Author: Saille

Who am I? On the surface I'm a nature-loving dirt worshipping hippy in search of a good adrenaline rush. That's all I have for now.

Scorpio for this week:

As you enter the Season of Unleashed Desire, here are a few guidelines to help you navigate your way through the interesting complexities ahead. (1) Consider the possibility that you have a lot to learn about what you really want. (2) Find out whether your chronic anger is obstructing the full bloom of a potentially beautiful desire. (3) Be careful about desiring experiences you don’t understand. (4) Meditate on the likelihood that some of your desires are superior to others, and that maybe you should cultivate those superior desires with more determination that you do the mediocre ones.

FreeWill Astrology

1) Yeah, some of this has been in my head today, with a few words left over from Sunshine, said in Vegas.
2) I’ve also had my realization that I do want to be able to rely on someone to take care of me when needed, and the disappointment that results is the stem of my anger. It was the main reason why I decided to stop having such high expectations, and just taking things as they come.
3) Everything in due time, I guess. Not sure what experiences I don’t understand, except maybe the ones that consume me.
4) Nothing like prioritizing.

With that said, I have more pics up on UFC 59, including a few of me. 😉

So, I guess I’m a little bit more high maintenance than I thought I was. So I’m going to admit it, and accept it. What I can see, from my own observations of myself, is that I will shut down in order to provide what I need for myself. When I’m with someone, I need to feel loved, and need to be shown that I’m loved. When I don’t get that, I kinda feel left by the wayside and clam up and look elsewhere. I guess I still have that fantasy of being consumed by some fictitious fire that will never exist.

Scorpio for this week:

“Dear Dr. Brezsny: Usually I gobble up your words. They’re soul food that nourishes me for days. But last week’s ‘scope gave me indigestion. Was there a hidden meaning? Can I coax a deeper interpretation out of you? I promise I’ll give you the secret handshake and tell you the secret password. (It’s ‘swordfish.’) Would it help if I told you I once drank Red Bull from Maya Angelou’s slipper and that I’ve gathered gossip about you that thus far I’ve chosen not to reveal? Help me out. -Scorpio Who Hates Secrets Unless I’m Keeping Them.” Dear Scorpio: I think the problem is that you’ve been keeping so many secrets for so long that you’ve come to assume that every situation is crammed with secrets. The truth is, this is a highly unsecretive time for you. You should proceed as if there’s no good reason to hide anything and as if everyone is willing to reveal themselves freely.

FreeWill Astrology

Actually, I got last week’s with no confusion. 😛 Wouldn’t say there’s so much of a secret behind everything, as much as there’s always a greater story. But I’m in an absolute gigglefit about “who hate secrets unless i’m keeping them.” That’s a good description of me, outside of the fact that I’ll remain open, only as much as those around me remain open. Especially in relationships, as I’m a huge communication junkie. Of course, that other phrase comes to mind as well…”Dance as if no one sees you”. 😀 I’m gonna have a great weekend. Leave tomorrow for Cali, I’m so psyched. And at least one of the friends I made last weekend will be there. Hoping the other one will be as well.

Scorpio for this week:

Your power animal is the Hawaiian fish known as the humuhumunukunukuapuaa. It has two spines, and that’ll be a good symbol for you in the coming days: You’ll need to have a powerful backbone as you weather challenges to your integrity and authority. The humuhumunukunukuapuaa is also able to wedge itself into tight spaces to seek temporary refuge from its adversaries. That has a metaphorical resemblance to a skill I hope you’ll cultivate. Finally, the humuhumunukunukuapuaa looks like a pig and makes pig-like grunts. You’ll benefit from having a similar ability to confound people about what kind of animal you are. Having multiple identities will keep you strong.

FreeWill Astrology

Heh, this kinda goes with the fact that my training partner made me growl at practice the other day, and I met a cool new guy that talked with me over this stuff tonight at dinner…..ponderous man, really ponderous.

At any rate, I’m dead tired.

Go House Reps on Capitol Hill! Normally, I hate you all, but you finally did something right….

Repub’s push to commend cops… (and no, I don’t care if it’s being pushed by Republicans, and if Democrats were smart, they’d get behind it too).

Now, as for McKinney, ditch the race card because the last shooting in a fed building was a white guy, and you’re not white by any stretch of the imagination. These people don’t get paid to recognize you, they get paid to keep you safe. If you want to leave a lasting impression on each of them so they remember your face….try being nice to them because I’m sure they’re used to people being rude to them every day, which makes you a face in the crowd.

At any rate, I’m glad you’re not my Rep anymore because you don’t represent your constituents, who might be primarily black. But at the end of the day, we’re all people and you need to represent the people, not yourself.

With that said, I hope the Black Caucus steps away from her for this, as well.

This is gonna be an interesting ride…..Today, I start my preps for my vacation this week and the one that starts next week. My Bitch fights Thursday, but it won’t be televised…again. (fuckers). But I do get to hang with my friends that I don’t get to see much. Work-wise, the business officially changed hands yesterday. Not really going to see any changes till May, so we’ll see how things improve – or don’t.

