Author: Saille

Who am I? On the surface I'm a nature-loving dirt worshipping hippy in search of a good adrenaline rush. That's all I have for now.

I guess I’m a little late on the spring cleaning, but at least the attitude is growing more positive as the summer progresses. Not necessarily in the sense that everything is going to happen the way that I want it to, but in that it’s at least going to happen. I’ve let go of a serious dead end, least in the emotional sense, and I’m building the foundation necessary for the structure to replace it. Pretty much, I’ve made the decision to rely only on the income of my business and focus on its growth, than relying on outside sources of income. It detracts from my focus of growing my business, even if it allows me to leave more of the business income with the business. I also need the time to talk with a colleague about an idea that would benefit us both, and that definitely requires time.

I’m also moving more towards a more sustainable lifestyle. Yeah, kind of redundant, considering the lifestyle I’ve been living for the last 3 years. But, I’m cutting back on the distance driving, and as soon as the credit debt is paid down some more, I’m going to start budgeting more on my MARTA card for Atlanta trips, since all the shopping centers I frequent are either in my immediate area or on a MARTA rail line. On the days off, I don’t mind spending the extra time necessary to do my shopping by bus/rail – which will also give me the unwinding time I’ve been needing.

Now, to get that exercise routine going. That’s the major hindrance right now. My body doesn’t acclimate to heat very well, which has really cut into the hour walks/runs/bike rides. And that inability to wake up in the mornings….well, that pretty much cuts out the prime time to do all that. But I’m getting there.

(And these feelings are greatly helped by the fact that my house is becoming more and more organized.)…speaking of…I will be needing some assistance with some renovations, in order to get the place ready for guests in September. Namely, adding a door/wall to split my bedroom off from the hallway/bathroom. Will know more after speaking a bit more with my renovations guy.

Scorpio (October 23-November 21)

For the foreseeable future, it’s fine with God (and with Nature, too) if you put all your eggs in one basket — as long as the basket is well-woven and beautiful to behold. You’ve also got cosmic permission to forget about all but one of the tempting targets in your field of vision — as long as the bull’s-eye you choose is very worthy of your sacred longing. To sum up, Scorpio, be single-mindedly focused almost to the point of manic obsession — as long as you’re reasonably sure that the object of your devotion is your personal version of the Holy Grail.

FreeWill Astrology

Now this, is worth meditating over, for the next week. I am feeling the “stir the pot” machinations and I’m loving it. It’s time to stop stagnating, and time to move forward. Lots of ideas swirling around, just need to get off my ass and get them done.

Will write more on this later….I hope.

Scorpio (October 23-November 21)

How’s that project coming, Scorpio? You know, that assignment the universe gave you at the beginning of 2010 to loosen up, play more, and periodically laugh like a tipsy Sagittarius. Have you been taking a sabbatical from the seething complications that in most other years are your rightful specialty? Did you throw some of your emotional baggage off a cliff? Are you dancing more frequently? I hope you’ve been attending to all of this crucial work, and I trust that you’re primed to do even more of it during the next six months. To take maximum advantage of your appointments with relief and release, you’ll have to be even sweeter and lighter.

FreeWill Astrology

Ummmmm, I forgot about it???? Yeah, all that crap that was dumped on me, over the last couple of months kinda pulled the plug on that whole “having fun” concept. Not to mention, kinda hard to have fun when the cheapest method of transportation = heat stroke right now. The emotional baggage is getting ready to go, because I’m finally at the point of acceptance of one thing that needs to go. That hint has been heard loud and clear.

Thanks for the reminder.

Scorpio (October 23-November 21)

I’m guessing that you’ve been ushered into a frontier that affords you no recognizable power spot. It probably feels uncomfortable, like you’ve lost the inside track. And now along comes some wise guy — me — who advises you in his little horoscope column that you are exactly where you need to be. He says that this wandering outside the magic circle is pregnant with possibilities that could help you make better use of the magic circle when you get back inside at a later date. I hope you will heed this wise guy and, at least for the moment, resist the temptation to force yourself back into the heart of the action.

FreeWill Astrology

Why yes, it does feel a bit uncomfortable. If there’s one thing I’ve discovered, there’s no use in forcing an issue…particularly when you’re pushing against solid rock and you don’t have dynamite – just a chisel. At which point, you need to be patient if you plan to make a hole with said chisel. Do I like it? Fuck no and being in this position, the way I am kinda pisses me off. Mainly, because this has been a commonplace position for way too long and the moment for the move to the aggressive position has not opened up. Though, it would be staved off if people had a concept of paying on time, and doing things when they were asked to do them…but that would be a totally different post.

The positive, is that I have a new phone number for my business, which will reduce my phone bill back into the double digits. A basic website that at least gets my name out there, until I can afford the full package deal with search capabilities. This weekend I’m going to attempt to upload the calendar function to my personal webspace so I can at least get that back to my current clients.

I’ve been doing everything I can to minimize my need for cash out-flow, and about that only thing that succeeds in doing, is reducing my in-flow. I don’t get it.

Scorpio (October 23-November 21)

If you have been engaged in any S&M scenario, even metaphorically, now would be a good time to quit it. Whether you’re the person who’s whipping or being whipped, the connection is no longer serving any worthy purpose. The good news is that freeing yourself from compromising entanglements will make you fully available to explore new frontiers in collaboration. You will also be blessed with an influx of intuition about how to reconfigure bonds that have become blah and boring. And what if you’re not currently involved in any S&M scenario? Congrats! Your assignment is to transform one of your pretty good relationships into a supercharged union that’s capable of generating life-changing magic.

