Author: Saille

Who am I? On the surface I'm a nature-loving dirt worshipping hippy in search of a good adrenaline rush. That's all I have for now.

Scorpio (October 23-November 21)
Poet Sylvia Plath said she wasn’t much impressed with the “photographic mind which paradoxically tells the truth, but the worthless truth, about the world.” What she really loved was the “synthesizing spirit, that ‘shaping’ force, which prolifically sprouts and makes up its own worlds with more inventiveness than God.” That’s the aspect of your psyche I hope will be in full bloom during the coming weeks, Scorpio. It’s a perfect time for you to enter into an unprecedented phase of building. You’re ripe to dream up a host of creations for yourself — to improvise and design and compose.

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I’m going with my ETs interpretation: “your world is what you make it, and you have the power of creation like mad”. I’m too sick to come up with my own interpretation, right now.

With that said, I have teh kittehs on the couch with me, and they’re not hissing at each other (regularly).

I’s a happy freak.

So, long story short, my friend is the promotor for ProgPower Scandinavia. I talked him into moving the fest up a week, so that it falls between his b-day and mine this year. Well, there are several bands I WANT to see, since I work ProgPower USA and rarely get to see any of the bands (and that will decrease even more with this year’s line-up/schedule).

At any rate, so far, he has two of my favourite bands on the line-up. Raintime, whose set I missed completely this year. And Wuthering Heights, whose set I also missed the year they played.

I LOVE CLAUS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *bouncebouncebouncebounce*

And just in the event no one can figure it out, yes, I will be there. For those that might be interested:
progpower scandinavia

Scorpio (October 23-November 21)
Happy Valentine Daze, Scorpio! After extensive meditation about what advice would be most useful for your love life in the coming months, I decided on this gentle rant from the South African poet Shabbir Banoobhai: “Love is a mystery. And the reason why it is a mystery and should remain a mystery is that knowledge of it would give us mastery over it — would enable us to manipulate it — and love, truth, God, cannot be manipulated. Hence the Prophet exclaimed, ‘My Lord, increase my bewilderment in Thee.'”

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I totally agree with this, hence why I accept love when I feel it and express it as it feels the need to be expressed. Hell, it’s one of my life’s endevours, because once it opens up in your mind’s eye, you love the world and everything in it, not just one thing. And suddenly, not only does loneliness disappear, but the connections to everything take root and grow.

On the other foot, can we get off the Val’s day stuff?

For the one who holds my soul…

Every day, I look at you and see the beauty of you, the kindness and generousity that attracted me to you. You were the bright and shiney diamond among a bag full of coal, I saw in you, everything that you are, and everything that those you seek don’t see. I loved you, before you even really knew who I was, before I called you on my first day at work, to meet up for coffee.

I look at you now, and see the same person, only tortured by the fact that someone who sees all that beauty and love in you, is also the one who is not right for you. I wanted, for so long, to believe that I could be everything you needed, and that I could give all of myself to you. I found I was wrong. Whether it was because I was young and needed to live in my world, or just because this is the way I will be forever. Every day, I want to reach out and hold you. Show you I still love you, but know that doing so, will hurt even more. I feel selfish, because I know I just won’t be hurting you, I’ll be hurting me as well. I know I can’t have you, and I know that the dream of us forever, is just a dream. As much as I want that to be reality, I see the rocky roads we’ve been down together, the grass covered prairies where we could smile and enjoy each other, and the dark forests where our souls were the most evil. While we may not have been meant for each other, we were meant to be together. The bond we have is a strong one, as much as I fear the breaking of it in the future.

I remember all the times, where you chastized me, for wearing my heart on my sleeve and letting it run towards something faster than my head. I always fought back, because I wanted to feel and experience something, more than I wanted to learn first. I am always the impulsive one, whereas you were the logical think first one. I sit back now, and see that we are starting to reverse. I have become the one that sits back and watches, moving slowly, and watching as you start your path towards reconciling your emotional self. Holding it in has been too much for you, and I become amazed at who you are now, even in your passion, I find you beautiful, more than ever. I saw you this morning, curled up and hair rustled as you snuck deeper under your covers, and I loved you. I loved all of you, including the parts that drive me nuts. And I told you, and you told me you loved me too. You are the most beautiful thing to me, in all the awkwardness and fumbling around each other, you are perfection, and I love you for it.

Scorpio (October 23-November 21)

One goal of meditation is to empty the mind of its obsessively generated thoughts, rationalizations, and images. Alas, much of the media functions as a reverse meditation machine. Not only does it stir up your own mental clatter, it also floods you with the seething surge of other people’s private pandemoniums. Furthermore, it delivers this rattling racket with entertaining words and brilliant color and crystalline sound, driving it as deeply into your psyche as your own flotsam. Keep this in mind throughout February, which is Clean Out Your Brain Month. Cut way back on your media intake. Snack lightly rather than gorging continually.

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How amusing. Though, I think cleaning out my brain would be a good idea, not just in the media intake, but also in paring down the things that I have to pay attention to on a daily basis. Simplification, mostly in my schedule. Now to just get sleep.

For those of you who are interested, I just made one of my love letters public. If you wish to read it, it will be the 3rd post down, after this one, under my pronoia tag. Yeah, there’s some editing issues, but I’m feeling too lazy to fix them. 😉

Scorpio (October 23-November 21)

Internet pundit Ariana Huffington realized she was working too hard when she got so exhausted she passed out and broke her cheekbone on her desk. Resolved to give herself more slack, she decided to carry just two Blackberries with her at all times instead of the three that had been her constant companions. I request that you perform at least two similar acts of self-care in the coming week, Scorpio. They could come in the form of either eliminating complications, as Huffington did, or else adding luxurious treats. For example, you might want to arrange to be massaged in warm water by a team of charismatic healers singing you love songs and lullabies.

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Well, outside of the fact that I can’t stand Huffington, it sounds like a good plan. Though, I’m voting for the luxurious treats, the complications are subsiding. 🙂