Month: June 2011

Distance is not just a number

Scorpio (October 23-November 21)

In August and September, millions of seabirds known as Sooty Shearwaters leave their homes in New Zealand and travel thousands of miles to the Gulf of the Farallones, just off the coast of San Francisco. Why do they do it? The feeding is first-class; the tasty fish and squid they like are available in abundance. I suggest you consider a Sooty Shearwater-type quest in the coming weeks, Scorpio. The very best samples of the goodies you crave are located at a distance, either in a literal or metaphorical sense.

FreeWill Astrology

Well, I will be traveling over 1k miles next week, and I hope to have things set up, so far, to where I will only need to do a minor monitoring of work-stuffs. I will be happy to get out of this country again, and this time, I’m leaving the news behind. I need to disconnect for a bit, really disconnect. I’m doing better at being mindful of my stress levels, and taking deep breaths as needed and telling my shoulders to drop. Even started water exercises on Tuesday mornings. Spent last weekend with good friends, need to do more of that, more frequently even if it means putting more money in the gas tank. Simplicity, need to get back to it, because I spend way too much time sitting on my ass (which is killing me) in front of a computer (which is killing me) and stressing (which is killing me). See the trend?

My eating habits are improving, slowly. I do remember to grab my granola bar as I head out the door and thanks to MARTA and its wonderful ability to be on time, I’m walking a lot more. The schedule is getting better, but I’m still missing a female therapist, the good thing is that I have dependable folks I can call upon from time to time to cover me. I’m happy to realize that I am finally surrounding myself with folks who not only reciprocate, but will allow me to be indebted to them for short periods of time, till I can repay them in some manner. I’m finally starting to feel secure in those relationships and not feel like I’m shelling out more than I’m getting back (and I hope that those involved feel the same, if not, let me know and I’ll put you in first place, I don’t intentionally forget that) – which, BTW psychosu, my mum reminded me to take you out to dinner when I get home, so start thinking what new and exciting place we can go.

Oh yeah, I need to stretch myself and stop worrying about getting everything perfect. As my dad said, I have 30 years to get my house perfect (but I can’t wait to have the bedroom tile and the door separations put in). I just need to remember, I have time.

And another interpretation, fill yourself to the gills when you can and spoil yourself on delectable items, but remember to be humble and live simply in the meantime. 😉

For the one who possesses my heart…

When I met you, I had given up on the idea of ever opening the doors of my heart again, to another human. But for some reason, the night I met you made me change my mind. There was something that you brought with you, that I could never quite make out. Your silent, but quiet understanding of everything I said. As we finally started talking, I found a long lost friend whose story I already knew and who truly understood me. I found a natural pattern that unfolded between us, nothing that really required much explanation and the things that did were met with an understanding that I have never been a part of. It was amazing.

I haven’t regretted anything between us, nor would I change any part of our journey to this day. Our angry silences have brought us to a greater understanding of ourselves and each other. Our joyous adventures have been absolutely amazing and have opened me up to a greater part of myself and the beauty that is around me. I cannot conceive of a time when I was not with you. Time has been endless and seems like every Sunday is a breakfast on the patio with music in the background or dancing in the evening, and a constant laugh always happening

You are amazing and I love that our souls sing in duet and our eyes give our hearts the same joy at the same vision.

My creative half

Over the course of the last couple of weeks, I’ve discovered something interesting about myself…when my creative side is safe and secure, I tend to watch movies involving romance. I noticed about a year ago, that I stopped watching most of my movie collection and pretty much stopped watching movies all-together. Never really questioned it and chalked it up to lack of interest and need to focus elsewhere. A couple of weeks ago, I shed some baggage and dropped a layer of armour. I’ve basically shut down the desire to write, because I was tired of things being read into my writing and basic fear of what it might mean to others. Well, dropped that off a high pier, I’m tired of worrying about that because I don’t want others to feel they can’t do something because of my feelings, therefore, I should not let that dictate my own writings. I feel lighter, more in love with life and the things that I do. I am ready to start exploring the new depths that I have waded into and find the new treasures.

