Who am I when I remove my mask?
Well, that can be one of several things, which people slowly get to see the closer to my inner circle they get. One person I am, is this extremely caring person who will go out of her way for her friends to make sure they get what they need. Another person is a scared little girl who never got the chance to really grow up because she was too busy trying to fit into, what she felt was, what she was supposed to be, as told by everyone around her.

When do I put a mask on, and what does it look like?
I usually do this when I’m in a foreign situation, like around a lot of people and I’m the only one I know there, or there are only a couple of people I know and they are busy. In less words, whenever I am forced to be on my own. It’s usually one of power and control, like I’m actually in control of a situation I’m not, or a stand-offish one that keeps people away from me so I don’t have to interact with them.

How am I facing life?
Well, I’m now in the process of changing that through bodywork and becoming aware of the issues I have within myself. Otherwise, I kind of take it as it comes and alter my course depending on change of circumstance or change of need/desire.

What am I afraid to see?
The fact that people will have issues with who I really am and my opinions, especially if I want to invite them into my inner circle. Normally I don’t care what others think of me, but I’ve kind of been retrained in that aspect and I’m working to retrain myself out of that aspect. I need to quit fearing myself and who/what I am and how others see that. I guess that’s why it’s easier to open up via non-facial interraction (though, I think being deaf has something to do with that, too).

What do I need to say that I am holding back?
Every opinion I hold. Last week, we did neck work, and I got the scream out that my ex-fiance stuck there when he choked me. There’s much more stuck there and I’ll find a way to get it out of my throat when I figure out what needs to be said.

If I could completely let go, what sound expresses what I am feeling?
Growling, shrieking, all really, really loud sounds of anger, angst, and distress.