Ok, this sucks…

I’ve found a new fav song. However, its on a ripped CD and there are no song tags. Result? I have no clue who sings it or what the song name is. I would love to snag more of this group, but damn! I don’t know who they are, even though I could probably take a good guess. So, off to guess!

“All the things she said, running through my head. Running through my head, all the things she said, I think I’ve lost my mind!” Again. 😛 Out! Out! Evil thoughts! Fie thee!!!!!!!!!!!! Fuck, I’m stuck.

Gods I’m getting pathetic with posting again….

Anyway, noticed a good site on VH1 a minute ago….
www.whitebedroom.com so far I like it. Hopefully it won’t go the same direction as theantidrug.com did. About the only thing I don’t like is the monogamy thing, but we all know why anyway, so that doesn’t matter.

Ok, Opeth CD good. I like, to go, or not to go…..but i think I’ll wait for the concert to come up and see how things are going then. *ponders*

Ok, ballet class picked out, now all i have to do is make a visit to a local dance shop for a new pair of shoes and tights that actually fit me. I’m considering snagging some pointe shoes while I’m there. That way I’m prepared and I can also practice so I can walk in my pointe boots (something I really want to eventually wear in public). Now, off to see about stained glass…

I have a couple of upcoming concerts I want to go to…..hmmmmm to attend or not to attend, that would be the question….

In other news, I finally got my bloody stereo CD player working. It won’t play recorded CDs anymore, but that’s ok, at least it plays the damned things.

In other, other news. I know there are those of you out there with various opinions about me. And I know you aren’t members of LJ, and that’s ok, I won’t hold it against you, but you know you want to email me, or, even better…you can post anonymously. Yes, folks, I have turned that function on. Utilize it, you know you want to, I dare you to. *eg*

Now, off to netshop and call the Atlanta Ballet for classes, and the Mudd room for stained glass classes. Must occupy my time *grin*

I woke up with tears in my eyes. I think I cried in my sleep….

I’m weird.

Ya know, as much as I enjoyed Cirque and thought it was great. I shouldn’t have come home alone. All it did was reignite things. I’m left wanting to move to my music, feeling myself enveloped in a deep hug, surrounded by scents long gone only to remain in memories. Instead, just laying in bed seeking safety in my dreams and failing miserably. Feeling the need to expose my weakness again. But yet, I’m left to remain strong on the outside, while fading away on the inside, wilting slowly.

Ok, since it’s officially tomorrow, I’ll post….

Varekai was everything its cracked up to be. Absolutely beautiful. Words definitely were failing me during intermission. Seeing humans perform in this manner is the only time I can honestly say the human race has merits. If things hadn’t been as they have been, I would have been crying my eyes out, but all I could do was manage to just tear up. It makes me wonder why I ever quit dancing, seems to be the only times when I could reach my full expression of passion that runs through my body. And because of that, sometime tomorrow I’m going to call the Atlanta Ballet and see what days their adult ballet classes are on and how much they are. Given that I now have time and still need a means of expression of what’s in me, I might as well take up dancing again. Funny thing, when I had a really good partner, it was the only time my true fantasies were ever realized. That movie love affair that comes true, only when your match is on the dance floor with you. *sigh* And club stuff doesn’t cut it, jerking around on a floor never comes as close as choreographed liquid movement. Besides, when it’s done that way, there’s enough room on the floor to actually use it (unless you go to an empty club where the DJ sucks). Alright, night night. I need to go wallow in deep misery again, it’s actually making me feel alive again.

Oh yeah, I wanted to mention…to all the weird non-lj freaks that read my journal (from back in the day, when i hosted the bloody thing) commentary is open to you here, so please feel free to post instead of feeling the need to shoot email at me. plus, you never know, might actually stimulate conversation on this blasted thing.

On another note, to those that like to play on the playground…what do you think of this? I’m tempted to create a banner that would frame the top and sides of the page. me in braids (braids providing the background for the nav bar and right margin, and eyes providing the top banner). My Scotsman has suggested an occassional blink for the eyes, but I’m still anti-animation right now. So, how does that sound?