I’ll have to write more later, as I currently need to take a piss and head to my next client….

Last night, the crashing and banging became unbearable, after going in search of where it was coming from, I ended up at my immediate downstairs neighbor’s door, asking him what was up. His downstairs neighbors came up, complaining about his passive aggressive reaction to their inability to shut their door without slamming it. I informed them, that their inability to quietly shut a door kept me up all the time, because of the number of visitors they constantly received. 2 hours later, in trying to time out the slams per number of visitors, I witnessed a possible drug deal going down. Then another one showed up. Then my 2 downstairs neighbors showed up. I called security during the possible drug deal, he called me back during this time (after said cars were gone). I wanted the security officer to deal with it first, as I believe in starting at the bottom rung and working my way up (speaking of, yes I spoke with the guys in the apartment, several times about their disrupting behaviour, particularly after 1AM). Anyway, security didn’t do anything, the neighbors wanted the police called. Apparently that was falling to me, so I did. My neighbors are were not in residence this morning. Warrant was served last night around midnight, police spoke to me upon leaving at 3AM.

This weekend, I’m going to purchase the rifle that has been on my wish list for years. I’m also contemplating moving. Will speak to management on Monday. I am a really pissed off Freak. Lack of sleep, over-abundance of stupid and more important things to deal with does not make me a pleasant person right now. I think I need to invest in a security system for my car too, if they aren’t immediately evicted. I want my house, and a huge gate with a mine field. That is all.

Scorpio (October 23-November 21)

Your circumstances aren’t as dire as you feared, Scorpio. The freaky monster in the closet is bored with spooking you and will soon be departing the premises. Meanwhile, one of your other tormentors is about to experience some personal sadness that will soften his or her heart toward you. There’s more: The paralysis that has been infecting your funny bone will miraculously cure itself, and the scheduled revelation of the rest of your dirty secrets will be summarily canceled. I hope you’re not feeling so sorry for yourself that you fail to notice this sudden turn in your luck. It may take an act of will for you to wake up to the new dispensations that are available.

FreeWill Astrology

Well, considering I never feared them in a manner that could be considered ‘dire’, that’s good (does this mean I’m turning into an optimist?). All of my tormentors are my own emotions, if the emotion of anger can soften, that would be great. I am seriously not used to dealing with him anymore, as I managed to kick him out of my life for a bit.

But wait! There’s more!!!!

I do really need to laugh right now. Call me a convert, but in the past couple of years I have really learned how to laugh and enjoy myself, not taking serious the things that weren’t serious. It has been great, and I have found the healing properties of a really good laugh. As for the revelation, well, I haven’t had the a-ha moment on that one, and I’m still waiting for it. But I guess that will happen when it happens, no sense in rushing it because it will come at the exact moment that will be beneficial to me.

As for noticing, glad someone sent me the memo, because I’ve had too much cloud cover to see much of anything lately. Been trying to take the space to acclimate, but hey, doesn’t always happen the way I want it to, oh well. I can only work with the options I have available to me, and sometimes that doesn’t provide me with the most optimal of results.

So, an act of will? Maybe some good meditation this weekend. Give me something to look forward to, that includes tranquility and relaxation. Where to go from here? Forward.

I guess I should do some kind of update, of sorts. At the base of it all, life is doing pretty good. As always, near Samhain, endings and beginnings occur, work really kicks in and all that fun jazz. I’m hoping this winter the muse hits me up again, time to start getting back to the regular meditation habit and yoga habit. I might have to suck it up and make sure I get to Suri’s classes on Mondays (if she’s still hosting them). I’m still holding back on a good amount of things, half because they aren’t for public topic of discussion, and the other because it’s just not really worth discussing (how’s that for cryptic?).

On the flip-side, tonight I really crack down on the business stuffs. I need to write out a full CV along with the whole story behind SMB Integration and where it’s going. That whole process was side-tracked by some stupid shit and some more serious shit.

