Author: Saille

Who am I? On the surface I'm a nature-loving dirt worshipping hippy in search of a good adrenaline rush. That's all I have for now.

So, I spent the majority of work (since I only had a few clients who were super spread out), watching the opening ceremonies and Judo.

1. I am amazed and sad at the fact that humans can put something so beautiful together, yet find a means to try and absolutely destroy each other at the same time. Makes me think that humankind will be better off without formalized governments. I love Chinese culture and its history, but knowing that the artistic beauty of last night came at the sacrifice of all the people who have been made homeless by the Chinese government, makes the enjoyment of it quite bittersweet. And detracts from the idea of the games.

2. I found it overly disturbing that Bush and Putin were sitting and chatting, while Russia was planning and executing an invasion of Georgia.

3. I should have been paying attention to Judo for the last 3 years that I’ve been training Jiu Jitsu. But the Cuban coach is around 400lbs, and I can’t fathom how he got that way, and managed to coach a gold medalist.

PS- NBC sucks ass. Sure, make the smaller events available for us cable liberated folks, but reserve the main events for the fucking TV, at ungodly hours that only folks with TiVo can manage. You fucking suck, and you suck for not making it readable for TiVo (I looked Thursday night).

PPS- My friend Marcie is making her olympic debut in wrestling. Go watch her next week.

Scorpio (October 23-November 21):

The guy who gave his name to North and South America was a pickle salesman and writer as well as an explorer. After a stint in Spain selling his vitamin C-rich pickles to outbound ships, Amerigo Vespucci got to travel to the New World in 1499 and 1502. The stories he penned about his adventures there were highly imaginative, like his description of giant native women with huge breasts who employed poisonous fluids extracted from insects to super-size their husbands’ penises. I nominate Amerigo to be your role model in the coming weeks, Scorpio. May you, too, do what comes natural and be your funky self in ways that lead to glory and renown. (My source for the info about Amerigo is Tony Horwitz’s book A Voyage Long and Strange: Rediscovering the New World.)

FreeWill Astrology

Yeah, I’ve been doing a good deal of venting, confessing, connection severing, etc etc. For some dumb reason, I’ve acquired some new iron fillings and it’s time to get the magnet out to get rid of them. My sister, every time I see her, asks me how I’m doing, tells me I’m doing a wonderful job and the elevation is a tough time. It is, but she also says it makes you learn who you are, and I’m finally starting to get some clarity on that. Just need to talk things over with my elder or my brother, take my little sister camping for a girls night out and decide on the course of action for the next 10 years (gods that sounds weird to say). But yes, Mr. Brezsny, I do need to do what comes natural to me. If I don’t, I stagnate and cease to grow. Now to just get the universe to quit throwing these stupid challenges that cause me to revert.

So, I was watching my AC360 podcasts this morning and I have one question about the recent throw down in the political arena….

McCain has put out some of his ideas on what he wants to do, Obama has put out his ideas on the economy and the war. We know, for the most part, what McCain is going to do and how he’s going to do it. But, Obama keeps talking about change (even though his ideas seem taken from the current playbook), but what changes is he actually going to make? Outside of telling what he’s not going to do, and that McCain has the wrong idea? Maybe I’m just weird, and this is why I’m not really interested in voting for either of them (McCain, because I only agree with him on a few things, but think he’ll fuck us up just as bad)…but I like to know what I’m agreeing to, not what I’m theoretically agreeing to. Which, is the main problem with the political arena, it’s a bunch of theoreticals, not an actual platform.

So, if someone can explain exactly what his plans are, please fill me in. His platform changes faster than Rob Halford can change outfits between sets, according to his website.

I love my horrorscope emails:

Dear Lara,

Get ready for drama! A total eclipse of the Sun will occur in the sign of Leo on August 1. Although this eclipse has a pretty narrow trajectory and will only be visible in parts of Canada, across the Arctic and into China, it still represents metamorphosis — change is in the air.

