Scorpio (October 23-November 21):

The guy who gave his name to North and South America was a pickle salesman and writer as well as an explorer. After a stint in Spain selling his vitamin C-rich pickles to outbound ships, Amerigo Vespucci got to travel to the New World in 1499 and 1502. The stories he penned about his adventures there were highly imaginative, like his description of giant native women with huge breasts who employed poisonous fluids extracted from insects to super-size their husbands’ penises. I nominate Amerigo to be your role model in the coming weeks, Scorpio. May you, too, do what comes natural and be your funky self in ways that lead to glory and renown. (My source for the info about Amerigo is Tony Horwitz’s book A Voyage Long and Strange: Rediscovering the New World.)

FreeWill Astrology

Yeah, I’ve been doing a good deal of venting, confessing, connection severing, etc etc. For some dumb reason, I’ve acquired some new iron fillings and it’s time to get the magnet out to get rid of them. My sister, every time I see her, asks me how I’m doing, tells me I’m doing a wonderful job and the elevation is a tough time. It is, but she also says it makes you learn who you are, and I’m finally starting to get some clarity on that. Just need to talk things over with my elder or my brother, take my little sister camping for a girls night out and decide on the course of action for the next 10 years (gods that sounds weird to say). But yes, Mr. Brezsny, I do need to do what comes natural to me. If I don’t, I stagnate and cease to grow. Now to just get the universe to quit throwing these stupid challenges that cause me to revert.

Yeah, so I’m now 30. Woohoooooo!!!!!!! I’m supposed to feel an impending doom, besides the fact my bank account is almost empty, right? Eh, I don’t, and that is alright. 🙂 Yesterday was nice, I skipped my tournament for a day with my Scotsman. That whole “sleeping in is wonderful” thing kept me from going. Sleep schedule has been totally fucked up…thank you daylight savings time. I woke up on time today, thanks to the lovely sun being where it was supposed to be, vs that whole darkness till 9 crap. Went to the _gothfather_‘s Guy Fawkes party, with a very rich and tasty German chocolate cake for me and the birthday boy. Purrrrrrrrr. I GOT moonbird TIME!!!!! Gods I miss that woman, need to give her more hugs this afternoon. Also was able to see many others I have missed, including alekto and justicefire. Met a few new folks, who I hope to see later today, as well.

And, hopefully, I’ll be able to hit up the bookstore this afternoon, maybe snag a couple of printer cartridges so I can print out my REI gift card. Would be lovely. 😀

Sorry, that there’s no huge revelations here today, though, I am at an odd peace, which is nice. 🙂

So, I’m finally crashing. The week hasn’t been THAT bad, outside of the fact that I haven’t gotten nearly enough sleep. So I spent yesterday and this morning doing just that. Was hoping for a low key weekend, but that didn’t seem to be in the cards. Met up with with 1st Sgt yesterday at Ted’s, was soooooo nice to finally meet him and get to talk to Kitty, his GF. She rocks my socks, too.

I’ve come to the conclusion that I need to get more on top of my languages, including English. I’m starting to feel like I’m lacking in many respects. I’m almost done downloading the French lessons my French Wench uploaded for me, and I need to get back to work on my Danish. I have a paper due, for my Grove, which I haven’t started because my brain was so dead that the questions didn’t make sense to me on the page. I think I might be able to at least outline for a couple of the questions tonight, and possibly finish up tomorrow.

We’re still lacking hot water, and I’m not feeling all that into going and pouring the boiled water into the bathtub. I’m feeling a bit isolated, but that’s my own making. I am starting to see that my time here is coming to a close. Which, for those of you who like to read into things, here’s the clear definition….I’m working towards moving to another state part-time. Still working out the logistics with my instructor, as he’s wanting to do the same. I’m just not seeing the sense in flying out to CA every other month for a tournament. It would make more sense to live there during tournament season, and train out there at the main academy. On top of that, it reduces the drama that we deal with at the local academy, for now.

I can honestly say, that I don’t know what I want. My closest friends, of current, don’t live here – exception being my grove family, and those that do, well, we’re starting to walk off in completely different paths to the point I have no clue what is going on in the life of the person I live with. I’m obsolete here, if that makes any sense. My obligations and desires lie elsewhere right now. I’m running stuff through my head, seeing how to make things work, but I’m just not seeing it right now.

Sorry, I’m in a kinda low mood today. Whether that be from unexpected guests, being tired, or whatever. I just want to cry.

So, lokasenna, aka Big Cat loves this band called Tarot (if I’m remembering this correctly). Well, it seems I’m going to see them while I’m in Finland. Any signature requests? 😀