Just so you all are aware, I am now ranked 2nd in the world for the IBJJF organization. My sacrifice was my elbow. I dislocated when it shouldn’t have. So, when I get home, I will heal and start weight training, since the ligaments are too loose, and the structural muscles will need to be strengthened. On top of that, I need to gain weight. I gave up 7 lbs to my opponent and was declared malnourished by the doc who checked me out (of course, I’ve eaten like shit for the past 2 days). My goal is to get back up to 125, so I can just drop a couple of lbs to my weight class, instead of looking anorexic on a daily basis.
Scorpio for this week:
For reasons too silly to go into here (involving romance, of course), I once spent six months making thrice-weekly three-and-a-half-hour roundtrips from Chapel Hill, NC to Columbia, SC. The back roads I drove on were sparsely traveled and my ancient pick-up truck didn’t have a radio, so I passed the time by reading. I became quite skilled at continually darting my eyes back and forth between the road and the open book resting on my steering wheel. In this way I got through James Joyce’s Ulysses, Leo Tolstoy’s Anna Karenina, and Thomas Mann’s Magic Mountain. I don’t advise you to try something so dangerous, Scorpio, but I do believe it’s a perfect astrological moment for you to master the art of slipping back and forth between two starkly different realities.
Yeah, I need to get back to doing this. My realities have really sucked, of late. Most of them include pain and depression, but I have a slight break from it all. It’s currently on the other side of the country, and over here, it’s nothing but all about me, right now. Least, till tomorrow. I fight at 10am. I have one fight, and it’s a girl I know I can beat if I’m smart about it. The nerves have finally passed, so I’m doing much better.
Also, I have my Whiskey, from the Isle of Skye, it makes my tongue tingle. And it makes me think that the gods are on my side, I just have to take advantage of it and do what I need to do. The signs have been there, that it is finally my time, now to just rise up to it and face it, without fear.
There is a definite problem, when I have to take multiple sleeping pills, because anger has over-powered me yet again. I realize, there is a problem, and hopefully it will be solved with my input and not without it. Should I be left out of the solution, I will crack, and it will not be pretty. My apologies ahead of time, if that should be the case.
With that said, looks like I’m the only person in my division this weekend. So, no idea if they’ll let me compete in another division, or not.
Scorpio for this week:
You won’t believe how talented you’re going to be at blending pragmatism and idealism in the coming days, Scorpio. You may be amazed at your knack for being down to earth and up in the clouds at the same time. Among the feats you could accomplish are the following: making money from doing what you love; acquiring crucial nuts and bolts for a long-deferred fantasy; and turning lead into gold just in time to make a big down payment on a dream boat, dream home, or dream trip.
I will have to revisit this tonight, when I have time. 😀
Scorpio (October 23-November 21)
A while back I asked my readers, “What conditions would you need in your world in order to feel you were living in paradise?” I’ll report to you how one Scorpio responded, since it’s very apropos to your immediate future. “My utopia,” wrote Sandra Boyd of Vancouver, “would require me to be desired, loved, and satiated amidst messy order and cockeyed perfection.” I urge you to create that exact set of conditions, Scorpio. Get out there and cultivate the funny logic, wild discipline, and chaotic organization that will help ensure you’ll be fiercely adored.
Heh, my desire is to be standing on the edge of a hurricane of passion and feel the winds invite me into the funnel. 😀 There’s definitely more, but that would be the fun part.
I would think parents would be better than this (family creates fake myspace, girl commits suicide). But no. Instead, they have to sneak around, not just their child, but the child of someone else. Now, while I don’t agree with the seeking of charges in the suicide, I do believe that something needs to happen. I understand the vigilance that is needed with kids on the internet, but this is going waaaaaaaaay too far.
Why have we stooped to this level? Even if it’s just one person. What happened with developing good communication skills with kids early on? *sigh*
Scorpio (October 23-November 21)
The sharks in German aquariums weren’t reproducing fast enough. Their keepers hired scientists to come up with the shark equivalent of aphrodisiacs. The most successful inducement to love was music — especially Justin Timberlake’s “Rock Your Body,” Bob Marley’s “No Woman, No Cry,” and Salt-N-Pepa’s “Push It.” I suggest you play tunes like those for you and your chosen ones, Scorpio. It’s an excellent time to coax out more of the tender, romantic sides of your inner shark, as well as the inner shark of anyone you’re attracted to.
Ummmmm, can we get off the relationship stuff already? Although, “Slap my Bitch” seems like a good soundtrack….Although…..let me come up with an alternative interpretation: Push it, in the form of forcing the boundaries and forcing decisions that need to be made. When you don’t have a woman, you can’t cry about it, because you didn’t hold on to her properly. But if you do, I can rock your body. That work?
Otherwise this is an official “Fuck you”. 😀 Said with absolute love.
Love letters
One of the things that I’m really liking about this book, is the suggested activity of writing love letters. Yes, to an extent, this furthers my fantasy about the ideals of love and my exploration of that emotion, but hey, what can one do? One of the letters is to my Evil Twin, now, the assignment didn’t take into the consideration that I actually have someone I consider my evil twin, but that’s beside the point. The other letter, is to someone I want to love, or want to love more. I’ve been drafting everything in my head, with a couple of additions to digital form. One of these days I will post them, once I consider them finished. And to be thoroughly honest, I’ve been enjoying the discoveries I’ve found. 😀
I think I’m finally hitting my balance, again. And I can honestly say, I haven’t gotten totally frustrated, yet, today. 😀
The world conspires for me, in mysterious ways….for I am, again, the office bitch because everyone is getting sick again. Yet, somehow, I can’t find a reason to complain. (Well, yeah, I can, but not justifiably).
EDIT: In furthering the conspiracy, my boss took away my day off tomorrow, and filled it with 3 clients.
The positive in all of this…I need the money.
Scorpio for this week:
I believe that doing the challenging assignments I’m about to describe will put you in alignment with cosmic rhythms, and make it more likely that you will attract grace and synchronicity into your life. You are, of course, under no obligation to carry them out. That’s because you have free will, and are always at liberty to choose a path that leads you away from grace and synchronicity. With that as a caveat, here are the roles I believe you should play in the coming week if you’d like to thrive: a catalytic X-factor; a tender wild card; a friendly shocker; a nonviolent bombshell; an agent provocateur who loves all you survey.
Hrmmmmmmm. I think I like this assignment. 😀
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