Ok, just viewed Sarah Palin’s exit speech. Where’s the confusion? Sounded like a fairly decent exit speech. She stated her reasons (yeah they were rambling) and stated that she didn’t want to try to fight the legal battles with government money or in a manner that would detract from her job as Governor. Kinda wish more politicians would follow that idea instead of putting themselves on a pedestal.

Sitting at the cafe around the block from my office, finished the Ikea run and since that put me by Target, ran by there too for the dry goods. Outside of a slight pain coming from my kidney area (can’t tell if it’s just low back pain or actual kidney issues), I’m feeling pretty well.

I’ve started the “bed” collection in the form of an envelop on the fridge, since that is the most expensive thing I need to purchase, out of all the house stuffs. Contemplating getting rid of the current bed frame to lower the bed and keep the cats from being under it.

Yeah, exciting, isn’t it? Last night, went out and hung with psychosu & co. for trivia at NRT. Was great fun and joy, lots of fun, will put that on the calendar for the days I don’t have to wake up on Fridays (hey look, I stayed up past midnight on a school night!!!). In 2 weeks I will be barreling down some rapids and mountains. Then 2 weeks from my return I will be on a plane back to France. *bouncebouncebounce* Will give me a chance to actually explore more. Just need to get French Toast to translate me an email to the instructors at the 2 academies located in Paris, to see what their training schedules are like. Lots of fun stuff on the horizon, the words “can’t wait” and “excited” just don’t adequately describe it to my satisfaction but I guess they’ll work if you add “x10” to each.

I’ve had the opportunity to do a lot of thinking lately, re-evaluations of my perceptions and thoughts. Some are changing, some are staying the same, and some are being dropped completely. I guess you could say that the next chapter of my life is in full swing and the introduction paragraphs have been written. Now, to expand the plot.

I looked into your eyes, deep into the depths of my soul and found myself amidst the darkness. Smiling as the winds of anger swirled around me, unscathed. Laughing at all that was and will never be again. Finding myself free within your love, drowning in a happiness all too easily forgotten. ~Tummanq

Scorpio (October 23-November 21)
Spiritual epiphany alert! Uncanny revelations imminent! Hope you don’t mind being awoken in the middle of your regularly scheduled life by a special delivery from the Great Beyond. Yes, my cute little bundle of rumbling feelings and psychic sensitivities: It doesn’t matter if you’re a true believer or an unrepentant infidel — you will soon be invited to have one of your logical certainties torn out by the roots and replaced with a throbbing vision of cosmic whoopee. Brace yourself for the most pungent fun you’ve had since your last mudwrestle with the angel.

FreeWill Astrology

I like this idea, but yet again, I think my dear boy is a wee bit behind. That said. Superexcitedgiddiness!!!!!!!!

And that’s all you get.

To my friends…

Know any sculptors that need exposure? The High is looking for sculptors to display/raffle small table-sized sculptures at their upcoming fundraiser. If you know anyone who is interested, please have them email me (link in profile) with their contact info and a few portfolio pictures or link to an online portfolio.

Thanks!

Having just gone through my yahoomail account….

Please adjust all your email account references for me to freakkitty@ mydomain, not the yahoo account. So, my apologies for any events I missed as a result of me not checking that box in forever (don’t feel left out, my dad still emails me there, for some reason).

Scorpio (October 23-November 21)

Congratulations, Scorpio. You’ve reached the end of the Big Squeeze. You’ve served your time in the bottleneck. And so I invite you to relax your pinched expression, loosen up your puckered expectations, and let the Season of Experiments begin. According to my projections, you will soon be receiving a host of invitations to wander into the frontier with your raw sense of wonder turned up all the way. Please research each invitation thoroughly before choosing. When you’ve decided which adventures are most likely to enhance your understanding of the art of liberation, dive in.

FreeWill Astrology

Woohooo!!!!! That said, yes, I have quite a few adventures lined up, main one dealing with stupid Delta raising their prices all of a sudden (hope they go down next week, again). In two weeks I am off to conquer the white waters of the Ocoee and as I mentioned that there are good bike trails up there, the stage manager is up there this weekend to check them out, and arrange for a biking trip for Friday or Sunday. Grrrrrrrrrr. Training yesterday was AWESOME!!!! Too bloody sore today, absolutely loving it.