/sarcasm

Scorpio (December 23-November 21)

Don’t just shamble down to the pizzeria and gobble a slab of greasy cheese, tomato sauce, and dough. Instead, arrange for an interesting person who likes you to home-deliver a pizza lovingly prepared by a gourmet chef. For that matter, Scorpio, don’t tolerate mediocrity or the lowest common denominator in any area of your life. The Season of the Peak Experience is here — a time when you have a sacred duty to give your best, commune with the highest, and ask for excellence.

So, who wants to be a gourmet chef and deliver a pizza to my house? 😀 Just kidding. But he’s right. Lughnasadh is Thursday and Lugh was a god full of mastery, fermented by his foster mother Tailtiu (I think she rocks, even if she is a Formorian, so I can forgive her that trespass). The backslide, is that training is going too well. I can close my hand to a loose fist, with all fingers touching my palm. Still hurts, still can’t grip and everyone keeps giving me a Gi choke on my bad hand side. Grrrrrrrrr. Yesterday’s advance positioning killed the elbow, and today is upper body with Shelby. :/ I will say, I will have a hot bikini body come winter.

That said, I’m sore from training, my body wants to give out – but somehow wants to wake up at 6.45. Got other stuff in my head, but that will come later.

I would like to ride my bike to the gym today, but my body is totally exhausted. Frustrated with various things in my life, and the kits aren’t helping stuff. Last night, Lexus decided to drink out of the fountain on my alter to Manannan. Elan has been climbing on everything. Alpine spent the majority of the night next to my head and scratching. Got up this morning to find cat puke all over my bar and kitchen counter. *sigh* I have a meeting with the recruiter this afternoon, and that is all.

In the world of fighting…

I broke down today and left the mat without permission. I cracked miserably, mainly, as normal, from all the crap that is going on around me, but also because I’m getting frustrated because I don’t feel I’m getting anything out of my training. As I decided to suck it up, wipe my eyes and head back in, my instructor walked out the door and asked me what was wrong. I broke down in tears. I think that’s the first time he’s ever seen me cry, even with the weak smile from him mimicking me – in the stance my family refers to as “mmmmmmmmad”. We had a long talk about what was lacking in my game, and how we need to work on creating one that is made up of all the moves that work best for me. He also made a point of telling me about everything I was doing right, and how he’s watched lower belts beating the crap out of Kyria Gracie and the current world champion Ana-Laura (both well earned black belts on our team). He commended me for showing up to work technique, through all my injuries, and the fact that I’m not as schitzo on the mat as I used to be. I know what he’s saying, but I’m still frustrated with it all. I know I have good defense, I just get tired of constantly being on the bottom with bigger people. I’m tired of staying in one place, and it pisses me off and puts me in the mindset that gets me injured.

I’m ohhhhhhh soooooooo goth. :/

Scorpio (October 23-November 21)

According to Jewish legend, there are in each generation 36 righteous humans who prevent the rest of us from being destroyed. Through their extraordinary good deeds and their love of the divine spark, they save the world over and over again. They’re not famous saints, though. They go about their business anonymously, and no one knows how crucial they are to our well-being. Might you be one of the 36? I bet you’ll be acting like one of them in the coming week. Your capacity for disseminating blessings will be astounding. The ripples of benevolence you initiate could ultimately go around the planet and return to you.

FreeWill Astrology

Does wiping certain people off the face of the earth classify as a blessing or benevolence? I can’t wait for August to get here.

I now have a biker’s tan. Looks kinda like a farmer’s tan, only it ends where my gloves begin. 😀 30+km ride, and I limited my walking time. I’m getting better at switching between 2nd and 3rd gears, only took an hour to get to the gym today vs the 1.5 hours last week and 45 minutes to get to the restaurant for lunch. I’m still on the hot side, even after my shower. Was hoping for a dip in the pool, but seems someone fucked up the pool again and I didn’t feel like walking up to the other area of the community. Oh yeah, and lost my phone on the way…go me! I think it’s a sign to ditch it for something else.

Yesterday, when montieth was over, we spotted a cat that didn’t look too hot. His face was swollen, and obviously wasn’t fixed. He’s been fed and watered, checked on him today but was only able to tell that he had eaten the food and drank the water, but couldn’t check his face – as he was hiding and all I could see were his feet. 😦

Alright, off to visit my podcasts. 😀