This is a good one…

Scorpio for this week:

In 1971, astronaut Edgar Mitchell was the sixth person to walk on the moon. Since then he has cultivated an interest in the paranormal. At one point he asked Buddhist lama Norbu Chen to attempt a psychic healing of his mother, who was legally blind. Norbu’s magic worked. Mom’s sight returned, and she was ecstatic. A few days later, however, she made a discovery that horrified her: Norbu wasn’t a Christian like her. “My mother believed that if such healing didn’t come from a Christian,” says Mitchell, “then it must come from Satan, and she didn’t want to be healed by Satan.” She then had a dramatic relapse, completely losing the gift Norbu had bestowed. The moral of the story, Scorpio: Don’t let your beliefs get in the way of your healing.

FreeWill Astrology

I think it’s perfect, especially given that I’ve been starting to work on another layer of my relationship issues. See, for the most part, I’ve taken time off of dating, getting close to a year and my relationship with my Scotsman has deepened immenesly and I’ve enjoyed every second of what I’ve discovered of myself in the process. We don’t have any arguments, I can focus on myself and he can focus on his self. The down-side, is that I’ve gotten so involved with my monogamous relationship with myself, that I’m finding it difficult to have a relationship with anyone outside of myself. I know I wanted to experiment and see if I was capable of having a monogamous type of relationship and I now know that I can, but am I capable of returning to my previous level of polyamoury, due to the monogamous nature of my current relationship? I’m finding the concept to be a difficult one to parse in my head. I know I’m poly by nature, but at what point do I deem it possible to allow for another person to enter my current relationship? How will that change the current things I’m working on within myself? And will it allow for further growth of myself?

Scorpio for this week:

“I’ve found a nice balance,” writes Ash-land, one of my MySpace friends, “between living like someone who has overdosed on positive affirmations and someone who thinks everything and everyone sucks.” Are you interested in achieving a similar poise, Scorpio? Conditions are favorable for you to do so. The omens say you’re primed to cultivate true objectivity, not the fake cynical kind. And that means you could free yourself from negative emotional biases that cloud your ability to see the partially hidden beauty all around you.

FreeWill Astrology

Hrm, ditching the cynicism for the real stuff. Sounds good! But I will admit the need to ditch the negativity of late. Especially in regards to work (which, I’ll flesh out later on a different post).

In other news, I’m sore, tired and just want to sleep. One more day of training and I’ll have made it through my 1st week of five training days. Oof. Also got some other stuff going on, on that side of things, but this will just have to make me a tease, because I can’t discuss any of it yet. 😀

Scorpio for this week:

Not to be confused with Alzheimer’s, “Alt.heimer’s” is a term that the Slang Dictionary defines as “a condition afflicting chronic hipsters who can no longer recall if they like something genuinely or ironically. Example: ‘As Ron stared at the hideous leather pants and retro Star Wars sheets he’d just purchased, he realized his Alt.heimer’s was advancing with terrifying speed.'” I bring this up, Scorpio, because you urgently need to determine whether you’re infected with Alt.heimer’s. APRIL FOOL! You don’t have Alt.heimer’s. But it is crucial that you take inventory of what things you genuinely like and what things you merely like ironically.

FreeWill Astrology

Ok, that’s way too over the geek line for me. They actually came up with an alt. definition for this? WTF? Of course, the above is exactly why I tend to not impulse buy. I waste my money on things I actually like and want/need. Passing fads only get bought if they’re under $10, or free. Speaking of passing fads….thegreyman, I need my RSBs CD back, in trade for your pillow. 🙂

Otherwise, this also brings to mind horrid images of someone actually trapped in that time warp. *shudders* I did not need that, but now the rest of you can suffer with me!

In other news, I’m heading back to LA right now, I will post the travel blog here for you anti-myspacers (not that it’s up there either), in one entry. No video so far, but that’s because I’m too lazy to go buy video tapes right now. I will have them for this weekend though.

Scorpio for this week:

The secret you’re looking for, the secret you think you desperately need, does not exist–at least not officially. Unofficially, however, it’s very real. It’s alive and hot and exciting. But it’s in the care of people you don’t notice or value. It’s something you’d normally regard as cheap and insignificant. So let me ask you, Scorpio: Can you change the way you use your eyes? Will you drop the opinions that get in the way of you seeing the truth? The secret you’re in quest of, the resource that might solve so many problems, will be easy to pluck if you’ll just change your mind about matters that you imagine have nothing to do with the secret.

FreeWill Astrology

Hrm…..maybe California will hold even more for me this time around. 🙂 Deserves more pondering.

Scorpio for this week:


Before the gurus Bhagwan Rajneesh and Chögyam Trungpa came along to amuse us with their confounding insights, a prime dispenser of crazy wisdom was British writer Oscar Wilde. Since this happens to be Oscar Wilde Week for you Scorpios, I urge you to get a sense of how his paradoxical brilliance worked so as to put yourself in a similar frame of mind. Study the following Wilde-isms. (1) “I can believe anything provided it is incredible.” (2) “Consistency is the last refuge of the unimaginative.” (3) “If you want to tell people the truth, make them laugh, otherwise they’ll kill you.” (4) “Ambition is the germ from which all growth of nobleness proceeds.” (5) “Moderation is a fatal thing. Nothing succeeds like excess.” (6) “Nothing can cure the soul but the senses, just as nothing can cure the senses but the soul.” (7) “Life is far too important a thing ever to talk seriously about.” (8) “Everything popular is wrong.” (9) “It is absurd to divide people into good and bad. People are either charming or tedious.” (10) “Disobedience, in the eyes of anyone who has read history, is humanity’s original virtue. It is through disobedience and rebellion that progress has been made.” (11) “Do you really think it is weakness that yields to temptation? I tell you that there are terrible temptations which it requires strength, strength and courage to yield to.” (12) “Selfishness is not living as one wishes to live, it is asking others to live as one wishes to live.” (13) “Always forgive your enemies; nothing annoys them so much.” (14) “I have the simplest tastes. I am always satisfied with the best.”

