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Ok, thanks to CNN, I’ve managed to cut my candidate list down even further. Kucinich will definitely not be in the running. Nice ideas, but his views of necessary changes regarding our foreign relations, right now, and the creation of a “Dept of Peace” make me feel like I’m tasting rabbit fur on my tongue. Gephardt has nice ideas, but he’s too Washington. Clark, I have my issues with, but he has the experience regarding the military (yes, I know, that’s not a guarantee he’ll have any concept of foreign affairs), Kerry is still at his same spot, as does Dean. I do like Dean’s ideas though. Decisions, decisions. Anyone want to shed any insight on the candidates? (I don’t care about Mosely-Braun and Sharpton, so you can tweak the list down *wink*)

Scorpio for week of Oct 9:

“You are potentially a genius. Maybe not in the same way that Einstein and Beethoven were, but still: You possess some capacity or set of skills that is exquisitely unique. You are a work of art unlike any other that has ever lived. Furthermore, the precise instructions you need to ripen into that glorious state have always been with you, even from before you were born. In the words of psychologist James Hillman, you have a soul’s code. You might also call it the master plan of your heart’s deepest desire; the special mission that the Divine Wow sent you here to carry out; the blueprint that contains the secret of how to be perfectly, gracefully, unpredictably yourself. Now here’s the really good news, Scorpio: You’re at a turning point when you have extraordinary power to tune in to and activate untapped areas of your soul’s code.”

FreeWill Astrology

For some reason, I wish to explain a few things….

In the world of the freakchylde, there is one major rule and one major rule alone….Don’t lie to me. There’s a reason for it, especially if you’re lucky enough to be allowed into the the inner walls of my being. I really, really don’t like it and I consider it a massive breach of trust, which is usually never regained. Now, I can take the need for someone to lie, make themselves look bad, in order to protect someone else that doesn’t deserve the pain, yet. That’s dealable and I do it myself (worked in corp america, also the reason I no longer work in corp america). However, if you lie, solely for your own gain, you screw yourself. And you screw yourself even worse when you naively try to logically explain it away through the idea that you’re protecting someone else. You’re not. You’re protecting your own ass, and for that you deserve to roast in the blue flames. Along those lines is also the concept of talking out of your mouth, instead of both ends of your digestive tract. What does this mean? If you’re going to say that you’re going to do something, say….to change the habit/s in your life, make an effort to do it. Even if you fail, you’ve at least made the effort and not just made lip service. Don’t make promises that you don’t intend to keep. I consider that lying for your own protection and talking out of your ass. Wrong choice. And when you prove me right, after asking my advice and disregarding it like I never gave it, and I tell you I was right…don’t go trying to pawn yourself off as being innocent. You’re not. I told you and you ignored me. Also, when you know what my reaction is going to be, don’t tell me not to react in that way. My reaction is not going to change, regardless of what you say. You knew what you were going to face and you chose to face it. Now deal with the fucking consequences, you created the situation.

I’ve contemplated a rhetorical theory my Therapist suggested: lower my expectations and I won’t be as depressed when they’re not met. Don’t harbour so much hope when I know what the reality will be. However, my question would be this: Is it really that much to ask, that those close to me actually have enough knowledge and respect for me, as their friend, that they can tell me the truth instead of lying? Is it that much to ask, for my friends to act as mature individuals who are grown-up, in regards to how they present themselves in their relationship to me? I give this to each and every one of my friends, is it that much to ask for it in return? Otherwise, grow up and don’t bitch when the expected reaction occurs. I’m not like everyone else. I have my limits and I don’t let people push them, especially when it comes to the special privileges I already grant to those who can count themselves amongst my kindred. In my world, family is just as easy to cast off as strangers. It might take more planning, but the strings cut the same way.

Hmmmmmm, I’ve sat and thought about this most of the night. I was polite and cordial, but now I’m of the opinion that the 3rd strike means you’re out, period, end of discussion. I really, really don’t like liars who lie for their own benefit. That’s my decision, and this time, I’m going to stick with it.

Scorpio for this week:

“By a margin of 4-1, my Scorpio readers have voted to impose on me a six-week ban on all references to maddening ambiguity. You have informed me that you’re weary of grappling with enigmas wrapped inside conundrums. You want earthy instructions and simple truths. Maybe I’ll start obeying your orders next week, but I’d be remiss if I didn’t let you know that you’re about to be offered odd gifts from people in transition, benevolent interventions that require major course corrections, and mysterious help from the Great Beyond.”

FreeWill Astrology

Ok, for those who love most/all things Irish….go see Riverdance! Now! Especially if you have the magical connection to those things. They’ve changed it around, so it’s evolving (a nicely Irish concept that never sits still – I’m not speaking in the “everything evolves thing, it’s the cyclical thing”) and not the same as when Flatley was lead. But gods, it was absolutely wonderful. Mucho thanks to the moonbird for the ticket, it was much well spent and I owe you. I’m still all fuzzy over it, the headache is not from lacking of grounding this time. I spent the whole ride home doing a waking meditation in silence. It’s from strobe effects, I stared at them even though I know they give me headaches. *sigh* Wunderbar!!!!!!!!!!

[EDIT]: If you’re going to see a live performance of something (all concerts included), unless you’re about to puke your guts out, or some other emergency, DON’T FUCKING GET UP AND LEAVE TILL THE FUCKING LIGHTS COME ON! IT’S BLOODY RUDE TO THE PERFORMERS AND THE PEOPLE BEHIND AND NEXT TO YOU!!!! That is all.

Ok, suggestions???? I have a few suggestions, that haven’t worked yet. But I need to find a better trigger that will allow me to remember my dreams later in the day (on the days that i work) so i can write them down. Anyone? and for those that want to suggest cantrap, already checked it 😉 got those suggestions.

Ok, so went and saw Underworld a couple days ago. Yeah, the plot was a bit thin, but given the ending, it could lead to some fleshing out in a sequal. Otherwise, fuck White Wolf and the whole “Vampire: the Masquerade” thing. Gods, yeah, gamers (who actually play the games) could figure it out, but the rest of us who go for the eye candy (and there’s much of it – more for the girls and bois than the guys) aren’t going to sit there and say, “Oh, that’s from an RPG, shame on them for even putting it in there.” On top of that, regardless of the b.s. said in the suits thus far, the word that is being focused on is a noun that is the most common descriptor for the object that it is describing; “abomination”. *sigh* Yeah, that’s not the only focus, but it is one of them and it’s pathetic. Anyway, I’d go see it again, and I have no issues with providing more of my money towards Sony for it.