Well, I’m now concerned that I have a mild concussion. Yesterday’s morning training session was a bit rough for me, including a hard shin upside the head. I still have the headache, that covers the entire top cap of my head, and right now I have that light-headed feeling, but no hunger pangs in sight. Also seem to be a bit sensitive on the left side of my face. So, I’m going to eat a regular lunch today, and lighten up on dinner to change it around a bit, just in case it is a case of low sugar, and see how I feel tomorrow. The positive side of things, no training for a week, with the exception of technique work on Monday and running tomorrow.
Author: Saille
Scorpio for this week:
The secret you’re looking for, the secret you think you desperately need, does not exist–at least not officially. Unofficially, however, it’s very real. It’s alive and hot and exciting. But it’s in the care of people you don’t notice or value. It’s something you’d normally regard as cheap and insignificant. So let me ask you, Scorpio: Can you change the way you use your eyes? Will you drop the opinions that get in the way of you seeing the truth? The secret you’re in quest of, the resource that might solve so many problems, will be easy to pluck if you’ll just change your mind about matters that you imagine have nothing to do with the secret.
Hrm…..maybe California will hold even more for me this time around. 🙂 Deserves more pondering.
As I seem to be seeing this a lot around the blogosphere, I’d just like to point out a few things….
To those who want to complain that 300 isn’t historically accurate:
No shit Sherlock, it’s based on a comic book dealing specifically with the bardcraft of telling the tale of a battle. Please, show me a warrior culture that didn’t elaborate on the facts of various battles for the point of rallying the people. If you find one, I can tell you they probably weren’t all that successful on the battlefront.
In other skewed viewpoints, I don’t recall Michael Moore or Oliver Stone being that partial to the facts, and just the facts. 😀 Even they recognize that people can’t sit through their crap without a little tale spinning.
Eating habits and insights…
I don’t know when this started happening, I can’t figure if it’s from working retail and having only an hour or less to scarf down lunch, or the result of having lived with a control freak who decided he controlled when I ate and what I ate. But the fact remains, when I eat, I eat like it’s my last meal for the next 5 days. I scarf down food, and oftentimes too much to the point I’m ill. My ET commented once, while we were out in LA, that I wasn’t enjoying my dinner, which wasn’t true, but it sure looked that way.
At any rate, I went on a juice fast last weekend, to try and get past my 124.5 plateau and it brought home a few things, and let me reset this whole eating thing. I succeeded in getting down to 122, as well as realizing the issue with my stomach irritability after lunch. When I drink shakes for lunch, and eat a salad sometime around 4.30, I don’t have a problem with digestion. Which brings in the other observation. I have no concept of portion size (hey look, I have something else in common with most of America). Granted, I’ve always been big on taking home leftovers from eating out, I’ve never been able to train myself to not have seconds. Being on this diet has made me aware of that, as well as the fact that I eat small dinners, small breakfasts and an even smaller lunch, with a protien bar and a shake in the middle there somewhere, and I have yet to be painfully hungry when it comes to eating. My worst habit is when we eat Indian, I was so proud of myself for my break-fast meal, when we went out for Indian and I took home enough for lunch the next day. On top of that, I’m actually feeling a lot better….with exception to yesterday, but that’s because my schedule caused me to miss a meal/snack. I’m really liking where I’m at, and as much as I hate dropping weight (the fight after this one has a different weight class), I’ll be going back up to 125-130 when I’m done with this. I don’t like not being able to lift weights, which is the other side-benefit to all of this…I’m feeling the desire to be more active, and I’m ready to go out and do things earlier in the morning. Maybe the military would have done me some good earlier in my life, having it fairly structured is really doing me a favour. Now, to just come up with more things I can eat besides and Arby’s salad and an Odwalla Super Protein Shake (don’t always have time to go to Whole Foods for the lunch bar).
I would like to thank whichever deity is playing pet the Freak today. I understand that I’m fun to play with when I’m stressed, and running around like an idiot. But I’m really much nicer and more fun to get into trouble with, when I’m pet often. So thank you very much for having my 2P client cancel, so I can relax and eat this wonderful salad so I can make weight for my fight and kick some girl ass. I will make an extra special sacrificial bundle for my pre-fight ritual.
Oh give me a home, where the drama-free roam. And the Mausers and Rugers can play. Where n’er was there heard a discouraging word, about shooting dumbasses all day.
Thank you, I’ll be here all day.
