What does one do, when all dreams have been ful-filled? Yeah, I’m 28-years-old, and pretty much every dream/goal of mine, that I’ve written in past journals has been ful-filled to my satisfaction. I’m stuck, and at a loss for what I want to do, besides helping and supporting others with their dreams. To an extent, I kinda feel a bit empty inside, struggling to come up with a reason to keep going. I think that’s probably the basis for what has been going on inside of me, of late. I had a push, with the new job, but that seems to slowly be crumbling away, due to lack of planning by my boss. I’ve found that I absolutely adore working with my clients, and I think they’re all great. I’m going to miss them if my boss decides to just quit, though I could probably pick some of them up as private clients.

To an extent, I feel pushed to the side, as well. Not through the fault of anyone else, but I’ve isolated myself again. There are a few people I’ve managed to continue talking with, but for the most part, I don’t really have much to say to anyone else. Chit-chat is pretty much a no-go, because I’ve been in such deep thought that I can’t comprehend the simplicities of idle conversation. Either that, or my non-committal, laid-back nature of late has prevented me from having heated discussions. Italy was too good to me, it left me too relaxed, though, at this point I would say I no longer care….numb, maybe. Just watching my life pass before me and watching everyone’s life exist outside of my own. Maybe I’m just not up to participating anymore.

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  1. dreams?

    “What does one do, when all dreams have been ful-filled? Yeah, I’m 28-years-old, and pretty much every dream/goal of mine, that I’ve written in past journals has been ful-filled to my satisfaction. I’m stuck”

    dearie, im living proof that you are never “stuck”, and there is always something else new to become involved with.

    you are 28 now, and in 20 years you are very likely to be sitting in some as yet unforseen reality, scratching your head and saying “how the hell did i get here?”. trust me on this one.

    in the meantime…. “To an extent, I kinda feel a bit empty inside, struggling to come up with a reason to keep going. I think that’s probably the basis for what has been going on inside of me, of late. I had a push, with the new job, but that seems to slowly be crumbling away, due to lack of planning by my boss”…..you may be at a cusp moment, when a new reality is just around the corner. sometimes, situations that we think are longterm, are just stepping stones to the next stage.

    all the world is a stage, don’t ya know? ;D

    (having a really profound moment here)

    whew, glad that’s over with!

    keep on truckin baby.

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  2. Well… we still have that line of oils and incense to consider.

    Plus, I just wanna do more image work with you.

    I totally understand what you mean about Italy– when I came back from my travels through Italy, I was so totally centered that I was fine with just letting life flow around me for a while.

    You and I need to get together and do some creative brainstorming, this is the perfect time.

    –J

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  3. I know how you feel to an extent love. I think that this could be part of the old self dying off and shedding away and the new self coming to life. In that respect I am right there with you. Hang in there darlin I am givin you good vibes. 🙂

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  4. isn’t it called a break in the action? 😉
    nurture yourself…life has something good in store for you…listen…
    happy 13th!
    ghostie alix

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