Scorpio (October 23-November 21)

It’s a ripe time to work on fixing any neurosis that chronically disrupts your economic karma. Can you afford sessions with a psychotherapist who’ll help you improve your relationship with money? Just in case you can’t, I’ll offer two exercises that might propel you toward financial self-healing. #1: Twice a day for five minutes, visualize yourself immersed in a joyous and meaningful experience that would be made possible by a more abundant flow of money into your life. #2: Think of three generous acts you want to carry out, three blessings you want to bestow, or three uplifting messages you want to deliver to deserving people. 

FreeWill Astrology

Can’t afford the psycho-therapist, but I really do need to take a hard look at this aspect of my life.  Things are not terribly positive ATM, and not because I’m lacking for work – yet.  But that is more for a f-list entry, and not for public consumption.

That said, I am working on over-coming the negativity that has enveloped me, of late.  This is getting ridiculous, as it’s inhibiting my ability to have any type of conversation with someone that does not involve my complaints.  My shoulders are killing me, to the point that moving them is seriously painful.  I started back training this week, for just an hour a day.  That’s helping a little, but having groin muscles that don’t want to move (they took offense to my sleeping position on the way to Paris).  The hope is, a huge chunk falls off this Saturday.  When I get home, I’ve been doing some relaxation stuff.  Last night was a lovely homemade Indian dinner, a wonderful oil and salt soak/scrub, a glass of wine and my favourite all-time movie….Possession.  The only downside is I kept wanting to ditch the movie for chat time.  I have slipped back into a habit I had hoped to break. :/  Now to break it again.

 montieth and I watched John Adams last night and this afternoon.  There were so many good lines in that movie, that strike so true to this day.  I highly suggest watching it on an ideological bent, but also in the fact it’s a damned good movie.  The two of us were in tears at the end, and having to skip a part or two based on what was happening.  The script does allow for one to be drawn in, kind of the same manner that Band of Brothers did, and I’m glad my Mum sent it to me.  I really think it needs to play on the regular networks, particularly at this point in time in our politics, when we really need to remember our roots and where we came from.

Scorpio (October 23-November 21)

“Many times in my life,” says philosopher Eckhart Tolle, “it has been my experience that the most powerful starting point for any endeavor is not the question ‘What do I want?’, but what does Life (God, Consciousness) want from me? How do I serve the whole?” I offer that meditation to you, Scorpio, as you slip into the heart of the reinvent yourself phase of your cycle. It’s time to stage a grand reopening, launch a new (relation)ship, or instigate a fresh batch of good trouble. As you whip up the initiatory energy, ask the Big Cosmic Thou where it would like you to go and what it would love you to do.

FreeWill Astrology

Sounds like a good one. But it will have to wait till I can sit still and breathe.

I’m giving it the first 2 year, maybe all 4. If we continue down the toilet and towards European ideals of governance, I’m just going to move where it works. I really don’t understand, given the American habit of fucking up good ideas, that our government seems to think it can make it work.

That said, I hope I get enough birthday money for that Keltech I want, sure won’t be able to get it next year, most likely.

Though, I spoke with a student of politics over there, my last night. His response was, “The foundation of your country does not allow for the type of governance we have over here. Good luck getting that started, the difference in foundation and culture will not allow for it to work. It will fail.”

So, in my effort to give meaning to my life (yes, I’m having a day of questioning, it started last night while sitting in my window overlooking Copenhagen – got a wonderful shot of the view to post later). I’m putting a question to all my readers, LJ users and site visitors alike….

What do I mean to you? What aspect of myself provides something to you? Why do you enjoy reading what comes out of my head?

*For you non-LJers, you may post anonymously, but please sign your post so I know who it’s coming from.

To contextualize this, I’m in the process of evaluating where I am, and where I want to go. Unfortunately, I’m a bit lost, ATM, and feel highly detached from almost everyone around me, including the people I’m supposed to be closest to.

It was raining when I got here, but thankfully it’s not too bad anymore. I got in Thursday, around 3.30 then proceeded to find out my credit cards don’t work here (though the Hostel was able to run my main one). After checking in, got settled then ran off to get my ass kicked at Choke Academy. Fun as always, and meeting new guys. Yesterday was the start of ProgPower Scandinavia, got to hang out with my friends here, and actually got tipsy. They have this drink called Cult Shaker, which is vodka and something similar to red bull. Had no problems with it, other than the bubbles up my nose. Was still fun. The concert lasted well into the night, with Vanden Plas finishing out the evening. Finally got to see Wuthering Heights live, which was nice, since I missed their performance at ProgPower USA the first year. Oh well, this made up for it. Also made some new friends, and got to take pictures of everything that was lost on Drew’s camera from last year. 😀

Oh yeah, skipping the horrorscope this week. I’ll resume next week when I get home.

