Author: Saille

Who am I? On the surface I'm a nature-loving dirt worshipping hippy in search of a good adrenaline rush. That's all I have for now.

Scorpio for this week:

I foresee a time when women’s earnings will match men’s and when women will compose half of every governmental body instead of a measly ten percent. I predict an awakening that will help men understand that the global conspiracy to cripple and demean female power damages them as much as it does women. Until the coming of that happy day, I recommend that you celebrate International Women’s Day every day–and especially during the next three weeks. Your health, wealth, sex appeal, and wisdom will flourish in direct proportion to your efforts to give female intelligence more room to be expressed.

FreeWill Astrology

Ummmmmm. OK. Now, I just don’t get this one. I’m not a feminist in the sense that I have to celebrate the fact that I’m an innie and not an outie. I’m human, just happen to be of the female persuasion. In fact, I never understood these whole celebration things. Where’s the International Men’s Day? I don’t really think there’s any conspiracy (outside of a few religions and societies) to quash the female intelligence or whatnot. In fact, I’d like to see some group manage it, as the only way to actually do that would be to kill off all the women in said group. I think the problem in regards to women being in governmental bodies, is the fact that they spend too much time on the “mothering” side, and not so much time as the “lioness protecting her cubs” side. There seems to be an absolute vacuum in that regards, in relation to women in politics. The only one I see actually standing up to the process is Hilary, but she’s got too many rotten apples in the orchard to do anything with her fruit. Up there, they want to help and coddle, they aren’t willing to stand up and be the Bitch and get the things done that need to be done. And I don’t think there are enough of those who will, to go around. Hell, want to see a microcosm of it? Show up to my fight training on any given day, the instructors will go after the women to see if the lion will come out. If she doesn’t, she goes back to the fitness classes, if she does, she gets put on the team track. As my Professore likes to say, “In training, I want to see bunnies running around. But the minute you step out to represent your team in competition, that bunny better be a lion.”

Oh how I love when the constraints of a free society work the way they were intended. To update from my little rhetorical commentary from yesterday, it seems that the public has gotten some of the message….oddly enough, from places like DailyKos.com:

“One of the best ways to communicate one’s distaste for Coulter’s repeated incidents of hate speech is to respectfully but firmly let her advertisers know you are deeply troubled by their indirect support of bigotry through their advertising on Coulter’s Web site,” the blogger VolvoDrivingLiberal wrote on DailyKos.com on Sunday.

Verizon, Sallie Mae and NetBank said the ads were put on a variety of sites by a third party company. In many cases, advertisers do not know which sites feature their ads. source

As a result, Verizon has made their adjustments and their ads are now no longer placed on her site, and the other 2 are currently working on doing the same. See, this is the way things are supposed to work. Not all these stupid laws, and whatnot. People reacting and using their granted ability to change what they don’t like. No, I’m not a fan of Coulter, but I give her credit for being willing to shove her foot in her mouth to make a point, however convoluted she manages to make that point by not shutting up. But, in the typical trickster style, she stirs shit up, that needs to be stirred. Now only if the other side could find someone with that ability too. Kennedy would be good, if he could actually do it consciously instead of unconsciously. He’s a natural, just needs to put more thought into his efforts.

“Ann Coulter’s use of an anti-gay slur yesterday was un-American and indefensible,” Edwards said in a posting on his Web site, http://www.johnedwards.com.

“In America, we strive for equality and embrace diversity. The kind of hateful language she used has no place in political debate or our society at large.

“I believe it is our moral responsibility to speak out against that kind of bigotry and prejudice every time we encounter it.”source

I’ll have to take a cue from ALa, in regards to the whole free-speech thing….

Hate speech, such as Coulter’s example, is protected by the 1st Amendment. Her calling Edwards a “faggot” is well within her right, and in all honesty, utilising the rights granted in the Bill of Rights is perfectly American. If she were advocating that someone go beat the crap out of him, or harm him or his family as a result, then we’d be getting into different issues. Now, where does this go….Well, this is going back to a tanget that ALa spoke about, in regards to people who champion the whole free-speech ideal, as long as it is speech that doesn’t offend them. Once that speech is deemed offensive, they’re all about silencing said speech. Granted, I don’t believe I’ve heard Edwards championing free-speech, but the minute he does I’ll be firing off a letter to him about it…..oh wait, he utilised that right when he decided to ask Cheney about his lesbian daughter….. With that said, I think he needs to grow a fucking spine and learn what inciteful speech is all about. Hell, the guy’s a bloody lawyer, and a defense attorney at that, you’d figure he knows how to sling shit well enough, unless he’s just that bad of a lawyer (no, I haven’t looked up his record to know that info).

