Month: September 2005

Scorpio for this week:
FreeWill Astrology

Most people hate to feel lost. It can be scary not to know where you are, to wander aimlessly with no sense of direction. But I’d like to propose that in a few rare situations, being lost is a good thing. Such is the case right now, Scorpio. You don’t know your destination, you’ve lost your map, and you’re not even sure where you came from–all of which sets you up perfectly to stumble upon a rich discovery you would have never found otherwise. I suggest that you relax completely into the unmoored, floating feeling. The paradoxical truth is that the best strategy for finding your way out of the fog is to enjoy the fog.

Hrm, never been comfy with doing that, least not in regards to life. I like to have my feet grounded, even if my head is in the clouds. Hence the struggle to get back into a routine….speaking of, I’m sore as hell and my body is gonna hate me tomorrow. Oh well, holding steady at 117lbs now, and the body hasn’t tried to revolt against being at such a low weight. I’m also getting back on track with my eating habits, now to work on that whole sleep thing.

So, it’s looking like a repeat of Monday. So I’m keeping my ass up till 7A just in case I need to head into the site to cover for someone. This is really starting to piss me off. My only hope is that my therapist remembers that I requested to change her shifts for today. I’m gonna call around 7A just to make sure. Gods, I hope she gets that message.

This weekend was a train wreck. It makes me lament the American process of working as individuals and not as a team. My team failed, they were all too busy acting as individuals. We all dropped the ball and we were slaughtered. But it leads me to question how I might be able to bring these people together as a team, if it’s even possible? Right now, the only options are tougher restrictions, being the baby-sitter that shouldn’t exist. After-all, we are all adults, are we not?

At any rate, I plan to do something normal today. I’m hitting the gym at 2, then heading over to tc_borderpagans for the evening. The discussion isn’t really up my alley, but I need familiar faces and I need to get back in touch with my routine. I have too much chaos around me right now, and I’m struggling to function.

So, I’m crushing. I’m such a fangirl sometimes. Too bad it’s not for the usual reasons. In other news, my trip to Borders yesterday lent me to find the Roy Orbison CD that I lost so many years ago. So that’s currently my soundtrack in my car. My disconnect with myself was resolved yesterday when I got my hands on a client, I’ve decided that I need to do more bodywork, so I’m scheduling myself in as on-call for the next month or so, Zoomie-time excluded. Last night, I forked out for my trip to Vegas and found that I somehow landed in more drama. Thankfully, that has been limited and I can only hope that my Bitch is able to get some rest in the coming weeks and not get terribly stressed out over everything. I got more neice pics this past week, so I’ll be posting the pic I have of her and I watching a movie. I miss that child.

I wish Prog wasn’t over so quickly. Though, the good part, is that I will get to see some of my new friends next year, and I hope to see some of the ones that came over for the first time, again.

Scorpio for this week:
FreeWill Astrology

In a series of articles about the Burning Man festival a few weeks ago, the San Francisco Chronicle included brief profiles of selected revelers. One woman named Mai testified that she planned to do things differently in this, her third visit to the annual week-long party in the Nevada desert. “I’m gonna try to remember more this time,” she promised. That would be an excellent approach for you to use in the coming days, Scorpio. The adventures will be arriving in fast and furious abundance, and though it may be a challenge for you to recall every single one of their many valuable teachings, you should try to do just that.

They’re already arriving fast and furious. This weekend had several memories I plan to keep. Gotta write those down in my book.

I hate the AF. But what’s new? The good thing, is that I am upright and awake, and for the most part feeling pretty decent. Won’t be able to hit the gym again until the headache goes away, but it’s all good. I can do some yoga in the meantime. This morning was quite nice, I popped my Varekai cd in the Catbox and went to town, I was completely zoned by the time I got to my meeting and was thrilled to hear about the new stuff I’m going to be doing. Right now, I’m just trying to get the schedule set, still haven’t heard from the DQB on whether or not he put out the prelim schedules in the paychecks. I was paid on-time this week, WOOT! The cool thing, I bought my tickets to Italy Sunday night around 9P, they arrived yesterday morning at 9A, how awesome is that? 😀 Now, to just snag my tickets to Vegas and I’ll be good to go.

Again, I’ve been neglecting my spirituality. This past month has been a whirlwind and I’ve had little downtime that wasn’t taken up in expanding and breathing and unwinding. The last real interaction I had was the shaving ritual prior to coming home for Prog. Friday night was good, with all the drumming, but I really need to just move in places other than just my head. I missed the healing rites this month, I think that’s what’s doing it, so I’ll probably schedule some ritual time in tomorrow for some meditation or communion. With the season change, I really need to recognize it and do the prep-work for the upcoming seasons. Yeah, I’m a slacker, I suck.