Well, this morning I was running errands and trying to come up with a list of things accomplished, so far, this week. When I got home, all of that was gone. My front window screen was opened, to an open window, and Alpine is no where to be found. Spent $30 on flyers for the entire complex, my Scotsman came home to help, checked the Dekalb animal control and posted a lost form for him. But, he’s gone, my baby boy is gone. I just can’t believe it, and no one reported the fact my apartment window was wide open! No police report, no notice the police were even here, and everyone around me that I’ve talked to, “Was it a robbery?” WTF people! When a window is cracked open, call the fucking police! *sigh* April sucks because April fools day is running a wee bit too long for me.

So, what have I accomplished this month? Here:
A kindred walked out of my life, and I’m starting to believe he’ll never come back.
My cat is missing.
I got both my Tax returns.
I saved my favourite bird.
I haven’t killed anyone.
Was lectured by an ex-lover about getting into emotional fuck-ups (he was one of them)
I met a cool guy from Cirque du Soleil.
I’ve managed to be social, instead of hiding.
I’ve managed to not voice those feelings that would most likely get others in trouble.
I’ve managed to keep my armour fairly thick when in public.
I’ve locked my feelings into private journal entries.
I’ve become the book that gets judged by its cover.
Began my acting career.
Went shopping instead of slitting my wrists.
Memorized the vocal emotions of love lost.

I think that’s it. If it’s not, I don’t think I’ll be able to make it through this month without cracking.

Ok, sum of the day….

Work was ok, daylight savings made it go faster. My mexican co-worker informed me that, not only did I need to drink 2 tequilas in the morning, but I also needed a mexican guy. Took five minutes to explain to him why I didn’t and got backed up by the tex-mex co-worker that hates mexicans. Other than that, work was usual. A guy I met about a week ago, who works for Cirque du Soleil, came in again and we got to chat for a bit. Made my day, although I kept dropping things *scratching head*. Snagged some moo-cow for dinner and hit Borders to the local pagany meeting. It was good to see my friends, but I noticed I spent more time watching the parking lot than paying attention to the discussion. Borders didn’t have my CD, though, they do carry it. So, tomorrow, when I do the errand run I’m going to hit Wax ‘n Facts to speak with Victoria about ordering it. Now, it’s the evening planning of next week’s vacation. My Scotsman and I are heading to the mountains for some away time. So, I will be putting ballet on hold for a week or so. In the meantime, I’m doing pretty good on singing in the car, I find it does help to sing with my Misery CD. I’ve got most of the songs memorized at this point, if that says anything about how much I listen to it. *sigh*

I’m almost to my full amount of money to pay for the next tattoo and what do i do? I come up with yet another one. *sigh* this one will definitely piss my parents off, though. Came up with it yesterday at work, after much restless thinking. It starts off on the top of my neck (where I shave) and weaves down my neckline and onto my shoulder blades. I’m thinking Tribal knotwork out of Ivy. The top part is for me, right now, so you all will have to wait till I’m ready to spill that one. So much for the armband I was trying to design, but that will eventually come, after this next one, which comes after the eyebrow piercing.

In other news, today I go pick out the purple for my new bedroom and potentially the diamond nose stud, formerly known as the “engagement” ring. One thing I will be happy about, is that if that dick ever wants it back, I’ll have to stick my finger up my nose to get it. *eg*

yet another reason not to fuck with this scorpio… this is funny

Ok, for those interested, Nightwish will be in town on September 5th at Earthlink Live. Anyone care to join me? For a list of bands, go here. If you are interested, let me know and I’ll snag a ticket for you when they go on sale (that happens May 5th).

Ok, this sucks…

I’ve found a new fav song. However, its on a ripped CD and there are no song tags. Result? I have no clue who sings it or what the song name is. I would love to snag more of this group, but damn! I don’t know who they are, even though I could probably take a good guess. So, off to guess!

“All the things she said, running through my head. Running through my head, all the things she said, I think I’ve lost my mind!” Again. 😛 Out! Out! Evil thoughts! Fie thee!!!!!!!!!!!! Fuck, I’m stuck.

Gods I’m getting pathetic with posting again….

Anyway, noticed a good site on VH1 a minute ago….
www.whitebedroom.com so far I like it. Hopefully it won’t go the same direction as theantidrug.com did. About the only thing I don’t like is the monogamy thing, but we all know why anyway, so that doesn’t matter.

Ok, Opeth CD good. I like, to go, or not to go…..but i think I’ll wait for the concert to come up and see how things are going then. *ponders*

Ok, ballet class picked out, now all i have to do is make a visit to a local dance shop for a new pair of shoes and tights that actually fit me. I’m considering snagging some pointe shoes while I’m there. That way I’m prepared and I can also practice so I can walk in my pointe boots (something I really want to eventually wear in public). Now, off to see about stained glass…