Scorpio for this week:

I asked my readers to make a prediction about what age they’ll be when they finally know exactly who they are. “I hope I NEVER completely know who I am!” wrote Bridjet. “I love discovering new things about myself, and to change as everything else around me changes. It is one of the most beautifully thrilling things about life.” If you share that perspective, Scorpio, the coming days should be pretty fun. You’re likely to become dramatically more mysterious to yourself. You’ll be evolving, even mutating, in ways that may amaze you, and you’ll be coming face to face with hidden aspects of yourself. Let the confounding, enriching expansion begin!

FreeWill Astrology

Well, I do share that perspective. In fact, of late it’s been a goal of mine to discover all the nooks and crannies in that dark stairwell that spirals down. And the best part, I’m so relaxed and clear that I will have no problems in discovering more. 😀

Scorpio for this week:

Before I suggest to you what your next assignment should be, read this passage from poet Adrienne Rich. “Whatever is unnamed, undepicted in images, whatever is omitted from biography, censored in collections of letters, whatever is misnamed as something else, made difficult-to-come-by, whatever is buried in the memory by the collapse of meaning under an inadequate or lying language — this will become not merely unspoken, but unspeakable.” What I hope you will do in the coming week, Scorpio, is rescue from obscurity any important thing that is on the verge of becoming unspeakable. Be a retriever of that-which-is-about-to-disappear. Be a rememberer of that-which-is-close-to-being forgotten.

FreeWill Astrology

Good advice. Will elaborate more when I have more internet time.

Since I’ve obviously been a bit absent from the online realms….

Scorpio for this week:
Welcome to Part Two of your outlook for the second half of 2007. We’re checking up on how you’re progressing with the long-term tasks you were assigned six months ago. I trust that by now you’re supremely composed as the changes whirl around you and within you. I mean, you will always be the zodiac’s master of transformation; you’ll always thrive on going through ceaseless, deep-seated shifts that would terrify most of the other signs. But if you’re taking advantage of this year’s cosmic opportunities, Scorpio, your eruptions of abracadabra! are being buffered by a profound grace. Your experiments in turning lead into gold and garbage into treasure are proceeding with a generous-spirited poise. Now you’re ready to take it to the next level of relaxed elegance.

FreeWill Astrology

Ya know, I can honestly say, at this point I am happy. I mean really happy. I’m at the point where I’m ready to start simplifying things around me a little more when I get back and working even more on the stuff I’ve neglected (like my CR magic studies). For being as messed up as it is here (the sun doesn’t go down till around midnight, and it rises before 4AM), it’s oddly tranquil. Though, I guess when you’re as messed up as I am, that works. 😀 Anyway, Drew and I are having a blast, and the addition of Aki to the room has been even better. I’m glad I have the two of them with me right now. And yes, I got pictures yesterday, and video (but not of the bands, as I snuck the camera in and didn’t want kill my karma).

Scorpio for this week:

America’s former Poet Laureate Robert Pinsky addressed an assembly at my daughter’s high school. He read from his translation of Dante’s Inferno and took questions from students. After hearing Dante’s description of the nether regions, one boy asked Pinsky what his personal version of hell was. The poet said that each of us creates our own hell. The fearful and negative interpretations of reality with which we infect our imaginations constitute curses that we cast on ourselves. They terrify and enslave us so thoroughly that most of the difficult outer circumstances we encounter are mild in comparison. Your next assignment, Scorpio, is to work on dissolving the hell you carry around in your own mind.

FreeWill Astrology

I love Robert Pinsky, especially his translation. 🙂 That said, I guess I need to ditch men again and get back to enjoying myself. Men make my life hell, I’d be a lesbian, but women do the same. And I guess, the idea of being in a relationship and being happy in one is hell. Of course, he has a point. If you imagine the worst, then the reality can’t be THAT bad. Which is one reason why I loathe society. The unfortunate part, is that my expectations are regularly lived down to, it’d be nice if I could find more than a few people who could prove me wrong on a regular basis.

(yes, I’m a cynic and a misanthrope, in the event you haven’t figured that out yet. oh yeah, I have a bit of nihilistic tendencies as well.)

Scorpio for this week:

I suggest we title this chapter of your life story “The Perplexing Joy of Hundreds of Emotions,” or maybe “The Wild Peace of Way Too Many Feelings.” That may be a bit of an exaggeration, but it’s an apt reflection of your immediate future: extreme, expansive, melodramatic, spectacularly educational, and filthy rich with intrigue. You may not break the world’s record for most mood shifts in a good cause, but you could very well smash your own personal record

FreeWill Astrology

Well, at least that would explain yesterday. Doing all nice and dandy after the drama shit storm that blew through on Monday night (it was resolved by 10AM yesterday), only to show up at training and watch my session circle the drain till I left the mat to shed a few tears in the locker room. I feel like Texas weather right now, not to mention a bad plot out of a story originally in 1001 Arabian Nights, that was left out of the final edit. For some reason, right now, I can’t look at my Professore, not even when he’s smiling at me.