With that said, I wonder what he has to say about all the cartoons and various commentaries that came out of the last election, about him being all buddy-buddy with John Kerry? Or would he be grouping all of that insinuation that he was gay, with Coulter’s actual labelling him as such?

And the best line of the article: But the New York Times reported that she responded, in an e-mail, “C’mon, it was a joke. I would never insult gays by suggesting that they are like John Edwards. That would be mean.” Go Anne, now that’s commentary I like to hear.

Scorpio for this week:

As I contemplate the growing wonder of your animal magnetism, my urge to spout poetry is uncontrollable. You’re like a dancing heron or a singing tiger or a snake spelling out words by assuming different letter-shaped poses. You’re a crazy-mirrored funhouse full of tool-using ravens. You’re a convention of laughing hyenas partying at a watering hole on the other side of the tracks from paradise. In short, you’re as impossible to predict as a drunk hummingbird, as dangerously smart as a shape-shifting fox from Japanese mythology.

FreeWill Astrology

Hrm, I guess that would be the first time I’ve managed to make someone sprout poetry, by my shear existence. But I do like being a bit unpredictable. Maybe that will be a positive thing for the upcoming tournament. Though, I really like the Raven, heron and fox references. I’ll have to contemplate them more, in the frame of things.

I love my IRA account. I really do. Every quarter, I lose money because they withdraw not on the quarter as I originally requested, but apparently a month early, or whenever they feel like it. The last withdrawal was in November, the recent withdrawal was last week. I just found out about it, because I looked at my online account stuff to find out that I had an overdraft that hasn’t come into my mailbox yet. Why? Because my IRA contribution was withdrawn a month early. At one point, I thought I had their pattern figured out, but apparently they changed it up on me. So I go into my online account for the IRA, to find out that they’ve ceased doing online account maintenance and replaced it with forms to mail-in. So I call them up. Oh wait, that 24-hr account help is no longer an option, I have to call during regular business hours. I’m at the point where I don’t give a shit how good a fund Oakmark is, I’m ready to move it back to e-trade just for the sheer customer service capabilities. Or maybe, I’ll just transfer it to my brother to manage. Fuckers.

I am not sure what did it, but something in my snapped last night. Between trying to explain to people, who not only insisted on reading into things, but also not letting go of what they’re trying to force upon me to see what I’m actually saying, and trying to get my friend’s wedding profile to stay put – instead of forwarding me to an mtv site, I lost it. My throat is a bit sore today due to the grunting and other sounds of frustration. I’m almost back to square one at work, even if it’s a benefit to those I work with. I don’t like going in circles and pretending I’m a dog chasing my tail. I appreciate the fact that the change up of things at work means that I will be putting in more hours, which will hopefully even out my schedule. But having been asked if I’m going to be in town the week I requested off at the end of March is not a positive sign, in my book. Yes, I’m taking on more responsibility, due to the fact that I’m going to be the one here, but I will not go back to working vacations. On my off-time, work is on the back-burner. It’s something I look at when I have the inkling, not something that is always on my mind. I’ve also considered the offer to work part-time at the gym, which would probably benefit my training, in the long run. But it would also require the hiring of someone at the office, which, I’m wondering if we need to do that anyway.

At any rate, I’m back to being generally frustrated with people. Seriously, I have to sit back, and wonder how a species that is inherently so stupid, has managed to propigate itself to the top of the food chain. Or maybe I just need to start going back to TownCenter Border Pagans, so I can have my brain picked and stretched. The only problem, is that it’s at the same time my Kundalini class is doing after-ritual discussion. :/ Oh hell. I just need mental stimulation period, of the high-intellect kind, and I’m not getting it where I used to find it.

