That point when my anxiety spikes….

Because life likes to do that to me. This is mainly around my professional life because that tends to be the source of it. Life was going pretty well, but I’ve been restless, like I’m missing something. There has been a path that I’ve been working towards, but every time I start to take a step on it the universe likes to throw a monkey wrench at me.

This time around, I started making the renovations that everyone has asked of me. Now they’ve all left. My long-time office mate, in trying to build her business, has chosen to move elsewhere. There’s an extent to which I’m happy for her, but stressed out from where it puts me.

But this time, I’ve determined I’m not letting it sideline me. In fact, it’s energized me to a certain extent and is pushing me to move in the direction that I started to – but side tracked because that whole “gotta make money” thing. Over the weekend, I sat down and catalogued what I need to do, set up a post to get me back where I need to be, and now I’m looking at how to finance it all. And therein lies the stress.

It’s the downside for those of us who choose to not sit at an office, but instead choose to be the people that those who do make that choice seek out when the stress rains down on them. I guess it’s a weird dichotomy in this world that we live in.

I do think we’re on a cusp of change. In the past, that was where my anxiety stemmed from. But this last year and a half, I’ve felt a calming – like we’re no longer building up to it and are now in the midst of it. I know this change has caused many to have their own anxiety (which I can understand given the current political climate we live in). But I’m seeing the choices that many are taking and I’m heartened by it.

And now I’m rambling. 🙂

But back to the subject, I have been needing to make a vision board. I have a written plan, will probably add some of that here as I progress.

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