So what’s going on with me? It’s called stress. Not so much around the business, as that is going well and holding steady, but personal stress because I’m not at the point where I can rely on the business for all of my income but given that I need to focus on it – well, can’t really be going elsewhere to make-up the difference. I’m confident that the ad campaign my marketing person is working on, is going to boost things, but still.
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So, my bitch for the moment (woohoo! finally writing something)…
I got off the phone with my business banker a few hours ago, she informed me that I was declined for a new business card due to a note on my credit report from that wonderful shithole named Laurel Hills Preserve. Seeing as though they were quite good at failing to provide copies of everything, I went back to my paperwork from the collections agency they sent after me. What do I find? They listed my notification date as 4/12/2010, in order to charge me extra on the move-out for failing to notify them. Let’s see….started looking for a new house back in January, notified them around early January (60 days notice, since I thought I had to be out in March, not May), notified them there was the possibility that I would be out by the beginning of April while I was there. They were questioned by my mortgage guy in late February and provided him with the paperwork that I was moving out.
Now, I have a $724 ding on my credit report that I now have to clean up. Fun fucking shit. Half tempted to waste a week’s worth of gas and go over there tomorrow to [redacted]. I’m waiting on the bank paperwork, explained all this crap to my banker only to hear, “Yeah, this is ridiculous because you can get it removed only to have them put it back on.” No hearing, no judgement, just them sending something to the report.
I did what I could, added to the dozens of nasty reviews of that place and will be happy to be even nastier when it comes to the credit reporting company, down to going after them for having to clean my own carpets after finding a dining room wide stain.
Obligatory birthday post
This morning, at 1something AM, I turned 33. This is the first year since I started acknowledging this day, again, that I have nothing planned (except some post-election celebratory foodage with friends – that has nothing to do with my birthday). Instead, I’m working, which is odd, and doing some reflection (in fact, this post is starting at 1:04am on 11/2). When I started this decade, I thought I was moving into something grander than what my 20s were about. Something about finding my course and starting out on the path that was mapped out during that wonderful decade. I’ve grown past the need to heal and step forward from that nightmare, looking at the joy and sunshine that actually existed.
Instead, 2 years ago, I was sitting in my room on the 8th floor of a hostel overlooking one of the most beautiful cities in the world wondering what in the hell I was really searching for and whether or not it would be worth making the trip home. In that weekend, I learned to stop letting things get away from me without saying anything and start recognizing the truth that was in front of me. That was my map, half of my own doing, and half of circumstance. Regardless, the hell I went through, that year, I don’t regret it.
Anyway, today is mostly a reflection (it’s Nov. 3, 3.49pm EST), the day is rainy, my office is cold and I was just informed that my gas won’t be turned on till Dec. 1. Chase is a bitch and I had to yell at them this morning. There was no stoup for me today, as the Biscuit was closed (but Kroger makes a very, very yummy chilli). The positive – my credit card machine arrived and it’s charging. I’m reading through the fun stuff and should be able to run all charges tomorrow. Tonight is dinner with friends, to celebrate the actual change that has occurred in DC (though, not near enough, maybe next election cycle).
And no, this post did not go where I was wanting it to go. Oh well, Geek Depresif. 😉
Scorpio (October 23-November 21)
“Is it a dragonfly or a maple leaf / That settles softly down upon the water?” asks Amy Lowell in “Autumn Haze,” a poem from her book Pictures of the Floating World. She doesn’t need to know the answer to her question; either would be fine. In fact, the luxuriance of the moment lies in its ambiguity. The lolling sweetness thrives because of her freedom from having to define its origins. She is simultaneously alert and relaxed; attentive to the scene in front of her but content to let it be whatever it is. I highly recommend that you enjoy extended excursions into this state of being several times in the coming week.
FreeWill Astrology
Yep, little bit behind. Just noticed that I haven’t posted ANYTHING this month. Bad Freak! I guess you could say I’m in a bit of re-organization and reconsidering a lot of stuff for my business.
I need advertising and the prospect of moving to a better location seems to be a fantasy with a Monty Python foot stepping on it like a bug. It’s not just a problem of funding having overwhelming expectations to acquire, it’s the fact that locations have these out-of-the-universe expectations of businesses. The latest guaranty I’ve been told is $250k, because I’m a start-up. I guess the definition of start-up is now 10-years-old, not 5 and under. Not to mention, the company I acquired was over 10 when I gained it. So, in letting things be, I sent a request to the leasing rep for my current landlord, to check out a couple of offices in the same complex. If I can acquire a lease with one of those, then I’ll sink my money into advertising, instead of sinking my business into debt.
Then hopefully, the stress will lift, my therapists will have more work and everyone will be happy.
This is just an FYI.
