So, I’m finally crashing. The week hasn’t been THAT bad, outside of the fact that I haven’t gotten nearly enough sleep. So I spent yesterday and this morning doing just that. Was hoping for a low key weekend, but that didn’t seem to be in the cards. Met up with with 1st Sgt yesterday at Ted’s, was soooooo nice to finally meet him and get to talk to Kitty, his GF. She rocks my socks, too.
I’ve come to the conclusion that I need to get more on top of my languages, including English. I’m starting to feel like I’m lacking in many respects. I’m almost done downloading the French lessons my French Wench uploaded for me, and I need to get back to work on my Danish. I have a paper due, for my Grove, which I haven’t started because my brain was so dead that the questions didn’t make sense to me on the page. I think I might be able to at least outline for a couple of the questions tonight, and possibly finish up tomorrow.
We’re still lacking hot water, and I’m not feeling all that into going and pouring the boiled water into the bathtub. I’m feeling a bit isolated, but that’s my own making. I am starting to see that my time here is coming to a close. Which, for those of you who like to read into things, here’s the clear definition….I’m working towards moving to another state part-time. Still working out the logistics with my instructor, as he’s wanting to do the same. I’m just not seeing the sense in flying out to CA every other month for a tournament. It would make more sense to live there during tournament season, and train out there at the main academy. On top of that, it reduces the drama that we deal with at the local academy, for now.
I can honestly say, that I don’t know what I want. My closest friends, of current, don’t live here – exception being my grove family, and those that do, well, we’re starting to walk off in completely different paths to the point I have no clue what is going on in the life of the person I live with. I’m obsolete here, if that makes any sense. My obligations and desires lie elsewhere right now. I’m running stuff through my head, seeing how to make things work, but I’m just not seeing it right now.
Sorry, I’m in a kinda low mood today. Whether that be from unexpected guests, being tired, or whatever. I just want to cry.
I can honestly say, that I don’t know what I want. My closest friends, of current, don’t live here – exception being my grove family, and those that do, well, we’re starting to walk off in completely different paths to the point I have no clue what is going on in the life of the person I live with. I’m obsolete here, if that makes any sense.
Complete and 100% sense.