Scorpio (December 23-November 21)
Don’t just shamble down to the pizzeria and gobble a slab of greasy cheese, tomato sauce, and dough. Instead, arrange for an interesting person who likes you to home-deliver a pizza lovingly prepared by a gourmet chef. For that matter, Scorpio, don’t tolerate mediocrity or the lowest common denominator in any area of your life. The Season of the Peak Experience is here — a time when you have a sacred duty to give your best, commune with the highest, and ask for excellence.
So, who wants to be a gourmet chef and deliver a pizza to my house? 😀 Just kidding. But he’s right. Lughnasadh is Thursday and Lugh was a god full of mastery, fermented by his foster mother Tailtiu (I think she rocks, even if she is a Formorian, so I can forgive her that trespass). The backslide, is that training is going too well. I can close my hand to a loose fist, with all fingers touching my palm. Still hurts, still can’t grip and everyone keeps giving me a Gi choke on my bad hand side. Grrrrrrrrr. Yesterday’s advance positioning killed the elbow, and today is upper body with Shelby. I will say, I will have a hot bikini body come winter.
That said, I’m sore from training, my body wants to give out – but somehow wants to wake up at 6.45. Got other stuff in my head, but that will come later.
I would like to ride my bike to the gym today, but my body is totally exhausted. Frustrated with various things in my life, and the kits aren’t helping stuff. Last night, Lexus decided to drink out of the fountain on my alter to Manannan. Elan has been climbing on everything. Alpine spent the majority of the night next to my head and scratching. Got up this morning to find cat puke all over my bar and kitchen counter. *sigh* I have a meeting with the recruiter this afternoon, and that is all.
In the world of fighting…
I broke down today and left the mat without permission. I cracked miserably, mainly, as normal, from all the crap that is going on around me, but also because I’m getting frustrated because I don’t feel I’m getting anything out of my training. As I decided to suck it up, wipe my eyes and head back in, my instructor walked out the door and asked me what was wrong. I broke down in tears. I think that’s the first time he’s ever seen me cry, even with the weak smile from him mimicking me – in the stance my family refers to as “mmmmmmmmad”. We had a long talk about what was lacking in my game, and how we need to work on creating one that is made up of all the moves that work best for me. He also made a point of telling me about everything I was doing right, and how he’s watched lower belts beating the crap out of Kyria Gracie and the current world champion Ana-Laura (both well earned black belts on our team). He commended me for showing up to work technique, through all my injuries, and the fact that I’m not as schitzo on the mat as I used to be. I know what he’s saying, but I’m still frustrated with it all. I know I have good defense, I just get tired of constantly being on the bottom with bigger people. I’m tired of staying in one place, and it pisses me off and puts me in the mindset that gets me injured.
I’m ohhhhhhh soooooooo goth.
Scorpio (October 23-November 21)
According to Jewish legend, there are in each generation 36 righteous humans who prevent the rest of us from being destroyed. Through their extraordinary good deeds and their love of the divine spark, they save the world over and over again. They’re not famous saints, though. They go about their business anonymously, and no one knows how crucial they are to our well-being. Might you be one of the 36? I bet you’ll be acting like one of them in the coming week. Your capacity for disseminating blessings will be astounding. The ripples of benevolence you initiate could ultimately go around the planet and return to you.
Does wiping certain people off the face of the earth classify as a blessing or benevolence? I can’t wait for August to get here.
I now have a biker’s tan. Looks kinda like a farmer’s tan, only it ends where my gloves begin. 😀 30+km ride, and I limited my walking time. I’m getting better at switching between 2nd and 3rd gears, only took an hour to get to the gym today vs the 1.5 hours last week and 45 minutes to get to the restaurant for lunch. I’m still on the hot side, even after my shower. Was hoping for a dip in the pool, but seems someone fucked up the pool again and I didn’t feel like walking up to the other area of the community. Oh yeah, and lost my phone on the way…go me! I think it’s a sign to ditch it for something else.
Yesterday, when montieth was over, we spotted a cat that didn’t look too hot. His face was swollen, and obviously wasn’t fixed. He’s been fed and watered, checked on him today but was only able to tell that he had eaten the food and drank the water, but couldn’t check his face – as he was hiding and all I could see were his feet. 😦
Alright, off to visit my podcasts. 😀
Scorpio (October 23-November 21)
In ancient Egypt, wealthy people adorned their pet crocodiles with gold bracelets, amulets, and other jewelry. Let’s use that as a metaphor for you in the coming week. What is the most beastly and dangerous part of your psyche, and how might you beautify it? What steps could you take to civilize or ennoble your reptilian brain? Are there any ways you could make the crocodilian aspect of yourself look less scary and more inviting?
Oh, my dear Mr. Brehzny, you are behind….again. I say this, because yesterday I started dancing while fighting, the Scorpion has learned to take her art to the Castle Ball. I jumped, spun, pirouette(d) around my training partner and led her into every step that she was supposed to make. I made a Capioera master smile….before he choked me out. It was beautiful.