Freakchylde's

To an extent, this is a reflection of how useless I feel. I made an attempt at fulfilling my promises and trying to mow the lawn. I failed. I can’t get the lawnmower started today. I went out, knowing that I’ve done it before and am perfectly able to start the thing, again. I was wrong. Pushed down on the clutch/gas lever, released it, placed my hand under the wire to tighten it a bit, pushed down again, release, pull starter cord. Nothing, not even a hint that the blades were moving. Just an empty attempt. Adjusted the clutch button near the gas tank. Repeated the whole ritual. Nothing, again. Went through the motions, yet again, resetting the clutch button, and trying again. Nothing. I give up. I try to be useful and am cast aside, as always, with the inability to do something as simple as starting a fucking lawnmower.

And today was going so good. Thankfully, I get to see the moonbird in a little bit. That will definitely help me out.