I know I haven’t updated much, since I was off invading the northlands. I’m still working on fleshing out 3 days on my blog and I’ll post a copy here for those of you who hate myspace.

However, there is one thing that I have definitely noticed a change in. For one, I’ve stopped listening to music in the car, whether it be on my iPod or on a CD. I’ve been reserving that for hometime. Instead, I’ve been listening to the hum of my car engine, or rolling down the windows when it’s cool enough to just listen to things outside. Yesterday, I wanted to go for a walk over my extended lunch break, but it was raining, so I worked on my blog instead. Today I didn’t really have time for a walk, so instead I opened up my car and sat in the back drinking my tea and eating my lunch. I’ve honestly enjoyed the fact that I had little to no access to technology, and I’ve realized how much I waste going to the same sites over and over, when I could be outside either walking, or just enjoying the environment. I’ve also noticed I get antsy in the morning, while I’m waiting to head in to work. So I think I’m going to start taking a morning walk before I leave, while my sheets are washing or drying.

I need to recreate the lifestyle I had while over there. Seriously, I have never felt so relaxed in my life, even my shoulders ceased being solid rocks for 3 weeks. And over this next week, or weekend, I’m going to be going through my stuff and trying minimize the clutter. Hopefully with the help of my Scotsman. But, this week and next week are going to be fairly hectic, along with the fact that I start training for my world tournament this next week too. Fun times!

Scorpio for this week:

I asked my readers to make a prediction about what age they’ll be when they finally know exactly who they are. “I hope I NEVER completely know who I am!” wrote Bridjet. “I love discovering new things about myself, and to change as everything else around me changes. It is one of the most beautifully thrilling things about life.” If you share that perspective, Scorpio, the coming days should be pretty fun. You’re likely to become dramatically more mysterious to yourself. You’ll be evolving, even mutating, in ways that may amaze you, and you’ll be coming face to face with hidden aspects of yourself. Let the confounding, enriching expansion begin!

FreeWill Astrology

Well, I do share that perspective. In fact, of late it’s been a goal of mine to discover all the nooks and crannies in that dark stairwell that spirals down. And the best part, I’m so relaxed and clear that I will have no problems in discovering more. 😀

In case anyone is wondering, I haven’t had internet for a couple of days, outside of my visits to my friend Claus’ place. However, I’m happily sitting in the Sentrum Pensjon in Oslo, Norway right now with another half-hour or so of internet. Not sure if I’ll get more pictures from Finland uploaded, but I will try to at least fill out the blog. I’m running a bit behind due to lack of writing. 😀

Scorpio for this week:

Before I suggest to you what your next assignment should be, read this passage from poet Adrienne Rich. “Whatever is unnamed, undepicted in images, whatever is omitted from biography, censored in collections of letters, whatever is misnamed as something else, made difficult-to-come-by, whatever is buried in the memory by the collapse of meaning under an inadequate or lying language — this will become not merely unspoken, but unspeakable.” What I hope you will do in the coming week, Scorpio, is rescue from obscurity any important thing that is on the verge of becoming unspeakable. Be a retriever of that-which-is-about-to-disappear. Be a rememberer of that-which-is-close-to-being forgotten.

FreeWill Astrology

Good advice. Will elaborate more when I have more internet time.

Since I’ve obviously been a bit absent from the online realms….

Scorpio for this week:
Welcome to Part Two of your outlook for the second half of 2007. We’re checking up on how you’re progressing with the long-term tasks you were assigned six months ago. I trust that by now you’re supremely composed as the changes whirl around you and within you. I mean, you will always be the zodiac’s master of transformation; you’ll always thrive on going through ceaseless, deep-seated shifts that would terrify most of the other signs. But if you’re taking advantage of this year’s cosmic opportunities, Scorpio, your eruptions of abracadabra! are being buffered by a profound grace. Your experiments in turning lead into gold and garbage into treasure are proceeding with a generous-spirited poise. Now you’re ready to take it to the next level of relaxed elegance.

FreeWill Astrology

Ya know, I can honestly say, at this point I am happy. I mean really happy. I’m at the point where I’m ready to start simplifying things around me a little more when I get back and working even more on the stuff I’ve neglected (like my CR magic studies). For being as messed up as it is here (the sun doesn’t go down till around midnight, and it rises before 4AM), it’s oddly tranquil. Though, I guess when you’re as messed up as I am, that works. 😀 Anyway, Drew and I are having a blast, and the addition of Aki to the room has been even better. I’m glad I have the two of them with me right now. And yes, I got pictures yesterday, and video (but not of the bands, as I snuck the camera in and didn’t want kill my karma).

Things with traveling…

I had a dream come true…me, on a plane with a sea of army and marines, and a few air force guys thrown in. But they were all in the cabin division that wasn’t mine, how cruel is that?

With that said, don’t watch two sad movies consecutively, especially one that is Bridge to Teribithia (and yes, it was good, and yes, it kept to the book quite well). I still need to do the write up for that one. One of these days….

At any rate, I’m in Amsterdam now, waiting to find out what gate I’m flying out of. At which point, I find it and go to sleep. It’s 7AM here. Least the flight was uneventful.

EDIT: And I got the opportunity to be a fangirl. As I was sitting at the computer station, I see a guy walk by with an American Top Team bag, who looked oddly familiar. Then I see the Svenge sweatshirt and go, “Oh shit!” While jumping up from my space and tearing down the terminal. I catch up with him, tap him on the shoulder gently and say, “Hi, Mr [Jeff] Monson, I’m [Saille] and I train at GB Atlanta.” Now how cheesy is that? But I got a good conversation out of him. And true to form, I have neither pictures or autographs to confirm this. Go me!

Scorpio for this week:

Now that we’re almost halfway through 2007, it’s time to assess how well you’re capitalizing on this year’s unique opportunities. So let me ask you a few questions. Have you been working hard to increase your value? I don’t just mean economically, although it’s true that this is the best time in over a decade for you to make more money and launch long-term plans for financial growth. But I hope that you’re also adding to your worth in every way you can imagine, like by getting the training and new skills that will make you irresistible to future employers, lovers, and collaborators; and by purifying your motivations and clarifying your ethics and bolstering your integrity.

FreeWill Astrology

Well, definitely working on the purification part. I’ll have to evaluate this.

So, the goal today is to wash away the worries from the last couple of weeks, work more on my Danish and get to the bank sometime today. I’m also hoping to go by the Apothecary. My stress has seriously returned for a multitude of reasons. For one section of it, I’m half tempted to talk to the source of it and half tempted to just tell that source to fuck themselves and be done with it. The other half I’m slowly meditating away and working towards just accepting of whatever may come.

I also need to find another hotel in Denmark, it’s the last thing I need to do before packing for my trip.

I also know that I have been really cryptic of late due to various requests to keep secrets. That is the main source of my stress. I know that, and it’s not that so-and-so wants me to keep secrets about themselves, so much as it involves keeping a secret about myself. Over the weekend I’m going to burn it all and be done with it. I cannot keep secrets in that manner, it’s too much of a burden with all the game-playing that ends up involved, and all the heartache it causes me to hear two different things said at any given point in time.

With that said, tonight I grab the last of my things from the Casa do GB. I will not be staying there anymore, regardless how much I have to spend on gas and roadtime to train. It is not healthy for me.