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Scorpio (October 23-November 21)

Happy Valentine Daze, Scorpio! After meditating on what advice would best serve your love life, I decided to offer you the words of psychologist Carl Jung: “The creation of something new is not accomplished by the intellect but by the play instinct acting from inner necessity. The creative mind plays with the objects it loves.” As I see it, my dear, acting on Jung’s wisdom will help you carry out your primary task in the coming months, which is to bring novel experiences and fresh perspectives to your most engaging relationship. The best way to accomplish that is not with non-stop serious talk and intense analysis, but with a generous dose of playful improvisation and experimental fun.

FreeWill Astrology

Sounds pretty much how I see it. There’s a time for serious discussions, but I’ve always been more of a fan of letting things uncover themselves as I go along. I find it’s more fun and keeps things more engaging.

As for the ‘update of the week’, not much going on. Need to call my lawyer and inspection team this afternoon to set up appointments and find out fees and whatnot. Not stressing over that anymore because I just made a priority list and left it at that. Mentally, I’m doing pretty good, thanks to a good conversation yesterday, my nightmares should be gone, least, I haven’t had a negative thought in that direction since then. Spent all yesterday in my PJs with season one of Fraggle Rock. Seeing that made me wonder why the hell no one has broken it out for the ‘modern kid’. I think that stuff is much better than some of the bs they have on TV these days for kids.

I’m disappointed with NBC, they’ve blocked access of their Olympics coverage for basic internet users, unless you want to watch the ‘highlight’ propaganda. Otherwise, you have to have IPTV or a cable subscription. Sad, as this is something I’d pay for, but they don’t offer that option.

Headspace? Doing pretty good, gearing up for vacation, trying to take it easy and work on the contract ideas I have in my head to get the business rolling.

Scorpio (October 23 – November 21)


Last week was the anniversary of my very first weekly horoscope column, which appeared years ago in the Good Times, a newspaper in Santa Cruz, California. My initial effort was crude and a bit reckless compared to what I eventually learned to create. And yet it was imbued with a primal fervor and heartfelt adventurousness that had a certain charm, and many people seemed to find it useful. Today I bow down to that early effort, honoring it for the seed it sprouted and thanking it for the blessings it led to. I encourage you to do something similar to what I just described, Scorpio: Pay homage to the origins that made it possible for you to be who you have become.

FreeWill Astrology

Hrm….keeps with the season of things! More to think upon for later. 😀

Yay! Turned in my tax stuffs today. All I have to do is fax over my remainder 1099s and pay my last quarter of taxes, and I’m done.

Faxed over all the contract and paperwork to my agent for the condo, offer is heading over. I can pay myself tomorrow and pay the first of the month bills.

New contract looks promising, yesterday I did nothing but free 5-10 minute sessions and talked with patients. I stayed busy and had several people looking to book appointments for next week.

Need to dig through my computer box and see if I can find my photoshop and quicken for windoz, for the office computer.

All-in-all everything is good. Last year ended up a prosperous year for me, even though I ended up with a final tally not much higher than the previous years, but it was higher. This year, need to increase that.

I am positive!!!!! Oh yeah, and I managed to sneak around the fear that is laundry at the doc’s office, got mine done and started on the office laundry. We’ll see how that progresses further into the week.

Scorpio (October 23-November 21):

Comedian Chris Rock has a joke that plays on the stereotypes about your sign: “Most Scorpios die while they’re making love!” (Only he uses the f-word instead of “making love.”) I understand the source of his satire. There are more than a few grains of truth in the notion that Scorpios revel in the enigmas of eros and death. On the other hand, I wouldn’t reduce your mystique to such a simple formula. I’d prefer to say something like this: You’re sexy when you’re letting go of your staunch self-control. Or: You’re an expert at transcending humdrum modes of awareness by stimulating intense pleasure. Or: If fully harnessed, your orgasmic power could kill off any destructive compulsions you might be harboring. And by the way, 2010 will be one of the best years ever for you to cash in on these capacities.

FreeWill Astrology

Interesting. I’ll ponder it more while driving tomorrow.

My review of Avatar:

Nit-picky stuff – Fuck you assholes in the upper balcony for not moving and opening up two seats. Front row with CGI is migraine inducing, I was tempted to walk up there to puke. I also wasn’t thrilled with the fact that I missed at least 30 minutes of the movie, visually, because I had to rest my eyes to keep from puking.

The rest of it – I will not jump on the FernGully meets Dances with Wolves crowd. Neither of those movies comes even close to the various interpretations you can walk away with, from this movie. FernGully was all about saving the rainforests and the eco-systems. That was truly a hippy movie about the evils of Western civilization, with the humour of Robin Williams to indoctrinate the kids. Dances with Wolves…well, it was Kevin Costner, that’s about all I can say to it, outside of the concept that the White Man does not have all the answers, and trying to force something down the throats of people who have a system that works perfectly well, is not the brightest idea (this would be why Brazil has various laws protecting the indigenous tribes of the Amazon, they get it).

