Month: February 2006

Ok, normally I’m happy to let the delusional Christians (not to be confused with the non-delusional Christians…and yes Virginia, the latter does exist) sit around in their own little fantasy world, but this out of the Phelps camp deserves punishment of divine proportions. The thing that got me the most, was hearing the letter that his daughter wrote last year to the widow of one of the soldiers, on a broadcast. Unfortunately, I can’t find the video footage to post here, but I really hope that Congress, both state and federal, go through with the Bill that’s making its way to the respective floors. It’s one thing to protest the war, but it’s something totally different to hound a grieving family during personal time.

Hats off to the bikers and counter-protesters that act as shields.

Scorpio for this week:

“You can’t wait for inspiration,” proclaimed writer Jack London. “You have to go after it with a club.” That sounds too violent to me, though I agree in principle that aggressiveness is the best policy in one’s relationship with inspiration–especially for you in the coming weeks. Here’s my modified version of London’s advice: “Don’t wait for inspiration. Go after it with a butterfly net, fishing rod, specimen jars, petri dishes, leashes, sweet treats, juicy bait, persuasive arguments, and sincere flattery.” And whatever you do, Scorpio, don’t fall into the trap of thinking that inspiration is a rare stroke of luck you’re powerless to summon.

FreeWill Astrology

Heh, I have an interesting post about this, but it’ll have to wait till later, when I’m not falling asleep.

I found this poem back when I was in H.S. and going through my “why can’t I get a date” phase. I’ve kept it with me, and reading it outloud daily, when I was going through my abusive relationship seriously helped me find my inner strength to make it through some pretty tough times when I really doubted myself. But I figured I’d share…

Scorpio for this week:

Imagine that you’re a circus acrobat whose specialty is working high in the air. You’re skilled at swinging from one trapeze to another. You have utmost confidence in your timing and concentration and grip, so that when you let go of one bar and are flying toward the next, there’s no doubt you’ll make it. I believe that your life has now brought you to a transition that’s metaphorically similar to the moment of being in between trapezes. Don’t think too hard as you soar across the abyss; trust your instincts.

FreeWill Astrology

The boy is getting behind again. And people say that I’m not grounded. Whoever thinks that being grounded means feet connected to earth, never studied the flight of birds.

I’ve never been good at public speaking. In fact, I hate it. Which sucks, given the path I chose within my Grove. I have to over-come my issues because I’ll soon be teaching more, and leading rituals. Today, I had to teach a class on ritual. I was barely prepared due to the nervousness, and thinking that I would remember the gaps on my notes during my discussion. I spent a lot of time back-tracking, due to forgetting stuff. But it was a good class, my brothers and sisters understand that I have this difficulty. Today was good. My face didn’t flush, even though it was obvious I was having issues. My mentor didn’t interject with me, as he did with everyone else, which was a positive sign. My brothers and sisters helped me out, given that everyone else’s class had outlines already given to them and Ritual is something that never gets written down. I’m happy with how I did, even though I still think I wasn’t up to par.

With that said, I’ve decided to start checking out schools and at least enrolling at a Jr College, to get my undergrad Psych credits. I’m going back to school to get my Master’s in psychology so I can get certified to be a councellor. I think it’ll make a great addition to the work I’m already doing. It’ll also give me another avenue of exploration within myself.

Scorpio for this week:

Happy Valentine Daze, Scorpio! To begin our meditation on love, let’s turn our attention to Abhishek Parikh, an Indian man who claims to be the reincarnation of a very special woman. In his present life as well as in his last one, he believes he has served as the wife of the snake god Naagraaj. To perform his wifely duties, he sometimes transforms into a female snake himself, though he always returns to his male human form. I bring this up, Scorpio, because I think that you yourself have the potential of getting intimate with a snake god or snake goddess in the coming weeks. My gut instinct tells me so, and so does my analysis of the astrological omens. You don’t have to become the deity’s full-time wife or husband; being a part-time companion or apprentice will be just fine.

FreeWill Astrology

Oh boy. More later.

Alright, I haven’t talked about the Boy Toy in a while, because I was hoping he’d just go away like the disposable boy he is… So anyway, we all know that when I stop talking to someone, it’s not always because I’m pissed, but because I usually don’t feel they’re worth my time. In this case, he is a source of amusement, because he’s trying to make out my lack of response as being bitter or some such boyish nonsense (heaven forbid I actually don’t give a constipated shit about him). Anyway, I get this in my mailbox, with the subject of “Cutie pie”: Alright sweetie – when you are ready to talk just lemme know. You have no reason to feel embarassed – u tried your best.

Now, first thing, it’s next to impossible to embarass me, especially in regards to something I went into just for the sheer fun of it. The fight wasn’t some proving ground to me, it wasn’t some “dominate the male” bullshit. It was sheer amusement, in fact, I laughed hysterically the entire way home and I have 2 people I was talking to who can back me up on that.

So anyway, Boy Toy, you’re making an ass of yourself, and every email you send will promptly be placed here so that the rest of the world can see it. Get over it. You’re nothing to me, you never will be anything other than “that guy I hopped on the mat with.” Of course, I could post the pics of you getting your ass kicked by someone smaller than me (which, nice omission of fact on that fight, I guess if you don’t mention it, you can’t really be called out on a lie).

Have a nice life, enjoy being in backyard movies of girls beating you up, and I’m glad someone out there is willing to pay you to get off. I, however, will not be one of them. I have guys more worth my while to spend my mat time with.

Oh yeah, have I mentioned you come off as desperate? Seriously.

Things are going well, lately. I’m happy. Went to see Underworld: Evolution last night. Definite cool date movie – blood, violence, vampire sex…. I found it amusing that they avoided the Whitewolf issue this time by calling the “abomination” a hybrid. Kinda amusing how someone could launch a lawsuit based on a definition, hell, the screenwriters even used the word correctly. Anyway, I’m sure someone is gonna come up with some justification, so let me just say that I found the lawsuit stupid and no one’s going to change that opinion.

Now, onto other things, the commercials for the Winter Olympics are bloody cool! My bedroom kicks ass! Lots o’ purple!!!!!! hehehehehe.

Scorpio for this week:

This isn’t always the case, Scorpio, but right now you have a certain resemblance to that type of wild iris known as blue-eyed grass. Its stem isn’t hardy enough to hold up more than one flower blossom at a time; before a new bloom sprouts, therefore, the old one has to wither. Similarly, you can’t and shouldn’t try to work on more than a single labor of love, at least for the next week. Devote all your concentration and care to it, ignoring the other possibilities. And don’t worry: This narrowing of your focus is a good thing.

FreeWill Astrology

Heh, well, at least one is down. No kickboxing for this week, and possibly no BJJ for next week. A heavy weight knocked my elbow out of commission.

Other than that, things on the homefront are improving, and I’m starting to balance out. A decent paycheck was helpful, as it’s UFC ticket purchasing time this weekend. *sigh* It is nice to pare down what I need to focus on.