Freakchylde's

So, I’m feeling very odd. Talked with my Mum today, she’s going to start calling me once a week. For some reason, she’s started to be a calming influence on me and I’m glad she’s going to do this. I feel a bit alone lately, separated and searching for a connection. Tonight I’m going to my first kick-boxing class, that should get me going a bit. Must call the Marine and see if he’s up for a concert next week, then on to the Armory to meet up with alekto and friends. Tomorrow I start working on my next grove assignment, it is something I need to do and I need to get off my ass and do it.

I need to eat. Started reading Kinsella’s translation of Tain bo Culaigne. It’s an interesting format and I should finish it quickly and start on the Stonehenge book I won last Lughnasadh.

Basically, I’m finding the necessity to begin relying on myself again. Not in the manner of living, in general, emotionally. I’m at the point of constant reminder, there is no rest for self-reliance. I can rely on no one, for nothing. If I do, I find myself at the same point, needing to take over and do it myself. Can’t rely on anyone, regardless how capable they portray themselves as.