I love BJJ, I am addicted to it, and every day that I am not in the gym a part of my just dies at the idea of not being there. Yeah, the obvious thing is to just show up, but that’s where the issue lies. I lack the passion. I don’t know if it’s from training burn-out, or drama burn-out. But the fact is, I’m not having fun when I drag my ass out of bed in the morning and consider whether or not I will leave for the gym.

The best times I’ve had, have been on the beach with my teammates, sparring with each other just to say we did it. One of my training partners attempting take-downs at the office I work in, or getting lost on the way to the other academy.

I could point fingers and make the claims of what I know is my real issue, but that would be pointless. Fact is, I find no joy at this gym, outside of the few training partners I have respect and appreciation for.

I had this same issue when I made the choice to retire from gymnastics, and this is a bit different. While I’m definitely going to take a hiatus from competitions for a while (despite my desire to compete at the European Nationals), I just need to find a place where I can rediscover the enjoyment of the sport, and it’s not with this family.

The last couple of years, for me, were draining, physically and emotionally. I’m in recovery mode, and in some ways I’m fully recovered, and in others I’m still healing.

Regardless, I’ll be contacting the instructors around my next few trips and seeing if I can fit their schedules to mine. That said, I wish I was in Denmark. The team there is awesome and I would love to spend more than one day training with them. I could easily regain my focus and maybe come back and rejoin the family. But as it stands…. *sigh* I miss my brothers. That is all I miss.

Scorpio (October 23-November 21)

Evaluating Adam Lambert after one of his exotic, virtuoso performances back in April, American Idol judge Kara DioGuardi praised him as being “confusing, shocking, sleazy, and superb.” That’s a standard you could soon achieve in your own sphere, Scorpio. But do you want to? You’ll have to care less about maintaining your dignity than usual, and be especially forthright in expressing yourself. Let me leave no doubt about what I’m saying: To be as superb as you potentially can be, you’ll have to be at least a little confusing and shocking and maybe even sleazy.

FreeWill Astrology

Well, I figure that I have the first 2 down, but sleazy? Hrm, that will be a new stretch for me.

That said, the house is coming along, bills are being paid down, the carpet is finally drying (apparently, it didn’t fully dry after my last attempt at cleaning it. While I’m expecting a huge electric bill, it’s at least resulting in dry carpet). Montieth finished the tv cabinet, so that is in place, looking awesome and meaning that I can move my business file cabinet to my office, so one less piece of clutter. Yay!!

Oh yeah, overpaid the internet bill last month, screwed me a bit at the time, but at least that’s an extra $50 that I can put towards something else. I am taking the horrorscope from a few weeks ago seriously, been re-evaluating whether or not I should deposit my money into my money market account and moving money into the checking only when bills are due. Going to start doing that next month, since most of my bills are due on the 1st. That should force me to consider how much I use my tip money over paying with my bank card. 😀

Yesterday, I joined the ranks of the more technologically advanced. I got a G1 phone and now I’m trying to figure out how to set-up the email function for business mail. Not sure if the SMTP settings are not taking because of something I’m doing, or something dealing with the issues getting through my router. Service to it is supposed to start this afternoon, so we’ll see if that helps things a bit. I’m hoping, when I switch domain registrations that the issues will clear up. I’m really discovering how much I hate Register.com. Last year was a joke in itself, this year has just built upon that.

Otherwise, things in my life are going really well. Spent Saturday with my friends and celebrating birthdays, yesterday was wonderful too, slept in this morning (on accident) but only have one shift of work to deal with, rest of the day is relaxing and enjoying life. Tomorrow is a busy day, Wednesday is kinda busy and the rest of the week is as normal.

I smile a lot, I’m relaxed, and low and behold, for a rare extended moment, I can honestly describe myself as truly happy. Things that should bother me don’t hang around long, just rolls off my back, I’m rarely in a hurry (unless I’m late to something like – work). I like where I am at, and I’m actually learning to trust more, not just myself, but other people.

I see lots of positive ahead, not all sunshine and cotton candy, but nothing that is totally derailing of anything. 🙂