Scorpio for this week:

“Dear Rob: Can you give me a rational explanation for why Scorpio is the most hated and feared sign of the zodiac? When I tell someone I’m a member of that tribe, the usual reaction is along the lines of ‘Ooohhh, a Scorpio,’ in the same way someone would say ‘Ooohhh, a horribly disfigured, compulsively evil, sexually deviant sideshow freak.’ -Sick of Being Dissed.” Dear Gorgeous Crafty Rebel Lover: I have some good news for you. 2007 is Scorpio Rehabilitation Year, and June is Scorpio Glorification Month. To take advantage of these milestones, all you need to do is vividly express your most beautiful qualities. Leave the rest to the universe.

FreeWill Astrology

Yay for Transformation!!!!! This one is kinda funny, given what I just posted over on my MySpace blog (don’t worry, I’ll repost here later today). The basic gist, is that I’m considering transforming myself into a modern-day courtesan (minus getting paid). The reason for this, is the fact that I’ve come to the decision that I only seek companionship, which I already have. Sex is something that is completely outside of my scope, with a few exceptions, and while is something desired, it is not a need or requirement for me to be happy in a relationship. Not to mention, I’ve lost focus on my life right now. And if I remove the new parts that contributed, I can refocus and start re-integrating those new parts back in.

Also, snagged this from Rob Brezny too:
Notice how you feel as you speak the following: “The strong, independent part of me resisted the embarrassing truth for a long time, but I finally came to accept that I’m someone who craves vast amounts of love. Ever since I surrendered to this need, it doesn’t nag me all the time, as it used to. In fact, it feels comforting, like a source of sweetness that doesn’t go away. I never thought I’d say this, but I’ve come to treasure the feeling of having a voracious yearning to be loved.”

I like that.

Scorpio for this week:

Militant atheists make the claim that religion has always been a primary cause of war. If humans weren’t under the sway of “the God delusion,” they fume, armed conflicts would be infrequent. But military historian Eric Bergerud says that’s absurd. He notes that while there have been a few religious wars, “most wars in history have been driven by the lust for power and loot.” In other words, the materialist delusion is far more lethal than the God delusion. People who believe there’s nothing of value beyond what the five senses can perceive are often the most dangerous of all. Make this the seed for your meditations, Scorpio. Think about how much less fear and loathing you’d suffer if you knew for a fact that your soul lives forever. Imagine the peace and wonder you’d feel if you knew there are realities and spiritual beings that aren’t visible to the naked eye or to the technology that science has thus far dreamed up.

FreeWill Astrology

I don’t think it’s a matter getting to the point of imagining this, as I already know it exists. It’s a matter of resolving the conflict between knowing and imagining. But I think this will be a good starting point for this week.

Scorpio for this week:

“The artist is a receptacle for emotions that come from all over the place,” said Pablo Picasso, “from the sky, from the earth, from a scrap of paper, from a passing stranger, from a spider’s web.” Now substitute your own name for “the artist” in the above statement, Scorpio, and you’ll have your assignment for the coming week. In other words, be alert for and open to the feelings flooding toward you from every direction. Regard the whole world as a giant classroom where you’ll be taking a crash course to upgrade your emotional intelligence.

FreeWill Astrology

Least that explains this week. I’m starting to even out, playing stuff out in my head and weighing my reactions and my options. Of course, I really hate having to deal with all that stuff at the same time.

Oh well, today I pick up my paperwork for my CCW. Fun stuff.

Scorpio for this week:

“Dear Rob: My plan has been to steal the man I love right out from under his wife’s nose without feeling a raging case of the guilties. Here’s what I’ve discovered thus far: You can only do something like this if you’re not friends with his wife, and if you love the guy so much that the beating of your heart drowns out the drone of your conscience. Any advice? -Scorpio Under a Spell.” Dear Scorpio: It’s rarely a good idea to break up a committed intimate relationship by stealing one of its members, but it’s an especially unfavorable time to pursue that goal now. May I recommend instead that you sublimate the urge by seducing your inner male? It’s an excellent time for you Scorpios to get crazy sexy deep with the part of your psyche that feels like the opposite gender.

FreeWill Astrology

In going with my post from earlier, about relationships outside of myself, maybe it might not be a bad idea to seduce my inner male. Then again, maybe my crazy sexy deep part of my psyche is female….