So, tonight marks the end of my weekend as a reinstated bachelorette. What have I accomplished? Well, I managed to have more vivid dreams, yet managed to only write down a few. I have managed to spend some time with beloved friends, that I don’t get to see much. I think this is what I miss most. Being able to come home and just be by myself. I’m reconnecting with the step-terror, as his da isn’t here to pet and love him, so he has to settle with second best. I’ve enjoyed it. I haven’t had anyone putting pressure on me to get anything done, that I haven’t wanted to get done. Spent some time thinking to myself, sleeping on my own, spent time in my own room, enjoying this world on my own. I woke up this morning to a downpour. It was pleasant, and I can’t wait till my room is built in the backyard. It will be wonderful to sit in a roofed area, where I can just absorb the sounds and the scents. Oh, it will be lovely!!!! One of these days, I will take multiple weeks off to go spend time in the woods. I need to get back to that part of me. My tree self, that sits in the rain and drinks up the bounty in wonderment. I’ve been trying to re-connect with willows, but the long-distance is hard. I’m contemplating planting one in the backyard, or at my camping spot on Druid’s hill. It would be a means of marking my spot. My area, my space in time. My goal for the next couple of weeks. Little t.v. and technology, more time outside. I do need to work on limiting my writing to actual paper and not so much a computer. It doesn’t help me get to where I need to be.

Finally, my body can return to normal. I really don’t get the point of daylight savings time, anymore. In the early days of the country, I could understand it, but it completely gets my bio-clock off, so I spend all the months of savings tired, moody, and all that other jazz. I hate it. My body likes to wake up when it’s supposed to, and go to sleep when it’s supposed to. Otherwise it gets really pissy. I think I’m going to include that in my goals for the upcoming dark year, to work on. Letting my body do what it’s supposed to. I stay up later than it wants to, because the rest of my wants to spend time with others. I get up early because my job requires it. So both conflict with each other and I end up fatigued. I’m going to make an effort to succeed in not doing that anymore. I’ve got Tivo, I can tape the late shows I want to see, as well as the early shows. Time to make a more vestige schedule and stick to it. I can’t take living like this anymore.