I’m mulling over competing in May’s NAGA competition, but it really depends on whether or not I get decent mat time in Cali. I feel something ready to burst out of me, but I’m not sure what it is, yet. The goal, for Cali, is to spend time with ET and to spend time with myself and my Bitch, and the new friends I’ve made over the last month. I’m hoping to work on developing some new habits while I’m out there, as well. I’d like to see myself start my mornings with Yoga, except on kickboxing days. I’ve already started meditating while I’m at work, during my breaks, and I’ve found that’s helping me out a good bit. I’m also making new friends with my teammates, which will be nice when it comes to sharing my fighting excitement, plus it’s more people to go to fights with. It’s also nice to help them train for NAGA, I’m taking the day off so I can be there with them, regardless whether I compete or not.

As to the TiVo, well, we have an early version and it’s been overheating, corrupting files, and overloaded with stupid messages and shit. I was trying to download my fights to tape, so I could make room for other stuff. Well, my fight files were corrupted, and one that I’m trying to download in pieces has a spot that hangs the TiVo so much that it crashes. As a result, I’ve been downloading in pieces for all of them. Once the files start to show fragging, I stop and let it cool off. So far it’s worked. I have one of the files completely downloaded, and working on another one. Hopefully, I’ll have three down by this evening and cleared off the harddrive.

Scorpio this week:

Due to a special dispensation from the cosmic powers-that-be, you have been authorized to basically just sit around and do nothing this week. Are you ready to enjoy the pleasures of laziness and dissipation, Scorpio? Do you feel overdue for an extended phase of vegging out? You can do so without incurring even a pinch of karmic debt. APRIL FOOL! The truth is that you now have so much physical energy and emotional stamina that you can be three times as intense as you’ve ever been before. That’s a good thing, since the universe will be working you three times as hard as usual.

FreeWill Astrology

Heh, and as the last post said, next couple of weeks I’ll be traveling. Gonna be fun!

Yeah, I don’t post much anymore. But that’s mainly due to lack of time and repetition of subjects. I’ve pretty much let politics lie by the wayside, as the stupidity of the whole subject makes it something to just come into conscious thought and then pass into oblivion. Especially over the whole immigration issue (anyone notice they don’t fly American flags, they fly Mexican flags?) At any rate, I’m gonna get silly here…..as this country is obviously so much better, I think our immigration policy should be to invade and conquer Mexico and annex it as the 51st state. That should solve the problem. We won’t have to bump up our police force to deal with deportations, our borders wouldn’t be a problem (though the new southern border would need a clamp on it, drug-wise). And all those people would become American citizens without having to complain about the deaths in the desert because they can’t think to bring water with them. Otherwise, I’m supporting the bill that involves illegals returning to Mexico before they can come here legally. I have no respect for anyone who complains about getting here legally, who circumvents the laws of this country and makes a joke out of the people who do choose to be here legally.

But….we already knew this because I’ve ranted about it before.

In other news, next week, I head out to Vegas to watch my Bitch fight. I’m totally excited, but yet again, he gets the shaft on TV time. The week after, I head out to Cali with ET, for 59 and get to watch Spoonman fight live. Then, hop the train up to SLO to hang with my Bitch, relax and write, and hopefully train a bit. I’ve been doing quite well, of late. Been happy with my training, and improving quite a bit. My teammates are saying I should compete next month, but I don’t think I’m ready yet, so I’m gearing up for the competition after that. Things are going well at home, other than me being tired and schedules being so swamped. I’ve been talking to a spa down the street, to see if I can pick up some hours there to cover the slow days. They pay more too.

Scorpio for this week:

I wear my hair long, like Benjamin Franklin, Isaac Newton, Jesus Christ, and the majority of the men who have lived in the Western world during the last two millennia. So even though I’m at odds with the cultural trends of the last 100 years, I’m right in alignment with more enduring ideas about masculine fashion. Try something similar, Scorpio: Meditate on how it might benefit you to get out of sync with prevailing attitudes about what’s right and good and true and cool, and instead be in style with more timeless and abiding modes.

FreeWill Astrology

Ummmmm, so I’m supposed to be more masculine? Heh, seriously, again he’s on track with me. I’ve paid little heed to cultural attitudes and more attention to the grander picture. Yeah, it makes me so farsighted that I oftentimes fail to see the tree for the forest, but that’s ok. I’d rather maintain my eye on the greater picture, while operating within the present. Sometimes, what feels right, right now, will be more of a set-back to where I want to go.

Scorpio for this week:

A few years ago, executives at a major record company signed my band to their label. They loved us. We were the next big thing. Or at least that’s what they told us up until the moment when they demanded that we change the titles and lyrics to some of our songs. They were afraid that the cigarette company Philip Morris would sue us for our song “Marlboro Man Jr.” and that Kmart would sue us for our song “Kmart Tribal Ballet.” We agreed to make the changes only because we had no choice: If we refused, our music would have never been heard. The company owned the rights to it. Let this serve as an example of what not to do in the coming weeks, Scorpio. Do all the research and strategic long-range thinking necessary to avoid getting into a position where people you don’t know very well control your fate.

FreeWill Astrology

I knew I was right on the pager shit. Now, to just keep my schedule on the up, so I don’t flop face first this pay period.