Freakchylde's

I’m seriously lethargic. Seems to be going around. I’ve decided I won’t be going to yoga for this week and next, mainly because I’m working all next week, and otherwise I need to get to where I’ve got the muscle endurance for both weights and yoga. I will be making a true effort to get to kickboxing this week, won’t be able to do it next week (work thing again). But I do have some serious overhauls to make. I’ve hit the bottom again, scraping, actually. Surprising, because usually this time brings a great amount of joy. But I’m finding, year after year, that this season brings more pain and shredded heart tissue than anything else. It’s the time of new beginnings, starting over, starting new, new goals, new projects. And I’m fucking depressed out of my mind! I spend more time trying to motivate me out of bed, then off to do the simple things, and it takes up too much time. And that’s just the crap that’s going on inside of me. I can’t even begin to hit the shit that coming at me from without.