Freakchylde's

I’m soooooooo tired and I’m dragging horribly. I have a full day today, and I’m finding the late nights and early mornings, coupled with long drives to train are starting to wear on me. I have a sleeping space at the Casa de GBA, but unless I’m expecting to stay there, I have the trek back to the house before work, which means early morning drive again. I’m hoping that things will settle into a pattern, or that I can find one to work with, soon. Either that, or once the 2 months are up, things move closer to town. Oh, would that be nice.

I think one of the other things that’s bothering me, is the fact that my teammates are a wee bit deprived at the moment, and me being the token female that’s always around them, I end up on the receiving end of attention. While it’s nice, being the attention whore that I am, it’s starting to wear on me. I want to be taken seriously in the gym, and I think I preferred it when I was just one of the guys. Having seen me at the fights last night, one of my teammates commented that he was going to come up and grab my ass, then realized who it was and did a double take. Nice compliment, but there ended the realization that I was female. On top of that, a few things I’m trying to keep quiet about for now, that I want to come out and declare, but can’t. It has to be hidden away, for now, and I don’t like hiding things.

On the upside, I’m fairly happy. Contrary to how I feel, it’s just the weight of a few things bearing down on me to the point I need to take a day and just sleep. But I won’t be able to do that till next week, as tomorrow starts another busy week. Maybe I’ll step back on training next week, and just show up to watch vs show up to train.