FreeWill Astrology

Welcome to the means, through which, I live. Pretty good summation. With that said, my assignment from my Kundalini class was to spend the next 40 days living in truth and speaking nothing but the truth from the heart. It’s something I plan on fulfilling, so we’ll see how it goes. If I get some time tonight, I’ll be expanding on all of this.

Being on the fast and the current fight diet, I’m realizing some interesting things about my eating habits. That’s another thing I wish to post about, I’ve never really realized how much I’ve fucked up my eating habits by working the jobs I’ve worked, as well as having had the negative relationships that I have had in the past. The combination of those has developed some really, really bad habits that I wasn’t previously aware of, outside of my ET noticing and commenting that I looked like I wasn’t enjoying my food while eating it (which wasn’t true, but did speak truth to how I ate).

Scorpio for this week:

I foresee a time when women’s earnings will match men’s and when women will compose half of every governmental body instead of a measly ten percent. I predict an awakening that will help men understand that the global conspiracy to cripple and demean female power damages them as much as it does women. Until the coming of that happy day, I recommend that you celebrate International Women’s Day every day–and especially during the next three weeks. Your health, wealth, sex appeal, and wisdom will flourish in direct proportion to your efforts to give female intelligence more room to be expressed.

FreeWill Astrology

Ummmmmm. OK. Now, I just don’t get this one. I’m not a feminist in the sense that I have to celebrate the fact that I’m an innie and not an outie. I’m human, just happen to be of the female persuasion. In fact, I never understood these whole celebration things. Where’s the International Men’s Day? I don’t really think there’s any conspiracy (outside of a few religions and societies) to quash the female intelligence or whatnot. In fact, I’d like to see some group manage it, as the only way to actually do that would be to kill off all the women in said group. I think the problem in regards to women being in governmental bodies, is the fact that they spend too much time on the “mothering” side, and not so much time as the “lioness protecting her cubs” side. There seems to be an absolute vacuum in that regards, in relation to women in politics. The only one I see actually standing up to the process is Hilary, but she’s got too many rotten apples in the orchard to do anything with her fruit. Up there, they want to help and coddle, they aren’t willing to stand up and be the Bitch and get the things done that need to be done. And I don’t think there are enough of those who will, to go around. Hell, want to see a microcosm of it? Show up to my fight training on any given day, the instructors will go after the women to see if the lion will come out. If she doesn’t, she goes back to the fitness classes, if she does, she gets put on the team track. As my Professore likes to say, “In training, I want to see bunnies running around. But the minute you step out to represent your team in competition, that bunny better be a lion.”

Scorpio for this week:

As I contemplate the growing wonder of your animal magnetism, my urge to spout poetry is uncontrollable. You’re like a dancing heron or a singing tiger or a snake spelling out words by assuming different letter-shaped poses. You’re a crazy-mirrored funhouse full of tool-using ravens. You’re a convention of laughing hyenas partying at a watering hole on the other side of the tracks from paradise. In short, you’re as impossible to predict as a drunk hummingbird, as dangerously smart as a shape-shifting fox from Japanese mythology.

FreeWill Astrology

Hrm, I guess that would be the first time I’ve managed to make someone sprout poetry, by my shear existence. But I do like being a bit unpredictable. Maybe that will be a positive thing for the upcoming tournament. Though, I really like the Raven, heron and fox references. I’ll have to contemplate them more, in the frame of things.

Scorpio for this week:

In the coming weeks, you’ll attract cosmic assistance whenever you add to your repertoire, branch out artistically or socially, or start gathering seed money for a project that may take years to ripen. Mythically speaking, the coming weeks will also be a good time to have intimate relations with a fertility god or goddess, and to plant magic beans that will grow into a beanstalk that reaches the sky. “Is that it?” you may be asking. “Nothing but good news?!” My only caveat, which is pretty minor, is that you might add a few pounds to your frame. If you’re a hetero woman, that could be caused by a pregnancy unless you’re careful.

FreeWill Astrology

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!! Weighed in at 128 today, up from 123 (yeah, whole lot, but when you’re trying to maintain weight so you weigh-in at 129 or under, with a 5lb gi on, it’s a lot). Though, we are coming upon the beginning of the light half of the year (which, should have started to sprout last month, but seems to be delayed a bit), so I guess it’s time to start talking to Brigidh again, as well as my usual conversation companion, or maybe spend some time with Lugh this year. At any rate, I’m not seeing a pregnancy, as that would require me to be something other than celibate, and the fact that I’d do enough damage before I even found out I was pregnant. At any rate, tomorrow is the gym for cardio, as is Friday. Going to stop by the Apothocary to see about stuff to assist me in maintaining weight and eventually stuff to help build muscle for when I start lifting weights again. I’m still sore from Kundalini, but I don’t think yesterday’s training session helped that any. Lots of jump/sprawls will make for very sore shoulders.

At any rate, I do feel an awakening coming. I’m definitely on the right path with my Kundalini work and meditation sessions.