Month: August 2007

Scorpio for this week:

Most intelligent people realize that global warming is underway. This awakening is good, but I’m worried that it may be diverting attention from a more profound crisis: the Mass Extinction Event that’s killing off animal and plant species at a pace unmatched since the demise of the dinosaurs 65 million years ago. While 87 percent of the population knows about global warming, less than five percent realize this bigger tragedy is unfolding. And that’s crazy. The prospect of there being future draughts, rising ocean levels, and savage weather is daunting, but the far more devastating fact is that Earth’s precious eco-diversity is dying now — not just from global warming, but from pollution and a host of other mischief caused by humans. Our species is killing off thousands of creatures and plants that have shared the planet with us for millennia. The precipitous loss of frogs and bees alone suggests that we should be staging regular rituals of grieving, with symbolic million-mourner funeral processions. And what does this have to do with your horoscope, I mean besides it being a call to expand your understanding of our planet’s environmental crisis? This: The scenario I’ve described is a metaphor for your personal life. What important issue might you be obsessing on in a way that blinds you to an even more all-encompassing issue? (P.S. For more information about the Mass Extinction Event, check out the website of my friend David Ulansey.)

FreeWill Astrology

Oh wow, he went off the deep end. Say it ain’t so! But, to the part not dealing with his metaphor, there are a couple of issues that I’m obsessing over. One is not so blinding, outside of the overwhelming amount of happiness it brings me, the other is not so happy and slightly blinding, because it was an immediate note that slapped me in the face when confronted with it. The obesession is finding a means to deal with it and make it an issue that is null and void.

With that said – I’m curious, why is it, that there’s only a small minority of guys who are capable of carrying on a purely platonic relationship with females? And even so, with the ones who are willing to recognize those relationships (which is greater than that small minority), why does it boil down with the need to slap them down till they get the idea that nothing, physical or deeply emotional will come from that friendship? I’m just not getting it. Anyone care to try and explain this?

Not that I support Planned Parenthood to begin with, but this is even more reason for me to not do so…

Judge blocks State law, regulating Abortion clinics as outpatient surgical centers, from taking effect

I can understand the rational behind the whole “slippery slope” argument on this one, but wasn’t the point of making abortion legal so that women could have access to offices that would be sterile and relatively safe in regards to the woman’s health, and not some back alleyway? I’m sorry, but an abortion is a medical procedure, and as such, should be viewed and the premises, upon which it is performed, should be maintained under the same standards as any outpatient surgical clinic. How is this a hard concept to grasp? Anyone?

Scorpio for this week:

On the website, Thomas Woodrooffe describes Mother Teresa’s actions in Calcutta in 1993. She tended intimately to the sick and dying without asking them their religious beliefs or judging them for any behavior that might have played a part in their illness. In contrast, fundamentalist missionaries were roaming Calcutta’s streets at the same time, handing out religious propaganda to the diseased and destitute, warning them they’d face eternal damnation if they’d didn’t convert to the One True Way. Keep that difference in mind during the coming weeks, Scorpio. You’re in a phase of your astrological cycle when you have tremendous power to heal people, fix misaligned energy, and provide the kind of moral leadership that raises everyone’s integrity levels. Be like Mother Teresa, not the fundamentalist missionaries.

FreeWill Astrology

Hrmmmmmmm, that’ll require some pondering. With that said, I have a lot of thinking going on, not sure how to deal with that. Might elaborate more later.

Giving and healing

TarotScope for the day: You might be overwhelmed as you feel the weight of responsibility on your shoulders. Unhappily, you could have taken on more than should be expected of you. Examine what, if anything, your past failures have to do with your current willingness to help others. Don’t be overly aggressive in your desire to help. You can best heal others by first forgiving and healing yourself.

Well, in all honesty, the only thing on my shoulders is overwhelming pain and tightness. I can’t say that it’s much from my perceived “responsibilities” outside of the desire to start making the shift over to working at the gym more. My main goal is to work with the students, as my yoga practice revolves mainly around fighting. I told them that I would have no problem doing a “general” class, but I’d have to have a better idea about times and whatnot. With that said…

I’m really starting to consider that 3rd sentence. Over the last month, I have been making steps to overcome things that hindered me in the past, such as my ability to just accept being wrong, even when right; my inability to admit that I had overlooked something, because it fed into my low opinion of myself and my inability to fully accept the fact that I am good at things. I know I come off as having an overabundance of confidence, but really, it’s a shell. I’ve always believed, that if I could fool myself well enough, and start to think positively in that direction, it would manifest. The down-side, is the failure to recognize the fact that I’m human, not perfect. I make mistakes, and I make a lot of them, but I’ve always used them to learn….something. More often than not, I’m a selfish brat who wants everything for herself, due to the fact that I always felt overlooked as a child. I grew up in the shadows, for the most part, because I was made fun of for wanting to shine. Right now, I’m looking for a happy medium, where I can be comfortable in just existing, whether it be in the spotlight or in the shadows. I’m beginning to think that maybe my therapist was right, when he asked me if my helping people was for selfish reasons. The whole idea behind the “if I don’t do it, it won’t get done.” While I don’t think that is particularly the case in every situation, I think he’s quite right in many of them. I like doing the small things for people, and sometimes, I like taking care of the big things. The problem begins to exist when it becomes the accepted norm, and if I don’t do it, then either I’m berated for failure, or I fall short of the bar of expectations. I’m not sure where that train of thought will go, but I will definitely pick it up on a later day.

