I’ve never been good at public speaking. In fact, I hate it. Which sucks, given the path I chose within my Grove. I have to over-come my issues because I’ll soon be teaching more, and leading rituals. Today, I had to teach a class on ritual. I was barely prepared due to the nervousness, and thinking that I would remember the gaps on my notes during my discussion. I spent a lot of time back-tracking, due to forgetting stuff. But it was a good class, my brothers and sisters understand that I have this difficulty. Today was good. My face didn’t flush, even though it was obvious I was having issues. My mentor didn’t interject with me, as he did with everyone else, which was a positive sign. My brothers and sisters helped me out, given that everyone else’s class had outlines already given to them and Ritual is something that never gets written down. I’m happy with how I did, even though I still think I wasn’t up to par.
With that said, I’ve decided to start checking out schools and at least enrolling at a Jr College, to get my undergrad Psych credits. I’m going back to school to get my Master’s in psychology so I can get certified to be a councellor. I think it’ll make a great addition to the work I’m already doing. It’ll also give me another avenue of exploration within myself.