Scorpio for this week:

Before the gurus Bhagwan Rajneesh and Chögyam Trungpa came along to amuse us with their confounding insights, a prime dispenser of crazy wisdom was British writer Oscar Wilde. Since this happens to be Oscar Wilde Week for you Scorpios, I urge you to get a sense of how his paradoxical brilliance worked so as to put yourself in a similar frame of mind. Study the following Wilde-isms. (1) “I can believe anything provided it is incredible.” (2) “Consistency is the last refuge of the unimaginative.” (3) “If you want to tell people the truth, make them laugh, otherwise they’ll kill you.” (4) “Ambition is the germ from which all growth of nobleness proceeds.” (5) “Moderation is a fatal thing. Nothing succeeds like excess.” (6) “Nothing can cure the soul but the senses, just as nothing can cure the senses but the soul.” (7) “Life is far too important a thing ever to talk seriously about.” (8) “Everything popular is wrong.” (9) “It is absurd to divide people into good and bad. People are either charming or tedious.” (10) “Disobedience, in the eyes of anyone who has read history, is humanity’s original virtue. It is through disobedience and rebellion that progress has been made.” (11) “Do you really think it is weakness that yields to temptation? I tell you that there are terrible temptations which it requires strength, strength and courage to yield to.” (12) “Selfishness is not living as one wishes to live, it is asking others to live as one wishes to live.” (13) “Always forgive your enemies; nothing annoys them so much.” (14) “I have the simplest tastes. I am always satisfied with the best.”
Welcome to the means, through which, I live. Pretty good summation. With that said, my assignment from my Kundalini class was to spend the next 40 days living in truth and speaking nothing but the truth from the heart. It’s something I plan on fulfilling, so we’ll see how it goes. If I get some time tonight, I’ll be expanding on all of this.
Being on the fast and the current fight diet, I’m realizing some interesting things about my eating habits. That’s another thing I wish to post about, I’ve never really realized how much I’ve fucked up my eating habits by working the jobs I’ve worked, as well as having had the negative relationships that I have had in the past. The combination of those has developed some really, really bad habits that I wasn’t previously aware of, outside of my ET noticing and commenting that I looked like I wasn’t enjoying my food while eating it (which wasn’t true, but did speak truth to how I ate).
Waaaaaaaaaaa! John Inman has passed 😦
So, I think I’ve gone at least 2 weeks, maybe closer to a month since I decided to ditch IMs and not hang out on the internet that much. What have I accomplished….well, I’ve been going to bed fairly on time, waking up around 7 now, and being functional by 9.30 and out of the house by 10 at the latest. My mood has been seriously better, even though the lows have been bordering on violent. I’m also half-way through learning my Danish, which was the main reason I ditched things. I’m happy with my progress through that fun stuff, down to the point I’m starting to dream in Danish and German (go fig). The funny parts are when I don’t know the word for something and use the German instead. Least it’s not the French that’s replacing it. But, I will say, that my love of languages is starting to come back, so we’ll see how I’m feeling after my visit to Scana, about adding a 6th language. I do need to get my German and my French back into practice (hear that French Wench? Get working!).
And have I mentioned that I absolutely love my Kundalini class? Oh yeah, and after my friend Chris’ review of 300, I think I need to get back to actual writing and criticism. That was one push behind my latest political posts. Getting the style and formatting back into practice, as well as the critical thinking involved in putting that type of critique into writing.
So, today I start the first day of my 2-day fast. I already broke it. 😀 I’ve decided, that due to the nature of my lifestyle, I have to at least eat breakfast. We’ll see if I feel the need to do so tomorrow. It’s the one problem that I’ve found with most fasts I’ve looked at, lack of protien. I can function ok without the carbs and whatnot, but the minute I cut out the protien I end up with muscular issues. So more than likely, I’ll be downing my usual protien shake for lunch. The positive side, is that I’m down to 123.6 today, without clothes. Yesterday I was at 123.4 in the morning and 125 even after dinner. That’s a positive sign, and I’m not feeling too funky with the diet change. The one thing that I am trying to get used to, is not eating to fullness. Been using the smaller plate theory, which has helped. I don’t go back for seconds, and I’ve been eating salads for 2cd lunch. So, pretty much, my schedule goes like this:
8AM- Turkey bacon and one egg for breakfast
11AM- 1/4th a protien bar snack
2PM- Protien shake lunch
4.30PM- Ceasar side salad with light dressing snack
6PM- 1/4th protien bar snack
8-9PM- light dinner with bison/chicken and veggies
For today and tomorrow, we’ll see how I can manage on this liquid stuff. I’m expecting the need for a shake around my normal time.
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