Freakchylde's

So, my ET and I were emailing, and one of our tangents involves why I’ve given up on relationships. One of the reasons, is because they’re just not worth it. Seriously. The other problem, is that I really just don’t like people. More specifically, and this seems to be magnified of late, inconsiderate people. I do what I can to stay out of people’s way, due to my own conditioning into feeling like I’m some kind of burden upon someone else. So I just prefer to entertain myself, in whichever way works for me. I have serious pet-peaves, mostly just little delicacies of consideration. But I’m finding, that more and more, the manners that I grew up with, are suddenly figments of imagination. Technology keeps us in touch with everyone, constantly, and most of us have no concept of the off button. It’s really sad, in a way, and says a lot about the isolation of us as people. I mean, I’m not really one to talk when it comes to socializing, as I prefer the written word much more to the spoken word (except in very narrow circumstances). But, at the same time, it leads me to want to isolate even more, since obviously the person in front of you, with whom you’re having a conversation, is no longer important, as much as the person who is calling, texting or IMing you. And people wonder why I’ve always been attached to my computer. I’d rather write out what’s in my head, than worry about whether or not what I’m speaking is even being heard.