I’m confused. So much going on in my head right now, trying not to jump the chasm to where I want to be, getting ahead of things and getting confused in the process. I’m spinning the circles of a child on a sunny day. Just looking up with the smile of pure enjoyment of nothingness. My stomach in knots from fear. Wanting to run away back to the mountains, or the ocean and just exist in my elemental state. Experience the pure joy and love that exists outside this space in time. Where I no longer have to worry about the menial lives of my human self. That interaction I find more often in the spiritual realm, than I do here on this plane. Melding into one with all that’s around me and ceasing to exist as myself. I want to shed this skin, one last time.