Scorpio for this week:

In the coming weeks, you’ll attract cosmic assistance whenever you add to your repertoire, branch out artistically or socially, or start gathering seed money for a project that may take years to ripen. Mythically speaking, the coming weeks will also be a good time to have intimate relations with a fertility god or goddess, and to plant magic beans that will grow into a beanstalk that reaches the sky. “Is that it?” you may be asking. “Nothing but good news?!” My only caveat, which is pretty minor, is that you might add a few pounds to your frame. If you’re a hetero woman, that could be caused by a pregnancy unless you’re careful.

FreeWill Astrology

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!! Weighed in at 128 today, up from 123 (yeah, whole lot, but when you’re trying to maintain weight so you weigh-in at 129 or under, with a 5lb gi on, it’s a lot). Though, we are coming upon the beginning of the light half of the year (which, should have started to sprout last month, but seems to be delayed a bit), so I guess it’s time to start talking to Brigidh again, as well as my usual conversation companion, or maybe spend some time with Lugh this year. At any rate, I’m not seeing a pregnancy, as that would require me to be something other than celibate, and the fact that I’d do enough damage before I even found out I was pregnant. At any rate, tomorrow is the gym for cardio, as is Friday. Going to stop by the Apothocary to see about stuff to assist me in maintaining weight and eventually stuff to help build muscle for when I start lifting weights again. I’m still sore from Kundalini, but I don’t think yesterday’s training session helped that any. Lots of jump/sprawls will make for very sore shoulders.

At any rate, I do feel an awakening coming. I’m definitely on the right path with my Kundalini work and meditation sessions.

This weekend was wonderful. Stared out the window at work a lot, then Sunday, my Scotsman took time out of his housework schedule to take me out for a date day. It was great. I love being able to go out and spend an entire day just talking to him. He took me to see Letters from Iwo Jima, and I have to say, Ken Watanabe has officially replaced Sean Connery as my favourite older actor. He did a wonderful job in this movie, as did the man who played 1st Lt. Nishi. Afterwards, we went out for Japanese (how typical), but it does give me a greater appreciation for the culture, even though some of the things they did in the name of the Emperor. Afterwards, it was out to a cafe for dessert and coffee. We just sat and talked about my fears, things we want in life and a few other things….like how to get around that whole kid issue. 😉 But I do have to say, I very much appreciate my Scotsman. As odd as our set-up is, it works and it’s low-key and we take care of each other. The last couple of weeks he’s been my rock, as I try to integrate the latest knowledge of myself into the rest of me. He’s let me have my time, down to the fact that I spent all of yesterday out of the house, while he took care of house chores. He knew I needed the decompression time from my life and from work, so he let me take what I needed. With that said, I went to my first Kundalini class last night. OMG, that stuff is amazing!!!! I actually got my hip and shoulder to open up some more, granted, I’m sore as hell, but it was nice. 2 hours of ritual yoga, complete with chanting, singing, breathwork and asanas. Yummy! It really wakes up your senses, in fact, my throat chakra is much more open now. Spent the bulk of the time chanting, so it ended up very activated, and it’s very happy right now. Hell, even my Jits today was on spot, I became aware of a lot of stuff, to the point I managed to best one of our purple belts. I think if I keep this up, I’ll be totally ready for Pan-Ams. And honestly, I’m pretty happy I shut down my IMs. I’m half-way through Chapter 2 of my Danish, and it’s all clicking for me. Not to mention, the tummy stuff is slowly being resolved, as is the anxiety problems I’ve had.

I spent most of the day relaxing and working. I took time out to write down the ritual notes for my full-contact fights. Once I figure out how to write it up, I’ll be posting it on my blog. Now to start working on the coire meditations and the ritual for my bjj tournaments. I’m definitely feeling better in my headspace, and starting to get back to normal. And as far as the tummy issues, well, apparently my stomach is stronger than some of my friends. I’ve been having poisoned peanut butter on my toast every day. Go me! But thankfully, the most I received was a very vocal tummy that had a bit of distemper. But at any rate, I’m going to continue experimenting with my breakfast and see what we can fix up.

Tomorrow, is movie time, meditation, writing and cleaning!