Ok, either I am in serious need to completely decimating some human, who is in desperate need of it, or I just need to hit the gym for a full on, extreme workout. Lately, I’ve been having daydreams of heated arguments, physical fights with someone and various other methods of torturing and/or harming someone. Of course, this just might mean that I am in serious need of a vacation. I’m getting frustrated at my own self for lack of verbal communication skills, lack of conflict resolve, or mainly just too much zen at school. At least I know I could never be a buddhist monk (not just because I’m female). I can’t say my anger is truly directed at any one specific human, but as a result, there are now people I am really going to have to stay away from until I resolve this inner conflict to where I won’t snap their neck upon them looking at me the wrong way. Of course, it could also be because Mercury is in retrograde, yet again, with the exception that I’m not pagan enough to follow that ‘new-agey’ belief. *shrugs* Maybe I do need a slave to order around from time to time. No, that wouldn’t be a good idea, I have too many sadistic tendencies that I might take too much advantage of that kind of situation. My Scotsman figured I just needed to go to the gun range again, but I shot down that idea (no pun intended) because I’m not exerting any physical energy with the exception of taking in the recoil. Also, I might be tempted to take my aim to more public places. I think facing a stone wall and climbing it till I conquer it might help, or taking some time to put the skates on and play a pick up game of hockey at the local rink. I know this is an inner conflict, I’m not sure why I’m having it, or seriously how to resolve it outside of physical exertion within myself. I think I need another vacation from my life, too bad I can’t run off to Europe again. That might be what I need at the moment.