So, my ET and I were emailing, and one of our tangents involves why I’ve given up on relationships. One of the reasons, is because they’re just not worth it. Seriously. The other problem, is that I really just don’t like people. More specifically, and this seems to be magnified of late, inconsiderate people. I do what I can to stay out of people’s way, due to my own conditioning into feeling like I’m some kind of burden upon someone else. So I just prefer to entertain myself, in whichever way works for me. I have serious pet-peaves, mostly just little delicacies of consideration. But I’m finding, that more and more, the manners that I grew up with, are suddenly figments of imagination. Technology keeps us in touch with everyone, constantly, and most of us have no concept of the off button. It’s really sad, in a way, and says a lot about the isolation of us as people. I mean, I’m not really one to talk when it comes to socializing, as I prefer the written word much more to the spoken word (except in very narrow circumstances). But, at the same time, it leads me to want to isolate even more, since obviously the person in front of you, with whom you’re having a conversation, is no longer important, as much as the person who is calling, texting or IMing you. And people wonder why I’ve always been attached to my computer. I’d rather write out what’s in my head, than worry about whether or not what I’m speaking is even being heard.
Since I’m quite sure this bears repeating, and would probably explain to many of you why I rarely answer my cell phone…
With that said, don’t ask questions you’re going to walk out while in mid-answer, and not excuse yourself for calls that aren’t non-emergency/work related. It makes people feel like worthless tidbits, so don’t wonder when they react to you as such.
So, I’m sitting here, watching the kittens terrorize everything awake in the house. And to think they were doing good a bit ago by just sleeping. Talking with my friend J, looking at the dreary – but welcome – weather outside and thinking it’s almost right. I’ve been enjoying the stillness that exists here, probably too much, since I can never manage to wake up before 8.30 or 9. The lights are currently off, and it’s beautiful. I have an email conversation going with my ET, since she’s at work already and my Progchat is open.
I got one of my gift cards from my mum, for next week’s road mark. Trying to decide if I should use it to get my new tent, or see if I can spread it around a bit for a new hiking pack (need one for a week, for those European trips), small parts to fix up my bike, etc. etc. Decisions, decisions.
I’m still in shock about Jeremy, talked to his wife for the first time yesterday and I had no clue what to say to her. My Bitch has been awesome, and is talking to her every day, and I love him for it. Jeremy was my brother, but at least I can now call and check on her as well.
Tomorrow are the parties, so yes, get to the House of Pynkcakes early, since I won’t be able to stay long. I have another party to head to after that, so I figure 3 hours there, and 3 hours at the other party and I’ll be socialized out. Weekend after, I will be at _gothfather_‘s Guy Fawkes party (which, I don’t have directions to your place yet, and I only vaguely remember from the last visit), for a little bit, after my tournament.
I still need to redo stuff with the site, both my journal pages look like shit now. But with things finally toning down, I might have a chance before the end of the year. Here’s hoping! Though, LJ is the only one I have real trouble with, my blogger journal is a fairly easy fix, I’m just too lazy to do it.