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Scorpio (October 23-November 21)

The Indian guru known as Amma has hugged over 30 million people during her three-decades career. I’ve known people who’ve received blessings from her, and they tell me that she can magically undo your karmic knots with her spiritual power, freeing you from having to suffer indefinitely for the bad decisions you made in the past. Amma rarely does a complete unraveling of all karmic knots in one sitting, however. Your negative conditioning might be holding you together, after all, and a sudden super-fix could cause you to fall apart. That’s the situation I suspect is true for you right now, Scorpio: You’ll be wise to undo some, but not all, of your karmic knots.

FreeWill Astrology

Working on it. I know I’m reaping some of the rewards for what I have done, and oh boy am I grateful for that. Just keep on the path.

Scorpio (October 23-November 21)

During the dialog about health care in the U.S., certain highly relevant facts are never discussed. For example, it’s ludicrous for right-wingers to fear that a government-run health system would freshly infect our capitalist system with the stain of socialism. The truth is, America has long had the biggest socialist enterprise in the world: its sprawling military establishment, which is completely paid for by taxpayer dollars and run by the government! (For more discussion of America’s long-running, thoroughgoing socialist tradition, go here.) Another unacknowledged fact in the dialog about health care is this: The single smartest strategy for financing a new system (as well as dramatically improving the economy) would be to reduce military expenditures. Americans don’t seem to realize that their monstrously huge military empire is a case of supreme overkill: It girdles the globe in ways that are unprecedented in the history of civilization. We have 761 military sites in over 100 countries! “If you want to talk about suns never setting on empires, the Brits had nothing compared to this,” defense analyst John Pike told the L. A. Times. I bring this to your attention, Scorpio, to illustrate the way that a seemingly serious discussion can be thrown off course and rendered unproductive when it ignores critical information. Please make sure nothing like that happens in your personal sphere in the coming weeks.

Um, ok. Kinda prefer to leave politics out of my horrorscope readings….which left me with a foul after-taste, but I’ll stick to the heart of what was to be said and not the example used to illustrate the meaning.

I’m still writing the PPUSA review, still writing the follow-up for next year, working on business stuffs (which takes priority) and currently feeling empty. My house is too quiet, even with the BBC playing in the background. The last 2 weeks were amazing, even with their moments of helplessness and the rains. 3 more months, plans for the future…now to just enact them and move forward. I like that feeling, there are plans, there are goals. No stagnation.

I am now home from ProgPower. This year was very awesome, for many many reasons that I will get to later. Just wanted to say that it was a spectacular weekend and I hope next year is just as good.

The fun stuff from the trip and subsequent return:
My mum just cracked, she didn’t shatter, vacation is therapist recommended.

Have to have surgery on my mouth, stat for the bottom teeth, top teeth can wait.

Sat next to African guy who knew how to ask the time and say he had to go to the bathroom. Otherwise, he didn’t grasp the concept of “stay in your own space”. I broke out a few old hockey moves.

Taking a piss in the bathroom after the flight, and remarking how odd it was that the person next to me was standing up…facing the toilet. Walked out of the stall, he couldn’t walk out of the restroom fast enough.

Fridge is broken. Called the emergency number, “We’ll come by in the morning.” I now have rotten milk, yogurt and other things in my fridge. And yes, I called the emergency number again, filled them in, and left a message in the office. I don’t know if this is me being targeted or what, but either way, I’m pissy.

Carpets are clean. I like them, they smell better. But I have started to run into the same problem I had when I treated it…..IT’S NOT DRYING!!!!!

I have new bedsheets.

That is all.

The most difficult thing, is seeing a parent fall apart….especially when they were the one that had it all together. I’m hoping this is just a case of too much going on at once, but it scares the shit out of me to have the voice in the back of my head saying it’s not.

Scorpio (October 23-November 21)

What life will you be living at noon on September 1, 2014? Who will you be? How thoroughly will your dreams have come true? What kind of beauty and truth and love and justice will you be serving? Will you look back at the time between August 27 and September 21, 2009 and sigh, “If only I had initiated my Five Year Master Plan at that ripe astrological moment”? Or on September 1, 2014 will you instead be able to crow, “I can truly say that in these past five years I have become the president of my own life”?

FreeWill Astrology

Hrmmmmmmm. I think the latter will be the case, as things are growing right now and I’ve made a pretty firm commitment to move forward instead of staying in one place. Gonna be a fun ride, and I’ll enjoy every minute of it.