I’m still alive, currently hosting some friends, post progpower. I will post my “FreakTrip” journal when I get a chance to write it (yes, I know I still owe one from last year).
Just a few things, this year rocked as the drama quotient was very low. The bands were awesome and the managers were super awesome. I’ve never had that much fun with the guys who are paid to be the assholes of the bands. I was asked by one of the band members on Saturday morning if I spent all night partying, and saw the look of surprise when I told him that, no, it was the result of late night runs. I’m putting together my improvement list for next year, will be shipping that out this week.
Hey look! I’m not dead and just posting horrorscopes!
Heh, anyway, this weekend was pretty busy. I created a psycho Friday/Saturday schedule, of back-to-backs at both my office and with my private clients, including a straight 4-hr/30m break/1.5-hr Saturday. Though, it was fun and I was surprised at how not-so-stressed I am over it.
Sunday was a celebration of the Su-ness. So Happy Birthday psychosu!!!! I love you, you’re amazing and you’re looking fabulously hotter than normal!
I’m still learning to trust in the universe, in fact, I’m about to take a huge leap of faith. I finally put in my resignation, and I will be focusing completely on my company. This means my budget deficit is 100% on my shoulders, which, funny enough, I can tolerate more than relying on an outside company to help me fall short. So right now, I place my trust in the universe to put the doors there, and in me to find and open them.
And on that note, since it’s been almost 24-hrs since I started this post – apparently, I needed to learn a lesson in generosity (or keeping track of my stuff).
Scorpio (October 23-November 21)
I might be a bit rambly, here, as I really don’t have anything in my head to focus a topic.
Oh the joy!!!! Last night, my new router arrived, so I spent until midnight + trying to get my airport express to play nice. Managed to get it working this morning, then destroyed the network. Go me!!! Lots of resets on the airport express, because my hub computer doesn’t want to notice it’s around. Reason for destruction, is that I want to add it to the main network, but it doesn’t want that. It wants its own network, which is kinda fine, except that when I did that, my internet network got sloooooooooooooooooooow. So, tonight will be a complete factory restore of the router and a reconfig to get that up and running. Tomorrow, I have time to play around with the airport, so I’ll do that then.
This, ladies and gentlemen, is why you get someone to talk you through assistance, instead of letting them take care of everything for you. Unless, of course, you want to rely upon providers of said service from point on out. Something about self-reliance and ability to provide in the event it’s needed….
Anyway…things are coming along quite nice for the house. I found a baby grill for the patio, which is all complete, outside of the bike rack (which Tigger is kind enough to help me find/create). Sunroom needs my meditation pillow and a low meditation alter, the new outlet plates and some decorations and it’s done. Sunroom closet needs one more set of brackets and maybe some hooks for bags. Living room/dining room is done for everything except a shelf and hooks by the front door, outlet plates and decorations. Kitchen needs one more utility shelf, outlet plates and the floor cabinet drawers and it’s done. Bedroom/bathroom is where it’s at. Goal is to have the wall for the bedroom/hallway done by September. If it’s not, curtains will work nicely, for now. Bathroom is on slate and being saved for, as next year’s project, since there’s more involved in that. Not to mention, Pastry had an idea that we need to talk about and see whether it increases or detracts from the house value.
All said, I’m feeling a bit accomplished with everything. My friend Tommy walked me through the last bit of the installation with the new thermostat, which is working well. Only issues are outlet/switch receptacles that are not deep enough or properly anchored. With my cousin coming out for work on the Fulton co. jail, I might see if he’s up for some side work in helping me plan a new wiring plan for the house, or at least checking the wiring and separating some of the switch zones, as well as the additions for the living room and hallway lighting.
I am having fun with it though. Hell, I’m even taking a somewhat active role with all the plants my mum put on my patio. And really happy that I did not get a bigger place. Tiny is awesome.
Scorpio (October 23-November 21)
In a favorable review of Badger Mountain Riesling wine, Winelibrary.com said, “The sweet succulent aromas of bosc pears are woven with lilacs and just a hint of petrol.” Meanwhile, Allure magazine named Secretions Magnifique as one of the top five sexiest perfumes in the world, even though its fragrance is like “floral bilge.” Petrol? Bilge? Both commentaries seem to suggest that greatness may contain a taint — or even that the very nature of greatness may require it to have a trace of something offensive. I’m guessing that’ll be a theme for you in the coming week.
FreeWill Astrology
Hrm, great things tainted by something not-so-great. Yeah, I can see how that is going to apply in the coming weeks. Let’s see, job situation changing, A/C issues still at the forefront. The positive, is that I still have 4.5 years to sue my former boss (hear that J?). I’m keeping the reserves in check, to make sure that I can float for the next year. Downplaying the expectations for the new business space.
This will be another year of growth, for good or bad. It’s time.
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