Freakchylde's

I guess I should do some kind of update, of sorts. At the base of it all, life is doing pretty good. As always, near Samhain, endings and beginnings occur, work really kicks in and all that fun jazz. I’m hoping this winter the muse hits me up again, time to start getting back to the regular meditation habit and yoga habit. I might have to suck it up and make sure I get to Suri’s classes on Mondays (if she’s still hosting them). I’m still holding back on a good amount of things, half because they aren’t for public topic of discussion, and the other because it’s just not really worth discussing (how’s that for cryptic?).

On the flip-side, tonight I really crack down on the business stuffs. I need to write out a full CV along with the whole story behind SMB Integration and where it’s going. That whole process was side-tracked by some stupid shit and some more serious shit.

On the serious shit, my immediate younger sister had a major tragedy this week. Her inner strength amazes me so much, given all the negative that she has seen to this point, she still manages to find that rock and stand firm on it. I know where she is, and I know the need to just break for a little bit, let a crack just occur so everything can just be released. My youngest sister worries me the most. I know she’s strong, but I also know how fragile she can be. They are both in my thoughts, as is one of my older sisters. I hate being so far away from them, or at least feeling that I am.

The other thing, took up the advice of Toast and pastry, and finally spoke with my mum about that whole ‘birthing’ thing. I should find someone more understanding of my chosen path in life to speak to instead. She completely glossed over my feelings and stated that it’s a small issue and I was making a mountain out of a molehill as well as being selfish. *sigh* I wish that was the actual case, then maybe the concept wouldn’t give me nightmares to the level on par with being classified as a terror.

Other than all of that, I really need a recharge week(end). I would like to go to the mountains, or something like that, clear my head of the clutter and get my feet back on the ground. Somewhere without internet would be nice.