Month: May 2006

Scorpio for this week:

In her poem “Possession,” Jane Shore describes how the “La Brea tar pits/ keep disgorging ancient bones, squeezing them/ through the oily black muscles of earth/ to the surface.” She’s referring to the place in Los Angeles where there are lakes of natural asphalt that contain the fossils of ancient mammals. These grails of ancient goo, with their seemingly endless new supply of primeval treasures, serve as an excellent metaphor for the psychic terrain you’re inhabiting these days.

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That gives a new meaning to psychic gas. :/

Scorpio for this week:

According to mythologist Michael Meade, real warriors are those who are experts at avoiding violence. They know how to prevent the escalation of conflict. They’re skilled at resolving problems before they explode. In fact, Meade says, war breaks out only when there are no authentic warriors involved in the situation. In this spirit, Scorpio, I exhort you to cultivate your skills as a warrior. You can be instrumental in dispersing the brewing tension well before it erupts into a brawl.

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Yes and no. Right now, the path I believe is right, is to stir things up, not diffuse them. One issue, yes, it needs to be calmed. The other, no. Without the stir, there will be no change. I think another aspect of the warrior, especially in the realm of the priest warrior. Knowing when to stir up change, and when to calm change.

Yeah, I know I haven’t written much of value or mental depth lately. Have way too much going through my head and not enough time to stop and sort it out. The main focii of late have been my relationship, my job and my training.

So far, I think the relationship is going decently, and now that the necessary parts have arrived, to re-start a past enjoyment, I’m hoping that it’ll be a good catalyst to get us working together more. Outside of that, I’m still left questioning whether this is a path I can hold to, as my eye tends to be a bit lazy and slope to every other direction but forward. I guess you could say I have relationship ADD, it has to have periodic bumps to the high end to keep my interest, or I wander to whatever floats my boat for the moment. Though, I will say that I’ve lost most of my spark, as the keeper of that flame is absentee, ATM. Not sure how I’m going to handle that one when the status changes, but we’ll see where I’m at that point in time.

I’ve also been following up on a question my Scotsman asked me during our hiatus…so I’m slowly putting together a list of what I want in a partner. If I have one, what I need that person to be, in order to want them to be with me. I guess that’s a weird way of putting it. But hey, if I’m going to want a person in my life, there are certain things they’ll need to be, in order to effectively fill that position. Main thing, I have to take what I saw in all my bf’s that I love, and shove them into one person. Problem being, I don’t think the most important stuff exists in a single person, hence why I tend to look for multiple people. The other thing, I no longer want someone who balances me, while it works at some points, it’s also a point of issue when it comes down to sharing the stuff that’s polar opposite to who they are and what they are interested in. I want someone who matches me, makes me step-up to the plate and pushes me. I also want someone who’s up for me doing the same for them and recognizes the points when I call them up, instead of me having to pull out the proverbial Clue-x-4TM. That’s what I do know, and can point out off the bat. Otherwise, I just know what I don’t want and what to run away from.

Jobwise, I’m working at finding a new balance. The shake-up has me a bit on my toes and I haven’t settled into the new routine yet. I think that will come in the weeks ahead, but it has brought my paycheck back up. We’ll see how things continue.

Training…gotta get off my duff and start getting back up to par. The whole hip thing got me off the mat for a week, and now I’m trying to get back into that routine and start working on the fine tuning. Developing the habits I need to move forward, instead of hearing my name and something I’m doing wrong that we work on every day. Whether it be stance or grips. But those I have to work on, and that’s what practice is for, so nothing over-the-top there.

Anyway, that’s the State of the Freak, for today.

Scorpio for this week:
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“We should take astrology seriously,” says zoologist Richard Dawkins. “No, I don’t mean we should believe in it. I am talking about fighting it seriously instead of humoring it as harmless fun.” In his view, astrology is a bogus discipline that fosters superstition and undermines clear thinking. Opposing Dawkins’ perspective was that of seminal psychologist Carl Jung, one of the 20th century’s greatest thinkers. “Astrology represents the summation of all the psychological knowledge of antiquity,” he wrote. He routinely used astrological birth charts to help understand his psychotherapy patients. Dawkins and Jung can’t both be right, can they? I suggest you entertain the possibility that they are, Scorpio. In fact, try this dual approach with every major idea you care about. Experiment with what happens when you assume that both sides of every story have a piece of the truth.

Oh nooooooooooo! That damned duality thing again!!!!!!! So I guess we’re considering a balance between fantasy and reality.

“Love is being stupid together,” said French poet Paul Valéry. While there’s an element of truth to that, it’s too corny and decadent for my tastes. I prefer to focus on a more interesting truth, which is this: Real love is being smart together. If you weave your destiny together with another’s, he or she should catalyze your sleeping potentials, sharpen your perceptions, and boost both your emotional and analytical intelligence. Your relationship becomes a crucible in which you deepen your understanding of the way the world works.

So true. It’s about growing as individuals, together. And sparking that growth in each other. Wish I had managed to come up with something like that…

If you ever wondered what I was like as a gymnast, with the exception of my parents and my coach, go see Stick It. And yes, I did have teammates like those, and they’re probably all looking my name up to find where I went.

Question to those who want some type of amnesty for illegal immigrants….

What are you going to tell the people in other countries, who are trying to come to this country legally, when it comes time to tell them that their petitions are on hold because quotas were filled by the people who broke our border laws?

Seriously, I’m curious. I’ll even let you guys post anonymously here.