I’ve also started watching my sappy movies. It’s my guilty movie pleasure, but it stokes the fires that let me see the beauty in everything and not so much the negativity.

Good riddance to bad rubbish. And may the love letters flow from my pen.

Horrorscope

Scorpio (October 23-November 21)

The roots of big old trees are your power objects. I advise you to visualize them in your mind’s eye for a few minutes each day, maybe even go look at actual trees whose roots are showing above ground. Doing this will strengthen your resolve and increase your patience and help you find the deeper sources of nurturing you need. Another exercise that’s likely to energize you in just the right way is to picture yourself at age 77. I suggest you create a detailed vision of who you’ll be at that time. See yourself drinking a cup of tea as you gaze out over a verdant valley on a sunny afternoon in June. What are you wearing? What kind of tea is it? What birds do you see? What are your favorite memories of the last 30 years?

FreeWill Astrology

Given the way the last couple of weeks have been going, and my mum’s diagnosis of me having the flu, would probably be a good idea to nurture myself. I think it would be a good idea to go back and look at my roots. Any time there is a change of chapters, returning to roots is a good means to integrate the new things learned with the old things, in order to move forward. So, I’ll work on this, this week. 🙂

That said, things are going nicely. I found some decking, in the event that I have to suffer the horrid colour of paint on my patio, that matches the condo siding. My pepper plants are looking nice, growing slowly, but good. I’ll be able to afford new planters soon, so they’ll be ready. 🙂 The strawberry plant is doing wonderfully, too. The roses….not so much. The praying mantii were late in hatching, and the white flies have already destroyed a good bit of them. They’ll be getting cut back a good bit come winter, hoping to rid the world of some white flies. In the process of figuring out which new herbs to buy for the new planter box, preferably some Italian ones, given my love of Italian food.

Office is coming together, slowly. LivingSocial is all resolved, and I’m definitely getting interest from folks who want to be members. In the process of hoping to interview at least one therapist, soon. My yoga certification starts in September, super psyched about that, given my need to get active again. In the meantime, I’m looking around for affordable rollerblades in hope that I can start waking up early enough to go for a skate without overheating. One step at a time, and I am getting there. Balance is delicate, but it’s working, as long as I keep the bigger picture in mind and keep my reacting in the moment to the moments. I’m highly worried that I’m over-stressing myself to a heart attack. Just need to get through this point and I’m good.

Horrorscope

Scorpio (October 23-November 21)

Provocative new influences are headed your way from a distance. Meanwhile, familiar influences that are close at hand are about to burst forth with fresh offerings. It’s likely that both the faraway and nearby phenomena will arrive on the scene at around the same time and with a similar intensity. Try not to get into a situation where they will compete with or oppose each other. Your best bet will be to put them both into play in ways that allow them to complement each other.

FreeWill Astrology

Hrm, not quite sure what all this means as I haven’t seen any evidence of any new influences, much less provocative ones. Though, I will say the new found popularity I seem to have is interesting. I still hate talking on the phone and my out-of-control schedule is a hassle. I’m on my way to a new therapist in the office, which will be nice (really nice). I might actually reconfigure the first part of my week, as I found my two days off – in a row – was much what the Dr ordered. I’ve always thought that a split week would be doable, but I found that I was fully recharged after 2 hectic weeks over the span of 1.5 days off. Food for thought.

Not much else going on these days, besides work. I’m not stressing about the bills today, due to that nice sizable check arriving yesterday. So tonight, bill paying will be on the docket and hopefully everyone will quit harassing me for being so late.

I have made a few changes in life, the goal is happiness and balance. Some things that I had hoped would occur do not seem to be, so I gave up on them and cut them out of my life. Main focus is growing the business and getting my house in order, which is happening, slowly.

My health goals are going to be slow, as I need to figure out a better means to exercise, now that the summer heat is here and my body is saying “fuck you” to the concept of going outdoors and doing any amount of exertion. Yay summer!!!! Means the indoor yoga practice is going to have to get off its ass (and I’m working on that).