luxpagani teases me, because I’m constantly thinking I did something to run someone away from me. I don’t know why I think that, but it has become an inner tug-o-war for me, sometimes. Nothing to put much value in, especially when I know my friends are off elsewhere and not connected to me in any other way besides energy. I guess it’s because I haven’t found that balance point where enough is just enough, but not too much. montieth and I have discussed this, from time to time, because I have a habit of either coming off as completely apathetic or completely drowning myself in someting. That becomes a problem when it involves other human beings. I start giving off these vibes, because new people make me feel like a kid in a candy store. I want to know everything about them, what makes them tick and what makes them go tock. Which is funny, given my level of patience to spread things out over days, weeks and years. Maybe, I jump in because I want to learn something from them before they run away, it’s a possibility. Or maybe I just want to drown in their existence. Of course, I could just be a nasty virus that attaches like a leech and doesn’t let go until you burn me off. But that’s a whole different self-analysis.
In the meantime, I believe it’s time to start revisiting my neuromuscular questions. I’ll probably post some of those this afternoon.