Day: June 23, 2002

Ok, I have this assignment for school in my journal. Basically, it’s taking one point in life, where I was identified with some aspect of my life, therefore becoming that aspect and nothing else. Or, I can describe a time where I over-identified with something and caused myself to become nothing more than that aspect. I sit thinking about those situations, and things that are going on in my life, at the moment, and realize that I do that quite often, even though it might only last a minute. Driving home last night after the after-party was a similar situation, though it has more to do with trained insecurities that need to be broken. I sit back thinking how often I’ve been, or I have, over-identified with being pagan, being a gothy-type, being female, being a young person, etc. How often in life we come across people who will know just one thing about us, and suddenly we become that one thing they know because it stops them from learning more about us? Case in point, the ex-roommate of the ex-idiot fiance and I never really got along too terribly well, because we didn’t know where our similarities were. She was of one religious and philosophical persuation and I was of another. The only commonality we had was our love of religious discussion, so that was what we discussed. As it was passed on to me, I was just that pagan goth who over-identified with being a pagan goth. Funny, the ex-idiot fiance began seeing me as that too, got irritated with my religious identity (because I don’t separate it from who I am) and told me to quit talking from a religious standpoint on so many things. Well, at any point, we know how that story ended and we know that I’m still a very religious person. It’s a strong aspect of me because that is where most of my values and personal ethics come from, and those of you who’ve been around me during those times when I try to resolve my internal ethical issues with various things, you know exactly how strong those ties are for me. Is that only what I am? No, I’m a multi-faceted person, just like everyone else. It just takes longer to get to the candy middle to find out all those facets of me for people who like to read Pat, the bunny more often than an in-depth Existentialist writer. Food for thought of those who read this: What is your predominant facet and how does that view affect how you see yourself and how you perceive others to see you?