FreeWill Astrology

I wish it wasn’t true, but unfortunately I’m engaged in the usual S&M scenario, where I’m beating myself up. And no, there is no purpose to the situation.

It’s all about trust…

Scorpio (October 23-November 21)

“I want to be everywhere at once and do everything at the same time,” writes one of my Scorpio readers, J.T. He’s in luck, because according to my analysis, your tribe is about to enjoy a phase much like what he describes. “No more of this linear, one-day-at-a-time stuff,” he continues. “I want a whole week packed into each 24-hour turn of the earth, with heavy doses of leisure time interwoven with thrilling bouts of hard, creative labor. I want to live in a secret garden with ten years of solitude and hang out at a street fair raging with conviviality. I want to sing with angels and romp with devils in between walking the dog, exercising at the gym, and chatting to perfectly ordinary people. I want enough money to fill a swimming pool, and I want to live like there’s no such thing as money.”

FreeWill Astrology

I kinda feel like this already. Since spending two glorious weeks unwinding, everything seems to be working as it needs to. Have had a few issues to address, but this next week begins the summer phase. I’m planning on getting back to Judo and Jiu Jitsu, eating right, going for a run/walk/bike every other day and be more social. I’ve decided to take a step back from worrying about business monies. Figuring out how I can do my personal pay in a manner that is beneficial to me, yet keeps enough money in the account to take care of everything that’s needed. I’m almost done with the major stuffs on the condo, except the actual renovations (but those can happen as they need, since everything else is in place). So I can spend more time in a vacuum of timelessness.

Oh yeah, camping trip for the Solstice with the family, prrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. Developing a class on Celtic warriors, training and tactics – should be fun. Gotta crack the books on the Fianna and Scathach. 😀

I’m trying to somewhat get on a schedule again. Somewhat failing. Mainly because I’m trying to get the house in order, second issue is food. I’m finding that I’m naturally falling into Ayurvedic habits, which I really like, but my summer habits mean I eat less at each sitting and my work/training schedule doesn’t actually mesh very well with an increase in meal/snack times.

Sooooo, what to do?? Well, as soon as I can get the bills under control, I’ve got my ideas to help me with all of this. Summer meals tend to start with granola, yogurt, berries. An hour later, some eggs and coffee. Then lunch. This is where it falls off the planet and the issues occur. I’m usually at work and working, which means….no food. If I’m in Buckhead, I can snag a decent salad and I’m fine (the Biscuit rocks on this).

And this is where I’m looking for ideas. From my travels, I have some good ideas on stuff and plan to incorporate them.

Meal options, suggestions welcome

Oh summer….

I’ve decided that Tuesdays are pretty much a no work day, similar to Sunday. It’s reserved for emergency clients only because I realize how much I need down time. I’ve been moving into that thing that I never wanted to become…a workaholic. And it’s detracted from my whole goal in balancing that work/personal experience thing.

I’m also stuck not doing the thing I really enjoy and find that I end up sitting on my ass doing nothing, instead of being active and having fun because I’m too tired from either being constantly on my feet and moving, or sitting around in an office doing nothing. Which I hate more than anything else, as it encourages me to be lazy.

I want to do more writing, but the creativity is not there, the head is not open because it’s clouded with all this work stuff and worry. Almost feels like someone stuffed me in a straight jacket and just keeps tightening the straps. Every time I try to get back to the gym, something comes up that prevents me from going, I can’t complain much because the money is needed, but I find it hard to tell myself to be patient for a bit longer. It almost feels like an exercise in futility. Where am I supposed to draw the line where I’ve been patient enough? I know where I’m going to draw it, but why do others seem to think I should hang on longer? Just too many questions, with very few answers.

Can’t wait to have the house pretty much finished. That will open up mornings. But at least the HVAC system has been installed…now I just need to get the digital thermostat. Have I mentioned how much I hate analog ones? They’re so inaccurate.

Well, I am at a crossroads, again. Another chapter is ending, and the prologue for the next is being written. I’m contemplating the continuation of my personal site, as it needs to evolve again. I know I will always be Freakchylde, and the name will need to evolve as well. I need a newer definition of who she is, as this next part of my life comes into play. She still is who she is, and then some….but what is that ‘then some’?

We will find out soon enough. 🙂 Time to return to the roots, so I can get some direction for the leaves and branches.

That said….anyone know of a small-type willow that can thrive on a second story condo patio? It feels weird not having one around.

Finally, things have settled down a bit. Still need to do some catching up on phone calls, but feeling more in tune. house stuffs have stalled because I’m still doing the ‘where does this go’ dance. I’m contemplating a stand-alone wine rack for the dining room and redoing the library shelving. My room is still a mess and I won’t even look at it till I get the rest done (since I have to knock out a wall and install 2 walls).

I’ve decided to even out the schedules, as I really miss writing, and would like to set aside time during the week to do that, start my yoga/meditation practice and start running again. The marathon through Trudeau proved I’m seriously out of shape (ever notice that the places you need to be fastest are always at the furthest distance?). Which, by the way, Delta and Air France will be getting their verbal bitchslaps tomorrow.

Otherwise, I’m looking at hosting co’s for the Playground, as AT&T finally broke the camel’s back. Goal is to be done with them by mid-June. Any suggestions on cable modems with wifi capabilities, or a spare one that can be sold?