Day: September 1, 2003

D*Con – the end:

Today was cool, got shopping stuff, including some custom candle sticks for my home alter. Verra cool. Staring and drooling paid off, got Lani Tupu’s autograph, with pic *eg*. I’m tired as hell, couldn’t get to sleep till 5 this morning. I’m still feeling fuzzy on where I stand in perspective to my group of friends. I feel distant, though most of that is self-created. I know I need to move scenes again, going more towards the metal crowd and away from the gothy crowd. I don’t know, there’s drama in every scene, but lately it seems like the drama is the only thing I have in commonality, to discuss, with anyone else. It makes me feel like I’m slacking in some area and need to move on. I miss my friends in Cali, and even a few in Texas. Not sure what I want, again. I do feel more confident in my music, and I’m working on that realm on my own. Sometimes, I’m just not sure on where I stand on anything.

Con – Day 3:

Much, much better!!!!!! I spent most of the morning discussing privacy issues in the EFF panels and the rest of the day shopping and with friends. Along with my most sincerest apologies for jumping the gun. I was hoping I was explaining myself enough to show that I wasn’t sure about the situation, but I wanted to make sure that my suspicions weren’t baseless. I spent some of the evening at both the Voltaire and Godhead concerts. Again, hotel security was a bunch of bullshit. In the atrium, around the elevator, it’s like a big giant circle. So, the hotel security was trying to get everyone to walk in circles. Resulting in the inability to head over to the cafe, without cutting through the bar or restaurant area. Needless to say, it was a bunch of ill-thought idiocy. Went and started a Crais, again, for a bit. Got some more drooling out of the way. Almost got run over by the guy who, originally, played the Hulk, which was cool. Spent time with iriedanym again, always a joy *grin*.

One thing I have noticed about myself. I seem to find that I’m becoming a bit socially inept around a few friends of mine. I’m not sure what the situation is, though it does feel like communication between them and me is a bit faltering on more occassions than not. Odd. Anyway, off to bed now.