Instead, I’m going to say that James Cameron finally figured out how to refine his story and get it right. It’s about stepping outside of one’s perspectives, to view things with a new set of eyes – or “an empty cup”. It’s about understanding that one tradition works in a certain place and a certain time, and forcing yours upon someone else, without their consent is not a real means to an end. That said, you bring in the warrior aspect and the concept of fighting and hunting as needed – this includes in order to get what you want, when all other means of seeking that end have been exhausted. Call it a thesis on Teddy Roosevelt’s concept of conservation, as it touches mostly upon taking what’s needed, as its needed and not extending yourself into the realm of a useless surplus – a lesson I’ve found us ‘Westerners’ could seriously use.

From the perspective of the Na’vi, it’s the encroachment upon their way of life, which developed and evolved from their natural habitat. Finding a means to live within their surroundings with minimal issue and “drama” by working within the environment and not working against it, as a means to control it vs being controlled by. A little give/take/sacrifice in order to get what is needed, and this is not a hippy/pagan concept – an idea that Grace’s character was trying to elaborate, at one point. It’s a concept that exists in all theological teachings, except maybe the gluttonous “me” theology, where it’s take what you want, when you want it at all costs.

To go deeper, consider it the internal individual’s struggle between materialistic desires, and spiritual needs, and how to balance the two of them.

So consider those my half-baked thoughts right now, as there are too many layers to really write about all of them (could easily make the fodder given into a thesis paper). Emotive thoughts, I cried. Not because of the overwhelming migraine that’s going to hit tonight because of the aforementioned assholes, but because of the full story-line. It touched upon everything that I believe in, including the “man plans, the gods laugh” concept. The concept of the warrior/mercenary and the various definitions of both. Definitely going to see it again, so I can see what I missed. Will probably snag it on DVD, as well as the soundtrack. For those who have ever been curious as to my personal spiritual beliefs, they’re now on screen for ya.

Not sure if I’ll bother with a year summation, since I’ve been doing a lot of that lately. 🙂 Spare the details….AGAIN! But I do have to say, it’s been nice to go out to social events, lately, and find out I’ve been missed, as much as I’ve been missing everyone else. I was hesitant on the thought that I would be the one who needed to walk away, as splits always end up a bit on the awkward side (so my apologies if I come off as snippy at times to some questions).

That said…I have the Pastry here, snuggles, crepes and coffee in the AM, being lazy with movies and music when I’m not working. Going for walks, dinner with friends, has been wonderful. If tomorrow’s sun holds, we’ll be going to the Botanical Gardens to look around. This weekend we head to Florida to hang out with my parents (we’ll be in the Palm Beach area and have Sunday open for hanging out with friends). Next week is the da Vinci exhibit and the NYE party. It’s been awesome, I don’t feel like my life is being intruded upon or I’m being pushed in one direction or the other (outside of running late here and there). Things just flow and mesh quite well, I honestly don’t think I could be any happier as I am in this moment.

One word to describe the end of this year – Parfait. :)~

Scorpio (October 23-November 21)

“It Don’t Mean a Thing (If It Ain’t Got That Swing)” is a jazz tune composed in 1931 by Duke Ellington and Irving Mills. In accordance with your long-term astrological omens, I propose that we make that song title your motto in 2010 — the standard you’ll keep referring to as you evaluate which experiences you want to pursue and which you don’t. Please proceed on the assumption that you should share your life energy primarily with people and situations that make your soul sing and tingle and swing.

FreeWill Astrology

Yeah, I’m late, happens when you have distractions. *eg* That said, I think I’m going to agree with my boy Rob, here. I’m finding that the directions I need to go in, and the universe seems to be pushing me towards, are ones that make me dance. They seem to be the directions that make the most sense to me, and seem to be the ones that end up most profitable. Glad I ditched the baggage and can see the signs as they come. Now, if only I could hit the point where I can start sharing the wealth with those, who also deserve it.

So Monday, I had trigger point therapy done on my neck – something has to give. Honestly, it’s been a while since I have been in this much physical pain. I’m currently nauseated, my neck is absolutely killing me, my head has followed up with a mild fever – I think – and I get dizzy if I stand up and sit down too fast. Fun, Fun Fun. I’m drinking tons of water, trying to flush out what all my muscles released, but HOLY FUCK!!!!!! I want to puke soooooooooo bad. I really need a couple of days off so I can just sit in a bath (might see if the hot tub is functional tomorrow), drink water and sleep. But at least my neck muscles are functional. Unfortunately, it makes work next to impossible.

Today was one of my ‘odd’ days off. It was nice. I slept in, for Marmot DayTM, drank coffee and listened to jazz, following that up with lovely conversation, then some DSO with pasta and more conversation. Ending with tea and cheese and DFW to keep me company. Reading his stuff makes me miss him all the more. I’m finishing up A supposedly fun thing I’ll never do again. I’m not sure what hits me most, the reminder of our conversations before, during and after class, or the fact I can hear his voice as I read the words, more as if he’s weaving a tale for me than me envisioning the words in my head. I miss him. He really was an amazing person, and I’m damned glad I was able to have him in my life. Anyone who is a fan of people watching would adore his essays and short stories….Infinite Jest, not so much (still working through that one too. I can read Durant’s works faster than that thing, but now I know where the Pulp Fiction assignment came from).

Now, it’s bedtime. iTunes is cycling my library, finding which tracks are now missing, as I reorganized things. I don’t like v9, I can’t listen and import at the same time, and for some reason it put Flogging Molly’s Long way home in the compilation folder. Weird. At least all of Depeche Mode is in one place, I think.