Scorpio (October 23-November 21)
I’m guessing that you’ve been ushered into a frontier that affords you no recognizable power spot. It probably feels uncomfortable, like you’ve lost the inside track. And now along comes some wise guy — me — who advises you in his little horoscope column that you are exactly where you need to be. He says that this wandering outside the magic circle is pregnant with possibilities that could help you make better use of the magic circle when you get back inside at a later date. I hope you will heed this wise guy and, at least for the moment, resist the temptation to force yourself back into the heart of the action.
Why yes, it does feel a bit uncomfortable. If there’s one thing I’ve discovered, there’s no use in forcing an issue…particularly when you’re pushing against solid rock and you don’t have dynamite – just a chisel. At which point, you need to be patient if you plan to make a hole with said chisel. Do I like it? Fuck no and being in this position, the way I am kinda pisses me off. Mainly, because this has been a commonplace position for way too long and the moment for the move to the aggressive position has not opened up. Though, it would be staved off if people had a concept of paying on time, and doing things when they were asked to do them…but that would be a totally different post.
The positive, is that I have a new phone number for my business, which will reduce my phone bill back into the double digits. A basic website that at least gets my name out there, until I can afford the full package deal with search capabilities. This weekend I’m going to attempt to upload the calendar function to my personal webspace so I can at least get that back to my current clients.
I’ve been doing everything I can to minimize my need for cash out-flow, and about that only thing that succeeds in doing, is reducing my in-flow. I don’t get it.
Scorpio (October 23-November 21)
If you have been engaged in any S&M scenario, even metaphorically, now would be a good time to quit it. Whether you’re the person who’s whipping or being whipped, the connection is no longer serving any worthy purpose. The good news is that freeing yourself from compromising entanglements will make you fully available to explore new frontiers in collaboration. You will also be blessed with an influx of intuition about how to reconfigure bonds that have become blah and boring. And what if you’re not currently involved in any S&M scenario? Congrats! Your assignment is to transform one of your pretty good relationships into a supercharged union that’s capable of generating life-changing magic.
I wish it wasn’t true, but unfortunately I’m engaged in the usual S&M scenario, where I’m beating myself up. And no, there is no purpose to the situation.
It’s all about trust…
Scorpio (October 23-November 21)
“I want to be everywhere at once and do everything at the same time,” writes one of my Scorpio readers, J.T. He’s in luck, because according to my analysis, your tribe is about to enjoy a phase much like what he describes. “No more of this linear, one-day-at-a-time stuff,” he continues. “I want a whole week packed into each 24-hour turn of the earth, with heavy doses of leisure time interwoven with thrilling bouts of hard, creative labor. I want to live in a secret garden with ten years of solitude and hang out at a street fair raging with conviviality. I want to sing with angels and romp with devils in between walking the dog, exercising at the gym, and chatting to perfectly ordinary people. I want enough money to fill a swimming pool, and I want to live like there’s no such thing as money.”
I kinda feel like this already. Since spending two glorious weeks unwinding, everything seems to be working as it needs to. Have had a few issues to address, but this next week begins the summer phase. I’m planning on getting back to Judo and Jiu Jitsu, eating right, going for a run/walk/bike every other day and be more social. I’ve decided to take a step back from worrying about business monies. Figuring out how I can do my personal pay in a manner that is beneficial to me, yet keeps enough money in the account to take care of everything that’s needed. I’m almost done with the major stuffs on the condo, except the actual renovations (but those can happen as they need, since everything else is in place). So I can spend more time in a vacuum of timelessness.
Oh yeah, camping trip for the Solstice with the family, prrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. Developing a class on Celtic warriors, training and tactics – should be fun. Gotta crack the books on the Fianna and Scathach. 😀
I’m trying to somewhat get on a schedule again. Somewhat failing. Mainly because I’m trying to get the house in order, second issue is food. I’m finding that I’m naturally falling into Ayurvedic habits, which I really like, but my summer habits mean I eat less at each sitting and my work/training schedule doesn’t actually mesh very well with an increase in meal/snack times.
Sooooo, what to do?? Well, as soon as I can get the bills under control, I’ve got my ideas to help me with all of this. Summer meals tend to start with granola, yogurt, berries. An hour later, some eggs and coffee. Then lunch. This is where it falls off the planet and the issues occur. I’m usually at work and working, which means….no food. If I’m in Buckhead, I can snag a decent salad and I’m fine (the Biscuit rocks on this).
And this is where I’m looking for ideas. From my travels, I have some good ideas on stuff and plan to incorporate them.
Meal options, suggestions welcome
I’ve decided that Tuesdays are pretty much a no work day, similar to Sunday. It’s reserved for emergency clients only because I realize how much I need down time. I’ve been moving into that thing that I never wanted to become…a workaholic. And it’s detracted from my whole goal in balancing that work/personal experience thing.
I’m also stuck not doing the thing I really enjoy and find that I end up sitting on my ass doing nothing, instead of being active and having fun because I’m too tired from either being constantly on my feet and moving, or sitting around in an office doing nothing. Which I hate more than anything else, as it encourages me to be lazy.
I want to do more writing, but the creativity is not there, the head is not open because it’s clouded with all this work stuff and worry. Almost feels like someone stuffed me in a straight jacket and just keeps tightening the straps. Every time I try to get back to the gym, something comes up that prevents me from going, I can’t complain much because the money is needed, but I find it hard to tell myself to be patient for a bit longer. It almost feels like an exercise in futility. Where am I supposed to draw the line where I’ve been patient enough? I know where I’m going to draw it, but why do others seem to think I should hang on longer? Just too many questions, with very few answers.
Can’t wait to have the house pretty much finished. That will open up mornings. But at least the HVAC system has been installed…now I just need to get the digital thermostat. Have I mentioned how much I hate analog ones? They’re so inaccurate.