So, I’m sitting in a stall at the gym, and it suddenly dawns on me that I can no longer tell people to kiss my lily-white irish ass. Why? Because the AmerIndian is kicking in and I’m reddish-tan. And because I tan in my backyard, I only have one tan line, and only 5 people are privy enough to get to see it. So, 😛 No asking.

In other news, the gym didn’t help me feel any more productive, or get me into any mood to be productive. Instead, I’ll be bruised tomorrow from the hot tub. I’m making tea, maybe that will help me feel better, but I very much do not wish to go to work tonight.

So, I’m sitting in a stall at the gym, and it suddenly dawns on me that I can no longer tell people to kiss my lily-white irish ass. Why? Because the AmerIndian is kicking in and I’m reddish-tan. And because I tan in my backyard, I only have one tan line, and only 5 people are privy enough to get to see it. So, 😛 No asking.

In other news, the gym didn’t help me feel any more productive, or get me into any mood to be productive. Instead, I’ll be bruised tomorrow from the hot tub. I’m making tea, maybe that will help me feel better, but I very much do not wish to go to work tonight.

I’m still not straight on what is all going through my head right now. On some level, it’s nothing out of the ordinary, but on others it’s so hard to pin-point what all’s going on that it makes me really uncomfortable. It’s not a strange in a “cool way” as some of you who responded intimated, it’s a strange in a “creepy way”, which even for me is not good. Nor is it a normal thought that makes me stop and go “that’s not natural for me”. I’ve got a pretty spot-on keen sense, and when something is wonky, I know it, and I’m usually right. I’ve been talking with a few friends, magical and otherwise, but I still haven’t managed to put a finger on things. I’ve gone through the potentials of what, in my psyche, could be triggering this, and it doesn’t seem to be anything of my own making. Honestly, it’s more along the lines of potential of something to come, that is outside of me, maybe? I guess I could do some journeying to see if I can scratch the surface, to get a blink, least so I know where I’m being hit from vs being blind-sided and constantly turning in a paranoid circle wondering where the next hit will come from.

I’ve been doing a good bit of out-of-body work, lately, and I know it’s not the fuzzy feeling that I’m over-stepping my responsibilities, because I get slapped good for crap like that, not stroked with rabbit-fur gloves.

Just oddness, poisongirl, does any of this sound familiar? Just making sure we’re not knocking the same thing.

My park bench is finally done and installed in a lovely place. Spent the majority of yesterday gardening and doing yardwork, if anyone can believe that. Slowly clearing out the dead ivy from the back of the yard where the teahouse will be, took a flame-thrower to the weeds that were overrunning the moss on our patio. Nothing like a good flame-thrower to assist in the need for absolute destruction. Too bad I ran out of propane.

Got a response to an email I never expected a response from, more to come in the future, which was lovely. There’ll be a follow-up in the future, sometimes the unexpected is a wonderful, and sobering, surprise.

Anyway, as a side-note, ugai breathing sounds like a continuous wave hitting the beach in your head. Pretty nifty.

I’ve been digging around all my pictures, in trying to revamp my personal pictures files. It’s interesting to go through them, memories of things that make me happy, family times that didn’t involve arguments, and people who made my life tolerable – least for a while. I’m missing pictures, ones I went looking for and couldn’t find, though I’m sure they’re in a box somewhere in this house. Just have to keep digging.

It should be interesting to let some of these images out, I have pictures from when I was 2, people I’ve loved, places that gave me peace. Some memories won’t be there, as I can’t find pictures of them, even though I want to post them. Maybe they are around here somewhere, but it’ll be a few weeks, as I have to scan most of these pictures in, but those who are interested, I will let you know when they are up.

I’ve got stuff I need to do by Monday, said I’d do it today. Can’t bring myself to manage it. Guess I’ll work on it tomorrow or late, when I might feel more productive.

Scorpio for this week:

The World Cow Chip Throwing Contest will be held this week in Beaver, Oklahoma. If you’ve got the time and inclination, I suggest you attend. It would be especially fortuitous if you not only watched the festivities, but also got a chance to compete. One way or another, Scorpio, you’re going to have urges to sling dung–either the metaphorical or actual variety–and it would be far better to do it in a setting where such activity is sanctioned. That way, no reputations will be tweaked and no one will get hurt. If you can’t make it to Beaver, Oklahoma, you should maybe arrange your own Cow Chip Throwing Contest in the nearest pasture. If you’re an urban dweller, it would be worth driving out to the sticks.

FreeWill Astrology

I think he smoked too much this last week. Unless he means it’s just time for me to get back to the rural areas I came from. But that’s something totally different from throwing shit. Seriously, I don’t recall looking like a monkey.

Scorpio for this week:

The World Cow Chip Throwing Contest will be held this week in Beaver, Oklahoma. If you’ve got the time and inclination, I suggest you attend. It would be especially fortuitous if you not only watched the festivities, but also got a chance to compete. One way or another, Scorpio, you’re going to have urges to sling dung–either the metaphorical or actual variety–and it would be far better to do it in a setting where such activity is sanctioned. That way, no reputations will be tweaked and no one will get hurt. If you can’t make it to Beaver, Oklahoma, you should maybe arrange your own Cow Chip Throwing Contest in the nearest pasture. If you’re an urban dweller, it would be worth driving out to the sticks.

FreeWill Astrology

I think he smoked too much this last week. Unless he means it’s just time for me to get back to the rural areas I came from. But that’s something totally different from throwing shit. Seriously, I don’t recall looking like a monkey.

What kind of dumbass am I? I reduce my leg rep weight by 100lbs, but change up the rep type to include single leg squats, so I can support my knees properly, and I end up with my gluts killing me! Oh well, least I’ll have a nice ass when this is done, hopefully my knees will be fully rehabilitated too, and the arthritis will be reduced.