Ok, this is the start of something I’m going to do at least once a week. It’s basically an inner exploration of myself in front of the whole bloody world, so if you don’t like this shit, ya might want to skip over my journals. Basically what I’m doing, is taking the time to answer routine questions from The Balanced Body by my wonderful instructor Don Schuemann. So, the first set of questions deals with the chest, and here I go:

What sparks your inner fire?
Couldn’t quite say, but I’ve always been a curious one. Trying to uncover secrets and hidden knowledge. Passion does it too, not just the physical/sexual sense, but intellectual as well.

When and how do I control my feelings through breathing?
Whenever they hit the point I’m about to explode or I’m in public. I’ll start breathing deeply when angry or about to cry, mostly through my nose to really get control of it.

Does my heart center feel open?
Sometimes. I’m working on opening it up and being more upfront with who I am to both myself and those around me. But for the most part, I lock my feelings inside of me so that I can control in a seriously unhealthy manner. So far, it’s just made me chronically pissed and ill.

How am I restricting myself?
I’m not honest with myself about my feelings and opinions. And I’m not 100% honest about voicing my opinions when they should be voiced. That’s how I’ve ended up having difficulty taking in full breaths and why I’m usually breathing deeply, like I’m sighing–when I’m not.