects your beauty and power have on the world.

FreeWill Astrology

Hrm. Well, given that I never had that problem as a child, not quite sure which direction to take this one. I am at peace with things right now. My ability with words and touch has brought me much happiness and peace. Things Saturday and last night proved that much to me.