I have arrived in Denmark. The French guy behind me was a pain in my ass, but two hot Parisians (one serving me coffee *drool*) made him less of a pain. I have gotten my ass kicked, and I’m ready for bed.

Scorpio (October 23-November 21)

What do you tend to do when you’re squeezed between the demands of authority and the healthy need to rebel? How do you respond when the past and future are at odds? What resources do you draw on when the person you have always been starts to evolve into an interesting new form that you don’t recognize? You’ve come to a fork in the road, Scorpio, when you will be asked to deal with these questions on a larger scale than before. My advice? Study your past so thoroughly that you’ll be able to keep it from repeating itself, and open your mind to possibilities you’ve rarely considered.

FreeWill Astrology

My biggest problem, when confronted with things that are at odds and chaotic, is to go with what is comfortable. I don’t adjust to drastic changes very well, and tend to react negatively to them. My means of accommodating this is to step back and take little steps. Not always useful, but it keeps me from going into crisis mode. As for the evolving, well, last evolution was to come back to center, from being a person I absolutely hated and couldn’t stand. If I’m evolving into a person who is greater than I was yesterday, then I move forward proudly and happily. It’s just a matter of analyzing the content of the person I have become. And if this truly is the fork in the road that I’ve been anticipating, it’s about damned fucking time!

Perception…

It’s kinda funny that this whole thing comes up today, after spending the evening speaking with my Scotsman on the topic. Particularly in regards to the upcoming election and why some people are so put off by his manner of argument. Our society doesn’t want the actual facts, they want the perception of those facts. In the case of it being brought up this morning, it’s not the perception that something wrong was done, it’s the fact that something wrong was actually done. And everyone called it. So what is the solution? An offered perception of an apology, in the future. Which, of course, nullifies any meaning of sincerity in the future (of course, one could get away with it in our ADD society, as it will be forgotten – like the bailout bill will be, come election for the rest of the dumbasses that voted for it).

I bring this up here, because it’s a personal issue of mine, and I don’t want to muck up a discussion board with the subject. Fact is, it won’t be a sincere apology, and it will be, yet another, brick in the wall of feigned apologies going up around the person, because this person does not want to accept full resposibility for the consequences of his actions. This time, last year, I wrote out my list of people I had issues with, and people who were “on probation” with me. Well, year is almost up, and there’s a few days left. Some relationships are being torched, and this will be one of them. If I’m going to run in a circle, it’s going to be because I’m dancing, running on a track, or driving a speed course. It will not be, because someone wants to play a game with me. And that is all this is. From here on out, all interaction will be ignored, that includes all future postings, chatroom postings and public interactions (which, hopefully, won’t exist because of the last issue that pissed me off – and yes, it did piss me off, so congrats).

In the end, B, I no longer call you my friend, and I will not act as such, ever.

So, I guess it might be useful for me to post things from time to time, eh?

Anyway, sinus’ are finally caving in and clearing, which is nice. Goal is to be back in the gym on Monday, so I can get some decent training started, before getting my ass handed to me by vikings. Work is starting to even out, but as always, that is to be covered by a lock and key here. I’m starting to move into a happier place, emotionally. The only thing I need to work on now, is getting the damned knots in my shoulders and jaw to disappear. One of my clients asked me if I was going to get worked on, while in Denmark, and the idea has not escaped my brain. I’m really tempted to find a spa and see about spending my birthday there, or at least one day there. As for other body parts, my second knuckle on my ring and middle fingers are still frozen. I’ve been forcing it a good bit, but still not where they need to be. The positive, is that I can twist them side-to-side without issues.

The weather is cooling off, which means biking will be a lot easier. And with the schedule screw-ups at my secondary contract, that will put me in an even better position to ride over there. I haven’t decided if this is going to be a positive or not, but it seems my work week is going to be split up, with days off being Sunday and Thursday. This is a huge maybe, as I’m supposed to have dibs on Thursdays, with Mondays being roughly every other week (but only working 2-3 hours max). I don’t mind it, as I love the office, love the clients and I get paid really well.

Anyway, that is all for now.

PS- I followed the herd, I now have a facebook. *hangs head*