Pelvis and Abdomen:

Where in my body to I experience my “center”?

Well, honestly, it is around my belly button. Though, sometimes I think it’s a bit higher because I have a tendency to lose my balance on occassion when I’m not paying attention.

Am I at ease with sexual expression? If not, why?

I’m at ease with sexual expression, but I’m not at much ease with expression of my own physically. I have no issues with discussing my own sexual expressions, but once it moves past that, I start to close up because I have to control various urges I have out of the grace of committments I have put myself into. However, I have found that if I don’t deal with those urges in some manner, they end up over-powering me in ways that I end up not being able to control. Which sometimes leaves me in a Catch-22 because I’ll end up damned if I do, or damned if I don’t.

Am I in control of my sexual energy, or is it leading me?

At this particular point in time, which is why I chose this body part, I’m going to say that it is currently leading me and I am struggling to retain control of it out of respect and courtesy. I think I am doing quite a good job at maintaining a vestige of control, given that I have gone this long without issue and that I am currently dealing with the issues I have in a constructive manner that is healthy and respectful.

What am I afraid to face? How are my feelings twisted or confused?

Well, I know I’m afraid to face the truth of myself and who/what I am. I am trying to hold to something that I believe I can be and work within the confines I have placed myself in. Whether or not those feelings are twisted and confused is outside my scope at the moment, but I believe that I can overcome the issues I am facing and retain control of myself and my urges.

Am I in touch with my “gut feelings?”

Yes I am, often times they hurt in ways they shouldn’t

Can I let go of my rational thinking and follow my instincts?

Yes, but that would revert back to what I am afraid of facing within myself. I have made a decision and my basic instincts would lead me into an instance that I don’t want to cause or deal with. It is my rational/primal mind that is causing the conflict because what one of them wants is not what I want in the long run. I cannot give into some frivolous thing for a moments enjoyment when the long-term is put in jeopardy.

Do I let myself express my emotions?

No, I don’t. They are closed for a reason and they get me into trouble.

Am I expressing my power fully and constructively?

I’m expressing it fully but not necessarily constructively. I find I become more destructive in dealing with my anger and having the need to act out my aggressions in some way, more often than not, during sex.

What does it mean to me to be “centered?”

In homeostasis within my mind and body. Feeling complete in the moment and not in need of outside stability.

Do I breathe with my belly?

Yep, been doing Yoga and meditating for too long to not know to breathe from the center. Playing in Jr High band helped too.