That said, I have a short day today, so I’m spending most of it meditating or just quietly. I have to do some last minute rituals tonight and pack, after yoga. Then tomorrow it’s back in the yoga studio for morning meditation before work. After that, off to the airport to conquer the world.

My latest experiment. Starting next month, when I’ll hopefully have my bike put together, I’m going to see if I can go for an entire month with limited use of my car. This isn’t exactly an experiment in being “green”, so much as it’s the fact that I put a ton of miles on my car getting to and from my training center. So, I figure Fri-Sun I won’t really need my car, and Tues-Thurs I can possibly use my car very little, by dropping it off at a Marta Station and hopping a bus or the train into Buckhead, since it’s more than likely that I’ll be driving back out to Holly Springs after work to train. Plus, once it starts cooling down again, I’ll be able to bike more. The only thing I’m going to have to work out, is my sheets. I figure a small basket on my bike will allow a few sheets here and there, and the days I take the bus I can take my full basket home with me. My goal in all of this, is to save milage and stress, plus, it’s a good workout that I need outside of training.

I’m seriously feeling really good about the changes that I’m making, and tomorrow, I go check at my Yoga center to see how much teacher training will be. I was given an offer to teach, what I call, Warrior Yoga at my Academy. While I’m definitely qualified for it, I want the certificate that says I am. And I’ll need to start putting together a curriculum for it when I get home. I’ll probably talk about it here, a good bit, or maybe on my religion blog, since it’s an aspect of that realm. Oh hell, I’ll just cross-post.

With all that said….anyone know of a good nutritionist? I need to have my diet analyzed.

I am dead tired. Worked all day yesterday, then went to Teh Su’s b-day party and then headed home and crashed. It was great seeing all the local metalheads that I normally only see once a year (and we live in the same city, go fig). I have to work today, which isn’t that big of a deal, outside of the fact that I’m dead tired. I still have to paint my hair, paint my nails, pack and sleep a lot to prep for this weekend. I’m not sure how it’s going to go, I’m fairly confident about the competition, so no worries there. I am worried about being around all the Brasilians, even though my travel companion from Scana has been kind enough to offer salvation in helping him move (if I’m capable of moving after my matches). I’m also hoping to take the time over this week to finish up the Scana blog (down to one day left) and get that up here. I also need to finish processing the video. I can get the pictures uploaded to the picture page by tonight, so tomorrow I’ll update with the links to that. For those who aren’t boycotting myspace, both the unfinished blog and the pictures are located on the travel profile. I also need to finish updating the written journal, even though I’ve hit a snag and forgot to write the last entry for my trip to see my parents (yeah, that’s how far behind I am). I’ll probably just leave it out and go on to my last trip to Cali.

For those of you who wanted to schedule massage appointments with me, now would be the time to do so, for after I get back from Cali. Keep in mind that there will be no home visits, the sessions will have to be at my office in Buckhead, on Sundays. I get back from Cali on Monday the 27th, so any time after that, schedule providing.

Scorpio for this week:

Scorpio (October 23-November 21)
Physicist John Cramer has made progress in his research into the feasibility of time travel. But he can’t take his work to its next phase without an infusion of $20,000. You might want to consider donating, Scorpio. If you did, and he managed to perfect time travel in his future experiments, you’d no doubt be high on the priority list to use the new technology. And that means you could go back and correct for the wrong turn you made in April, which I’d really like to see you do. If you don’t have the inclination to contribute to Cramer’s research, at least try this alternative: Go to each person affected by your deviation and make a thoughtful attempt at atonement and correction.

FreeWill Astrology

Interesting. Personally, I don’t consider the things that happened in April to be a wrong, as I see it more as a learning process. As for the actions and those involved…well, minimal human damage and things have been set into place, to not reverse the actions, but to shift the results and move them in the direction they need to go. After all, Boann did walk the wrong direction around the well, because in order to change the past, you must walk to the future, as the past cannot be undone. It can only be mitigated in future actions.

And so, we walk forward.

Yes, it’s been a while. But with tournament next week, I’m spending as much time as possible in the gym. The down-side, is that I’m frustrated as hell with it. I spend more time getting injured than anything else, why? Because I’m tiny and my training partner is twice my size, and if he’s handicapping himself to make sure he’s on level with me, it’s not showing. It’s also coming down to seeing the techniques that I’ve modified to work for me, are being brought back to me as being wrong, and the new ways just aren’t working. I’m trying to let go, and spend a good deal with that mantra during class, but it’s not happening. I’ve gotten snappy with my instructors, or at least felt the desire to snap at them, and I get frustrated to the point I have to leave the mat to prevent me from hurting a training partner when it’s not their fault. I don’t like feeling this way, but I’ve seriously been feeling like a total fuck-up. Like I missed the boat, or something and failed to notice the most simplest thing I should have. Failure to pay attention to detail, and all I get is a neck that won’t move, and now wrists and elbows that feel like they’ve been dislocated. It would just be nice, for once, to have a training partner on my level, that is my size, and who can speed me up. The one guy, and his girlfriend, who meet those requirements aren’t there that often. I wish they would be, because I know I’m not going to get hurt with them. And she’s squirrely, like me, so I really have to work to position her, and it makes me pay attention to my defense, as well. *sigh*